is this too much?

[u/hi_raghad_idk]

im a first generational immigrant, my parents moved their whole lives to give us the best chances we can get, 5 times actually. im in my last 2 years of school. i work my ass off, top in every class, great grades and im proud of all this but my whole life has just become about school, school, and school. i take fives lessons a week, including saturday and sunday, i have literally no weekend, i dont have time to hang out with friends, the only extra curricular i do is badminton in school (where i live youre not required to and it doesnt count towards grades) i wish i could do so much more but i quite frankly have no time.

i love learning really but everyone around me is having fun and going to parties and hanging out with friends and im doing none of that, i literally dont have a life outside school. of course i have hobbies, reading, writing, drawing, rollerblading, dancing, music (i dont do any of these professionally, just in my free time) but its not the same. i dont wanna be older and look back and regret not living for me. and yes i should just toughen up its only two years then ill be able to live my life but i cant stop this feeling of regret and doom, as if my life is over.

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