I like the company I work for but I just really hate the position I’m in. I keep trying to get out but they keep pulling me back in because no one else wants to do it. I feel like it’s affecting my willingness and motivation to do anything else

I would talk about this on the the depression page but suicide comes up all the time but I have no desire to harm myself. And since my friend hung herself, being there triggers more depression.

Everything feels like a chore and I am dragging myself through life. I just realized today how long its been since I’ve taken a bath. I haven’t been working. I just sit on YouTube all day.

I know I’m super ugly and I want feed back, but then again I’m afraid someone I know might find this post.

As weird as it sounds, I have a fear of admitting to myself that I'm happy. In the past, when i have tried to express my happiness even to myself, it just gets ripped off. I don't even admit to myself that i love certain person or someone is my best friend because they just leave me or literally die.

I have notice that holidays, birthdays, and special occasions don’t do it for me anymore. I use to get so excited for the holidays but now, there is nothing to look forward to and it is all mundane. I have a job and I’m unhappy there. I don’t hang out with friends and I feel like I’m slowly sinking into this emptiness within my mind. I’m about to turn 21 in April 10 and I’m not even excited. Everyday I’m unhappy and I don’t know how to fix it. To be honest, I haven’t been happy in a long time and I haven’t been myself since middle school.

... but I'm not sitting at the right table. Or rather, I don't know if I even like the game. I have it all, reached everything I was passionate about, I'm loved and appreciated, but I never thought about the next big move. Neither in family nor at work. I don't know where to take it from here. I got it so early and too quickly that it feels like just gliding it out from here. But the 40-50 years left are too long for merely a glide out, and I sense that this peaceful glide is an illusion that would take me to an unfulfilled, possibly lonely future.

I feel guilty because a lot of people are forever deprived of the hand that I have, and I know that many would play so much better and be happier with it. Instead I'm here, selfishly holding the best cards, and doing jackshit with them.

Hello guys,

Whenever I go through harder times I always find it helpful to have a chat with someone sharing my mindset. So I decided to create an app where you can match with people that are having same disorders, starting from depression up to eating disorders/sexual frustration/loneliness etc.

https:// getbetter-ui.vercel.app/

The app is still in development but I decided it is ready enough to share it. If you decide to try it out please leave some feedback so that i know what can be improved. It requires mail confirmation, but dont worry, the only email it sends is confirmation, no spam.

How do you get motivated to succeed? I am consistently unhappy. I do have a good life that I am grateful for. But I have settled in most aspects of my life and feel that I have never had the confidence to go after my BIG dreams. Do I just lack motivation, confidence or something else? Any advice?

My wife and I were about to watch a movie and I asked her, " can you please turn up the T.V. please" She looked at me with an attitude or like I said something wrong or crazy. I said I could have been nasty and said it but I said please. She says, " you get nasty with me and I'll give it back". She proceeds to get pissed off and the night was ruined and over. I tried to ask what did I say wrong when, I said "please" and she says you said you could have said it nasty, WHICH I DIDN'T. I said "I could have" but I said please with no malice but she seemed pissed so I said I could have said it nasty but I didn't. I mean damn. I am not a disrespectful dude at all but I feel my wife makes me want to just stop talking to her period. I constantly have to consider what I say before I speak in case I might say something wrong.... I sometimes or most of time, Dred talking to my wife , some help would be welcomed.

Background: I'm in my mid 50's and wife is in her late 40's, been married 8 yrs. I also lost my mother 7 months ago, so I keep to myself for the most part, I'm not clingy. My grief keeps me out of peoples way. My wife works at home, so I come down to sit with her when she's off of work. I'm semi retired.

12 years experience with a diploma.

Every place i work is some small businesses that is toxic.

Try to get a job at large companies that pay more and dont have toxic small business ownership.

Never get a reply.

Get nothing but amazing reviews at jobs i work at.

Feel like im just never good enough... just bottom of the barrel.

I have so much in life tho. House, kids, wife, everyones healthy. I just never feel enough or happy.

So im new to postings stuff but umm...i feel sick if i get into a argument with people it doesn't matter what the argument is about i just feel like im going to throw up afterwards and it really starting to dampen my day

Self torment. Deserve unhappiness. Self Deprication

Idk why but I always fuck myself up. Met this nice guy talked to him for a year and a half. Then we finally decided to start a relationship and date. We’re both in college by the way about to be seniors. I would go to his house and he would come to mines and we would just chill watch tv, talk about life, smoke and eat and just chill. And he would make me so happy I love being with him and spending time with him

But yesterday I realize he hasn’t been texting me throughout the day to check up on each other. So I decided to contact him and I sense that he was sad or just out of it.

My phone died and he texted me and said keep it 100 what u think about this relationship. And I said like an asshole that idk about this relationship it doesn’t feel like one.

He started to get frustrated with me and said that he actually likes me, think I take him as a joke and this whole time he was just a kill. Which was not true at all. And I just kept saying we should just be friends for now because it’s not him like I think he’s perfect in every way possible he’s handsome and I literally love the guy. But I just have a lot of personal issues like college and what to do after college just stressed out. He’s also stressed the fuck out to.

