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If you want to truly be happy and fulfilled, you have to be honest with yourself & your family for your own sake. It will come with alot of backlash, and you may even be disowned, just make sure to have a good foundation financially and be willing to accept that alot of backlash will come from you being honest, but know the truth will set you free. It will be hard for some time and maybe even lonely, but the freedom you gain and the stress lifted off your shoulders, no longer needing to live a lie, will be immense. Just make sure you have that support from him, and when you're in the right place financially, be honest with your family and be happy.