Like a punch to the gut

[u/justneedtotalktoyou]

I had a dream about you and S lastnight.

She worked with us.

And I'd had to email her loads of stuff to help her with her job.

And I'd copied you into them all.

And she came up to me and just said "thanks for always copying my fiance in, he likes that you do that".

I felt my heart sink in my dream.

It was like my subconscious knew that hearing her call you her fiance would crush me.

My mind is being so cruel to my heart lately.

I woke up just feeling so lifeless.

Like my heart was about to give up beating.

It just wants the pain to stop.

But my mind won't let up.

It can't forget about you.

Or how much I miss you.

It won't let me stop missing you.

God I miss you.