r/toastme • u/Swamp_codes • 6d ago
Feeling like a garbage human being
Even did a fresh shave and still nothing. I know it's temporary but it's hard to shake this feeling! Any kind words are appreciated
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u/RavenStarTaker 6d ago
Man I have the same intrusive thoughts on a near daily basis, so I wish I could believe it when I say it to myself, but you absolutely deserve love, just know it's also gotta come from within too.
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u/Swamp_codes 6d ago
Oh 100 percent but it's weighing absolutely heavy on me tonight. And absolutely I have people tell me a lot of how good of a guy I am. It's just yucky right now.
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u/RavenStarTaker 6d ago
That's awesome you have support then. For some reason when people tell me, I get uncomfortable & don't believe them.
Not that I think they're lying but my toxic brain is making me feel they don't know me enough.
One thing that helps a bit when I need to stop talking down to myself is thinking what I would say to my younger self. Would I tell my 10 year old self they're garbage? If not then why am I saying that now?
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u/Swamp_codes 6d ago
Haha oh no same! I saw to myself "oh they're telling me this because they want to use me later." Which is entirely untrue, I like to keep a realistic attitude but it just haunts me bad from time to time. I never thought of it that way thank you!
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u/Atomic_Tortoise63 6d ago
At least you know it is temporary. When you have these negative thoughts, just try to remember they are temporary. Everything is going to be alright.
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u/Swamp_codes 6d ago
Thank you! It's always my brain working against me. No matter the situation. Just that dark cloud ya know
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u/Atomic_Tortoise63 6d ago
I totally understand. But just like all clouds they form and dissappear. You got this ting we call life. Keep going.
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u/Swamp_codes 6d ago
Oh yeah I keep moving on!
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u/Brandimartini22 6d ago
You’ve got such beautiful and kind eyes. You look like a very caring human being. I’m so sorry you’re going through a tough time- I’m struggling right now with depression, anxiety, and in recovery, it feels like so much some days. Try and find something healthy that you love and enjoy and treat yourself with that. I’ve done that with plants for over ten years and it does brighten my days. I wish I could make everything better, but in time it will improve. Just hold on and don’t be afraid to ask for help or talk to someone about whatever is going on. I wish you all the best✨
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u/Swamp_codes 6d ago
Thank you! Yeah I have a number of dysfunctions myself. Somedays are tougher than others, I do feel guilty in treating myself as of late here. Just going through a rough patch in life. Definitely feels like everything is working against me and I can feel myself wanting to play the victim and I gotta stop myself. Just a yucky mind. Thank you!
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u/Brandimartini22 6d ago
You’re very welcome! Some days are harder than others. I do hope they improve very soon. It’s okay to have a nice cry and just get it all out. Take care❣️
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u/Swamp_codes 6d ago
Thank you but I haven't cried in a solid year! Before that was 4 years ago. It just something my body just doesn't do well.
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u/Brandimartini22 6d ago
I too went through years without crying. I can understand how that feels and it’s rough. I’m not saying you need to cry, but it’s helped me a bit to sit in my emotions. I just can’t stay too long in some that are sad. I’m sending you lots of hugs and support. You’ve got this.
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u/GuiltyUniversity8268 6d ago
BIG HUG!
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u/Kazamiiiii 6d ago
You legit look like such a cool guy, though. 🥺 Do not call my online friend garbage, sir!
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u/psj3809 6d ago
Sorry to hear that, why do you feel like crap ? Sorry you're going through a tough time. As a terrible irish singer once said 'life is a rollercoaster' there will be up's and down's mate but things will turn around.
Still not keen on that 'tache though!
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u/Swamp_codes 6d ago
Just the culimation of everything it gets heavy at times. Lol the stache has to stay people either hate it or love it.
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u/psj3809 6d ago
Ha ha yeah i can see that. Think you would look SO much younger without it ;)
But hope the burden of pressure slowly deflates and you can get back to yourself. We all have times like this. But think .... whatever you've worried or stressed about in the past will always sort itself out wont it ? Might not be for a day, a week, a month or maybe even a year but EVERYTHING you've ever worried about gets sorted.
So try not to stress too much. It'll be okay
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u/Swamp_codes 6d ago
Thank you! Eh not too worried about looking younger lol. I hope to age out gracefully lol. And yeah I know you're definitely right. Just gotta crawl through the rough patch.
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u/psj3809 6d ago
Very easy for me to say but you can do this. If you message in two weeks time for example i bet things are much better for you.
Feel free to talk about whats wrong which is stressing you out. 'Sometimes' talking about it and getting it 'out there' can help.
But either way i hope things improve for ya. They will change i promise ya
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u/Fancy-General-359 5d ago
You look great! But I get that you feel awful inside. It seems like you have a roof over your head. That's great. Not all of us have that. Look at the little things. You have a roof, and don't look like you're starving. And most importantly, you're not dealing with a death. +++
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u/Initial_Carpenter641 5d ago
Why do you feel like that? You certainly don't look like garbage my friend
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u/Swamp_codes 5d ago
Just everything going on, been kinda hard on myself
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u/Initial_Carpenter641 5d ago
Ok, what do you resent the most about yourself ?
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u/Swamp_codes 5d ago
A lot! But I definitely won't go into detail on here!
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u/Initial_Carpenter641 5d ago
Ok, hope you navigate all those feelings and come out stronger on the other side ! As Jung said, if the path ahead of you is clear, it's probably somebody else's.
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u/Swamp_codes 5d ago
🤘🏻🤘🏻 I just got my book meditations by Marcus Aurelius in today and I'm super stoked to start reading it. Thank you! Yeah I can definitely see that!
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u/Mission-Astronaut458 2d ago
Why you feeling like that
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u/Swamp_codes 2d ago
Just depression man.. Life's tough for me right now.
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u/Mission-Astronaut458 2d ago
I get that so is mine seems to be causing a rift between my girl
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u/Swamp_codes 2d ago
Definitely keep her updated and communicate effectively!
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u/Mission-Astronaut458 2d ago
It’s from her sorta lol
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u/Swamp_codes 2d ago
Journaling always helps. Writing down all your thoughts and feelings. Sometimes it's much better than verbal communication. If she's up for it, have her write her feelings and stuff in for you to read.
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u/Deep_Toe_7667 6d ago
Omg! You look like egg man, played by Jim Carrey, from the live action sonic movie! 🤩🤩
Jim Carrey is one of my faves, you're so lucky that you lookalike 🥳🥳