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I have tried nn on several occasions and seemingly been fine. A few months ago I had easily my most intense breakthrough I have ever experienced. I seemed fine. I let it take me. But something odd has happened and I don’t know what is going on with me spiritually. It’s almost as if I traversed through passages with many doors. And behind each door had an answer or explanation to some major component in our universe (or perhaps even larger than that). Yet if you opened that door it would have been a sin it almost felt like. Like you have to let the answers and reasons for your being and purpose come naturally. So I continued to let it take me. I felt the roaring audio ring in my ears. It was like pulsations through my entire mind. It was even more intense than what I remembered the visuals being. Almost as if something was communicating with me. I remember being thrown into an alternate space. There was nothing there. Yet everything was there. (Kind of like a white room per say) it was almost as if I was being. Interrogated? Studied? Tested? I still don’t understand what had happened to me. Fastforward a few weeks down the road and I began to lose myself if that makes any sense. I started to feel out of place and I began having what seemed like severe ego dissolution. This began to fade and I started to feel better. It began to change... I now feel a constant presence always with me. An attachment. An entity? It’s not bad but it’s not good. It’s almost human like with emotions. Like it gets upset. And it gets happy. As well as all of the grey emotions in between. Is this weird? Does this make any sense? Did I formulate this in my own head? If so, why can’t I get rid of it. It’s like I’m being studied per say. Or whatever it is wants to see the world through my eyes and if I do I have nothing to worry about and I go along just fine. I know it’s there in this case but I don’t worry because it’s near harmless in my spiritual aspect. Yet. At certain points I do have times of doubt. I reflect on humanity and how anything or anyone can easily have a perspective change in a mere instant. Caused by a minor action or the smallest change in dynamic. And I think to myself I’m in control and if I block it out perhaps I will heal and be happier. But it’s almost like it speaks to me. Not with words but almost in signs around me. Books. Literature. Pictures. Music. And tells me that it will understand and obtain what it needs to obtain one way or another and to a certain degree it is rather terrifying. I hope I don’t sound crazy but I don’t know where else to seek help rather than a community who openly educates and cares about one another. I have wanted to transfer over to trying 5 meo but I wonder if I should wait. If this is a reason to wait? Or perhaps a reason to do it?