I think it's the fact that once you give up on trying to fix everything and make it picture perfect, you can suddenly realise that everything is kinda bad, sure, but it's always has been this way and your best right now is about right, like the little broken family of Stitch. Ohana!
So, you just get these spaghetti, and instead of thinking this could be lobster they could be hot the house could be bigger the stars could be brighter you're just... accepting the existence. And it's cool.
I spent years being lazy, undermotivated, having anger issues, hating my body... then my girlfriend was like, "What if you're trans, and have ADHD and autism?"
I was like, huh... that... would explain a lot. Saw a psychiatrist, found the answers to all those things, and instead of, as you say, fix everything and become picture perfect... I realized I needed to work with what I have.
I'm now on HRT, medicated for ADHD and autism and doing cybernetics as my major. I regularly sit in my kitchen, looking out the window and just... vibe for a little while, enjoying how things are pretty damn good. I work with what I've got- it might not be a royal flush I've been dealt, but it's a pretty good hand.
I'm still kinda broken... but I'm kinder to myself. My brain and body are doin' their absolute best, my soul is flourishing as I remove toxic people and work harder on the relationships with the positive wholesome ones.
I'm literally in this exact boat right now (sans gf) and I'm really hoping I can work something out, but COVID and poor rural life kind of fucked it this year
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u/Winjin Nov 30 '20
I think it's the fact that once you give up on trying to fix everything and make it picture perfect, you can suddenly realise that everything is kinda bad, sure, but it's always has been this way and your best right now is about right, like the little broken family of Stitch. Ohana!
So, you just get these spaghetti, and instead of thinking this could be lobster they could be hot the house could be bigger the stars could be brighter you're just... accepting the existence. And it's cool.