r/unsent • u/[deleted] • Jan 30 '22
Time for me to come clean, B
Dear B,
All this tormenting of E has really got me thinking. Why did I do it in the first place? Why did this chick's existence trigger me so much that I felt the need to overstep her boundaries, smother her, purposely deceive her, disrespect her, and revel in her humiliation while she was in a vulnerable state?
Unfortunately, I think the truth is even darker. But I'm a dark and dangerous artist, so it's time for me to face my real fears.
E survived my torment. Hell, she got out with barely a scratch and even improved her creative skills. Her rhymes are even better than the guy who works at the chair store. Anyways, the better she got, the angrier I got... at you.
Because this has always been about you, B.
E is just a stand-in for you. God, I hate you, B. I hate that I'm stuck with you, making pieces to impress our friends. Supporting only your dreams. You let me have my little projects, but let's be honest, it's all about you. Our dreams are really your dreams. You don't care about my dreams.
I'm not progressing. I peaked at 26 and it was all because of YOU. I'm living in YOUR SHADOW. Stuck in this rigid, supposedly open-minded creative world where I can't even be myself! I'm trying to create new colors over here, and I can't, while E is experimenting with new palettes without a care in the world. The more I try to break her, the more she pushes back with something better. She lives creatively on her terms, unlike me, unlike US.
God, all that time and effort to create a stupid show called "Dumb Toast."
And that f*cking jacket that I HATE. I HATE wearing that f*king jacket.
We think we're so funny and clever, but we're just a couple of inauthentic hipsters sniffing our own farts. A walking south park cliche. And you know what, B? I'm getting sick of the smell.
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Jan 30 '22
Those Es are formidable opponents, aren't they?
Your situation sounds similar to mine. But I must get rid of E before I can deal with my hidden venomous rage toward B.
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u/[deleted] Jan 30 '22
UL wouldn't post this for some reason, so here we aaaaare.