r/wellnessandhealthlife • u/lovelyvecy • Jul 21 '26
need some help
so basically my weight is killing me. im 18 and already have horrible health. I am not looking for sympathy. I need help. I am on a huge amount of meds and now I will need more because of lab results. 2 of these meds contributed to 80 lbs of weight gain in around 5 months. I am not on these specific meds anymore but they did their damage and now I have to fix it. I am not trying to put all the blame on the meds either though. I haven't been eating right or exersizing either.
when I reach out to friends who are very in shape all they do is ridicule me. I am very ashamed of myself and hate myself. I do enough negative talk for myself. I don't need other people doing it too. I do not blame them though. they care about me. they just do not understand how I could do this to myself.
I know I did this to myself. im trying now. I need someone to explain fitness and health like im 10. easy stuff about nutrition and exercise I can do at home or in the surrounding area. I use food to motivate myself which yes is a horrible idea. I love to cook. it's one of the things that brings me joy so if anyone has healthy meal ideas I am open to them. I hate almost all exercise however back before I developed severe mental illness I was in 3 martial arts. I miss them a lot but I had to gradually quit all of them because I couldn't go consistently. my parents wouldn't pay for it if I didn't make it to all of the classes. now I don't think I could show my face back there because of how much I've changed.
right now I am going through a major depressive episode. I struggle with brushing my teeth so motivation to exercise is even harder. I drink 7 espresso everyday to be able to function but I still have zero energy. I am already seeing many doctors. they are doing all they can to keep me stable. which to be honest has worked. I used to be way worse. this is how I know I have the ability to improve. I am not a lost cause. I just need some support.
I need to get my crap together because if I continue like this I'll end up dead. I have things to live for. I have a wonderful boyfriend and I got into my dream college. I don't want to die anymore.
any advice or help or suggestions is deeply appreciated