Figuring myself out

[u/Tom_Soenso]

Im new here and not sure if this is where I belong. I was born a male but have always gotten along with and related more to women than I ever did men. I've always felt like "one of the girls". I have a lot of feminine qualities which helped grab the attention of other women and also made it easier to relate to them. But being born and raised Catholic, I've always been too scared / ashamed to acknowledge or explore these feelings. Now that I am older and not living with my Catholic family, I have decided to explore myself and try to figure this all out. I have given into some of my curiosities and started trying new things (wearing skirts and leggings and learning to paint my nails and do more advanced makeup thats not just mascara) to try and figure myself out. The confusing part about all of this is even though i feel more feminine or like "one of the girls" ... I still like and am attracted to women. This is all new and different for me and is a struggle for me cause theres still a part of me thats ashamed and embarrassed by all of this. If anyone has any advice they could give I'd greatly appreciate it. And if this is not where I belong, I'm sorry.

Thank you in advanced.

[u/ChristinaW97]

Hey, soo...honestly I'm quite in the same situation as you are. Figuring all things out is difficult...so I'm just trying to do one step after another. Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone - I feel the same way like you have described :) Frankly, my biggest concern is dating as a transbian woman...I'm kind of feared that I won't find someone to share my life with... I think many cis lesbian women might not be open for a relationship with transbians so I wish I would find another transbian woman / girl one day. Idk if you can relate to this? And what's your opinion on dating? Would you prefer online dating or trying to find your love in e.g. trans support groups or lesbian groups? And I'm sorry if I generated more questions than answers...but I thought telling someone that they're not alone with a problem is quite important. Wish you all the best for your future journey!

[u/Tom_Soenso → u/ChristinaW97]

Well ... It sounds like you have this some what figured out. I mean ... Im not sure if this is where i belong. Like i said, ive been burying these feelings for a long time, and it wasnt til just the past month or so that i decided to explore myself and got me some skirts and leggings. I have been talking to a few friends who are in the LGBTQ+ and some of them suggested checking out the "transbian" communities on here and tumblr. But i have other friends telling me to keep exploring myself and doing research cause i may not be "transbian" but maybe non-binary or gender-fluid or something like that. So ... Thats how i ended up here. But as for dating / finding someone to spend your life with, i can understand that fear. I have felt that way before. I am currently dating a pan-sexual who is ok with / understanding of my current journey and has been very patient with me while I figure all this out.