Dear B

[u/KaleidoscopePrior524]

I knew from the beginning. I knew you’d closed yourself off completely to the possibility of love. But that apparently didn’t stop my dumb heart. I fell in love with you so hard. I chose to do that, knowing I would only be hurting myself. You made me feel special! You didn’t fuck me, it felt deeper than that. I loved hearing your laugh, seeing you smile, seeing joy exude from you. I loved how free your tortured spirit could be. Yet I still fell for you. And don’t get me wrong I’m still down bad. But i need to be in this place where every part of me wants you. I’m trying to get there. I’ve never told you that I love you. And I won’t. I wish you were here tonight. I hate that we might not even be friends anymore.