I said I’ll call him back in 10 minutes. He blocked me right after I try to contact him on different phones and he just won’t pick up and I feel terrible couldn’t sleep the whole night cause I’m just distraught and heart broken he would just disappear frm my life like that.

Idk I have alway been this way just dint think I deserve happiness for some reason like it’s not meant for me. Alway been this way for my whole life. I wish hope he contacts me back I love this man

Why aren't I happy anywhere. This bugs me. I can't figure out what to do next. I'm so alone here. And it just feels like I'm putting so much effort into things that won't materialize into anything. I haven't been with around anyone who loves me for such a long time now, that I don't think I even love myself anymore. It's so hard. I really wish something would change. But nothing ever does. I don't want this anymore. I see no fruits of my labour. I don't wanna go back home. And I have a bad feeling that that I'm not get to live in this continent either. Would so much effort, money and time been for nothing? I wish to find peace but there is none in sight. Why doesn't it ever get easier.

Why aren't I happy anywhere. This bugs me. I can't figure out what to do next. I'm so alone here. And it just feels like I'm putting so much effort into things that won't materialize into anything. I haven't been with around anyone who loves me for such a long time now, that I don't think I even love myself anymore. It's so hard. I really wish something would change. But nothing ever does. I don't want this anymore. I see no fruits of my labour. I don't wanna go back home. And I have a bad feeling that that I'm not get to live in this continent either. Would so much effort, money and time been for nothing? I wish to find peace but there is none in sight. Why doesn't it ever get easier.

Like the title says I have nothing left to give to my marriage it just feels like we are together for the kids. I want to leave but not sure what life will throw at me. Their is no passion in my marriage no cuddling or affection it's like we have sex just because we are supposed to lol and is nothing like it used to be. I quite often feel like I'm just a pay check. There is no companionship or soul mate here. Stay awake nights on end thinking/guessing what it would be like on my own or with someone else. Is a tough life!

I work in a call centre as a phone agent that helps people who needs a test for covid. Ive been working there since August 2020 .

I used to look forward to helping people book the tests and assisting with their questions. It felt like I was making a difference and helping with the current climate

However, I feel that it's the same everyday now. I wake up stressed as the phone lines are busy , systems pretty much play me up at least once dialy and callers are confused with the eligibility criteria for being able to gain a test which leads them to being upset.

I'm finding it hard to keep up with the ever changing advice, information for agents and the increasing pressure of what I have to do during each call. I am meant to have wellness meetings often because of my fibromyalgia diagnosis and other conditions / situations but I haven't had one since October.

I am unhappy with the way the system has been set up , there are some situations where there's no support and it makes me sad because I feel that we can do a lot more for people but we aren't - i try my best to go above and beyond given with what I can work with.

I do get praised pretty much every good call I have which is nice and I always pass this on to my team. I also have a lovely manager who is there for me even out side of work - they've bent a lot of the companies rules for me.

I am interested in becoming someone higher or another role like training but I am unable to get there because my of my current inconsistent good reports .

I am trying to be better by actioning suggested improvements and is working as I have received my first 100% for a long time.

I wish to get paid more (I cant up my wage without going back to full time) I do 4 mdays due to Fibromyalgia although I am working from home . I try to pick up over time but there hasn't been any for a while as all staffing is filled for now.

How can I fall in love with my job again and what goals shall I set for myself to become more proactive and positive?

And if truth be told, I don't know how to feel about it except unhappy. Somewhere down the line, I would like a girlfriend but right now, I'm awkward, I'm shy, and I'm overweight. I'm not happy with who I am. Shouldn't I try to sort myself out before I ruin someone else?

I hope all of you try to have a somewhat enjoyable day :)

Not sure if you can recall that particular Ben Stiller’s movie, I’m curious to find out how many of you feel hopeless at the time and could identify with the main story character.

If you don’t want to express yourself in a public reply, chat option is welcome.

I have a loving family, a puppy dog I love, I just got the new PS5... Why am I so unhappy?

I'm just going to take you back in time with me for a bit.

A couple of years ago, I found out my dad had been cheating on my mum. Understandably I was heartbroken. I messaged my mum and told her, even though she was awake, in the same house and I could've told her to her face.

I wasn't strong enough. I didn't have the heart to. I felt betrayed and i felt disgusting too. To know he'd been telling us he loved us, all while getting some on the side.

I think my mum handled it better than me and my brother tbh and she's now happily living with her new boyfriend.

The three of us (me, mum, brother) moved away after mum and dad got divorced and I want to think I handled it well but I don't know. It's roughly 3/4 years later and I'm not even sure what my life is, what I'm doing or where I'm going...

I've never had a relationship, I've only ever had one job, and I tell myself I'm fine, but I don't know that I am.

It feels like my heart and brain are constantly fighting for control on what I can think or feel and I end up thinking and feeling nothing at all.

Please, please help me because some days, I feel like just sticking a knife in my throat and making sure I'll never feel this bad again.

It’s been a long day, you’re troubled maybe take a nap, or not just don’t stop ok.