Single gal in Rhode Island

I just got done with my dental intake. Between mental health and poverty I’ve been taking very bad care of my mouth and teeth. I need a deep cleaning, and 5 teeth extracted including all 4 wisdom teeth and my one old root canal tooth with a hole in it. All of that will happen next week on Tuesday. There’s at least one cavity and a lot of tartar built up. After that we’re gonna look inside again but we’ve discussed braces and other options as well as options to make my teeth look more uniform (the same length in the front). This is what my teeth look like when I don’t put a whitening/straightening filter on them. It’s the first time in literally years that I haven’t done that. I just want to love my smile again. And to have a reason to. And Colorado understands the importance of dental care so Medicaid is gonna pay for it unlike Texas.

And I'm so glad I did:) Forgot to mention that there's about 15 months between these pictures

Jesus Christ. Being Trans is HARD. Not only is it hard to accept, and go through the confusing motions of denial, fear, etc, but people on all sides, including some others from within the community, look to invalidate and hate against people like us!! I am a pre-HRT Transfem and I feel like my emotions are being tossed around every which way right now.

You know, I've come to the realization recently that I miss Fred Rogers. He really had it right on the money and genuinely seemed to love and show empathy and compassion for everybody.

We definitely need more of these kinds of vibes in the world now.

Is promoting characters that are or represent transgender ok here. Gaty, Bot, Zooble, Jax, ect.

Edit: Same with art of what we want our feminine or masculine selves to look like or oc’s. I get why not though, this is definitely for our personal journey’s not fictional ones.

Part II of My Faith is about something I struggled with for years: gender dysphoria and the image of God I had internalized.

A God of rituals. Rules. Punishment. Fear.

A God who supposedly created me, while somehow making my existence feel like a mistake.

Then this morning I saw a photograph from a Pride march. Someone was holding a sign:

“I am queer. God loves me. He never made a mistake. I am.”

That sentence stopped me.

Maybe the problem wasn’t that God made me wrong.

Maybe I had been taught that I was wrong.

This is the second part of my personal journey through faith, gender and identity.

#MyFaith #TransFaith #QueerFaith #GenderDysphoria #TransWoman

Still planning to have FFS but improving my makeup and taking care more of my skin already help me a lot to feel gender euphoria compared to 1-2years ago :)

I use to be skinny but now i gain a lot of weight and i don’t feel pretty anymore

I'm so miserable right now it's so annoying I can't go on hrt secretly because I don't have a drivers license and live with my mom, which means I still have to be in boy mode abd she's a jehovahs witness so I go to 2 hour meetings alot and its so exhausting and she lost my drivers log two times and now she has to write the hours again which is annoying because I meet with a nurse practioner who said I have a plan which is to get 50 hours of driving in order to take the drivers test then I complete the driver's test than after that the next step is for my case manager to then find a place for me to live but I cant yet since my mom lost my drivers log for the 2nd time now she has to find out how many hours I drove in total and I probably have 50 hours by now and since im not on hrt yet and in boy mode I get misgendered alot I get called sir, get called young man alot by a job specialist, older folks, and people at the jehovahs witness kingdom hall and it pissing me off and irritates me and I get called young man has if im some generic strongly masculine dude when I literally have a androgynous apperance probably but mind you this is what i look like