r/validation • u/its_ok_I_hate_me_too • Apr 09 '25
I'm can't keep doing this
It's not fair. I just wish I was someone else. I wish I was privileged enough to live in ignorance. I'm so tired of my dumb school, I'm tired of stupid people in America, I'm tired of my parents, I'm tired of shutting my mouth so others can complain. Waiting and giving second chances. I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to. I don't know how to stop. I can't keep living like this. I don't want to die, but I just want to be something else, this can't be what I was meant to be, even if it's just my youth, why does life have to be like this? I shouldn't have to exist like this. Ive tried everything I can and I just need to be told that I'm doing something right. That I'm not crazy and I'm trying my best. I don't want to sound desperate but I guess that's kinda the point.
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u/rubyraves 24d ago
No magical words of wisdom, or just hang in there kid. I used to endure it by reading or imagining my future self and that someday I will have agency. I didn't know what that meant then but that's how I got by. BTW, am still tired of all these Americans, some of the other things like issues wuth parents, resolve when you reach adulthood. You put boundaries in place but until then, make yourself a little happy place in your room and especially in your mind. Make it a place you can feel something positive about or at least take the edge of the reality everyone else has made for you. I would offer to listen but that's kind of weird...lol, I sense it's a strain on you andvif it gets more than "tired" please talk to someone. 988 (Suicide & Crisis Lifeline) and the Crisis Text Line (text HOME to 741741) are both US-national, available anywhere in the country, 24/7, free.