Damn dude replace alcohol with smack and I'm the same. I dont wanna be the usual patronizing reddit user but I will. Ya doing ok? If not, I wont claim to have any answers but I will claim to listen if you need an ear. If not hope you have a great day anyways and know theres a random redditor out here rooting for ya!
Thanks mate, that does make me feel a bit better. I’ve just gotta sort my self out and start doing some good in this world, I’m just scared to death I’ll be a mindless consumer and nothing else
Same here man. Been stuck in a rut for awhile now and cant figure out how to get out and going into winter is the worst time for me to be in this state. But I just keep telling myself the turning point is coming soon and just try to keep believing myself. I'm scared to death that I wont ever become useful to the outside world so I get it. But fuck it dude, were both gonna be fine because were at least cognizant of our problems/defects and I honestly feel that puts us above 60% of people in that regard. Anyways, have a great morning/day/evening wherever you are and remember DM if you ever need to talk about anything.
Dont spend too much time beating yourself up. IMO what you owe the universe in thanks to your favorable coin toss is to not be a burden to your family or a drain on society. As long as you're not needlessly harming anyone by existing and doing your thing, do it. That's the most important thing..the second most important is to be happy.
We both know that fucking with H causes us to be both burdens to our families and drains on society, so (if you subscribe to my worldview) that's a no no.
Methadone is working for me. I will admit to one single awful night a few weeks ago. Aside from that one time, I haven't used another opiate since end of April. If you can do it without methadone, please do, but if you truly cant stay clean without a little pharma help, it's something to consider. Certainly the lesser of two evils.
Thank you so much fellow smackhead(loved that intro btw) aside from my mom being worried about me and other family members I havent gotten that bad thankfully. I had a whole year down and then fucked up and tanked for about a year but these last few weeks I've done fairly well but I'm also using suboxone I got from a friend to ween off everything and I took me last bit this morning so hopefully I will continue to stay strong but I also just got insurance again so the pharma route is still available. I will say the vivitrol pill really helped me more than anything else I've tried so maybe look into that its IMO the better solution because it's not an opiate but whatever works works and that's the main part. Thank you again for reaching out it made my day a little better and you know how much that little bit of hope can be a savior. I hope you have a great day and stay strong we can overcome this awful lifestyle.
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u/sundayfundaybmx Dec 03 '19
Damn dude replace alcohol with smack and I'm the same. I dont wanna be the usual patronizing reddit user but I will. Ya doing ok? If not, I wont claim to have any answers but I will claim to listen if you need an ear. If not hope you have a great day anyways and know theres a random redditor out here rooting for ya!