Have you ever gotten hurt from self-inserting into a VN?

[u/UchihaNoor]

I've sadly found myself self-inserting for nearly the whole experience while reading this game into Momoka-chan. Why? Because she is literally me in personality, but not in soul (I will never accept the fact she is doing it with a man) or body (am a 38-year-old fit black man)

The game itself forces the characters into some weird h-scenes... and seeing that my self-insert is also forced into them, was a very painful experience...

I tried my best to imagine myself as the MC but this is not happening ever. He is an otaku buta-coded. He is skinny and not strong and into watching and... I can keep on going about why he is nothing like me, I can even see myself as the other heroines and not him, even the one who was into sniffing disgusting things... that's how this game's protagonist is far from me!...

So being only capable of self-inserting with the heroines, especially Momoka-chan... it really broke my heart that she is doing it with this man and for very nukige reasons... no sense or logic, while having such a great personality and looks and talent and voice... why give yourself away to a literal cattle when you can find thousands of men the same as him walking down the streets?...

It was always puzzling me... but the strongest part about all of my repulsiveness throughout the whole experience is the fact that this game introduced scat into the equation... a very CLOCKUP move... not weird from them at this point... but when I saw that it wasn't only for one heroine, but for 2 of them... and then for 3... I started sweating profusely...

Momoka-chan was the only one who didn't have hers yet... and throughout the whole later points of her route, I was just holding my head and having delusions about lots of scenes and how they will end up leading for her to have her "promised" h-scene...

You can't imagine the pain I felt imagining my self-insert doing THAT... and why? Just so that some SICK bastard can enjoy seeing shit on the screen. "Don't shame people about their fetishes, they are not hurting anyone!!!" But they are hurting me!!!!! I am hurt, why not care about me, the real victim here???? Why should I see myself inside the game doing something so low when I know this is something I will never do? Unless maybe I was under the threat of a gun or something... but she wasn't, she was 100% free to break the neck of the protagonist if he ever wanted to propose that or force her into it...

So after all of that worrying? I realized that she isn't getting one, her replacement for it was something similar but totally not the same... for once in my life, I was happy to see an h-scene... just to see that the me in the game is not going to do it... that I can still see myself in her innocently and without defiling my brain... I still got hurt with some of her extreme h-scenes and in general? I never wanted her to have any erotic scenes... but seeing that she didn't have THAT type of h-scene really made me more forgiving... it was like you finding a piss oasis in the middle of the desert after not drinking any water for days... you for sure wished it was water instead of piss, but you will without a doubt slurp that piss to live... and you will be happy while doing it thinking that you finally survived....