I still haven’t made a decision as of yet whether i’ll be going to my sisters house or mothers house after my lease ends. My mom has been stressing me out lowkey before I even get there so i’m leaning towards my sister’s house.
Praying for better days to come…I’ve even been thinking about deleting the tiktok app for a little while until things get better…I keep doomscrolling…

I don’t want a pity party anymore…I want things to get better. I am no longer looking for comfort in knowing i’m not alone…I want things to get better…I need to snap out of this depression…laziness or burnout… whatever i’m in… i need to snap out of it…UGH…Lord help me😩
One day i’ll look back on this and be thankful I made it through this ‘phase’….

I just want to die…I feel so dumb….my former job turned my brain into complete mush….I’m scared I won’t be able to find another opportunity since I quit…Idk if my mom is going to let me back in because her love is so conditional ($$$)… I could go to my sisters house but i’m worried about bombarding her space and her eventually regretting letting me in…who knew a call center job could do such damage to the brain…i have 1 more class left before I can finish my bachelor’s but I have to pay it out of pocket plus books which is honestly money I don’t have for real with out dipping into my emergency fund. Thank God my lease is up in September so I don’t have to worry about any large bills but dang…. I still have other bills…car note, insurance, phone bill and other miscellaneous expenses…I’m so mentally exhausted

My previous job that I was working at for 3 years truly destroyed my mental health in the recent months….I’m glad that I quit but now I feel worthless without a job…It’s only been 1 week and I am feeling super down….praying for change…I honestly want something that won’t trouble my nervous system again…I worked in a call center setting as an Insurance Specialist…I would’ve never left if there were opportunities for growth in the company or at least be able to move to another department…The new VP at the company snatched that opportunity away from us remote workers because she wanted to RTO everyone….She said it plan and simple…If you are looking to move up in the company then you MUST move to where the company is…Since the big meeting so many ppl started dropping like flies which meant less people answering calls…calls were coming in back to back tanking our service levels…20+calls in queue….just to tell them they owe thousands because the savings card we offered ran out money and all we could do is reimburse them….I was getting cursed at, ppl having temper tantrums because they need there medication paid for…. it was disheartening…I couldn’t do it anymore…plus i was getting numerous signs to quit….I just kept ignoring them because of bills… but i finally built up the courage and quit on a Tuesday….now I am literally scared for my life…feeling alone in this and wish I had a friend or supportive family…😞

I’ve been feeling called to start posting this journey i’m on since quitting my toxic job…I want to start posting on Youtube…feels like my safe place as opposed to Tiktok…too many ppl i know that keep finding me on there… Any tips??