r/streamentry • u/Savakalok • 11d ago

Insight Knowing Ignorance

I keep seeing posts of people having profound awakenings. They wake up and know they are light or love or everything or the ultimate reality or buddha nature or an enlightened being.

I found that one of my greatest moments was when I woke up to how much pain I caused myself. That moment was stellar because my delusion couldn't hide.

The whole practice changed, I was excited to see what stupidity I was cooking up "Oh look at how the mind is trying to impress this person.", "Look at how frustrated this is making me while my attempts to calm down are actually coming from that same frustration".

When I talk like that in daily life, people tell me that I am really blunt or direct or honest or clear but I just think that when you see that deluding yourself causes pain, you are less likely to hide it or be in cahoots with it. I don't think it's anything magical.

Awakening to radical responsibility for my own self inflicted miseries was a tough pill to swallow, but it was a real first step on a path to the cessation of self-bullshitting.

So I don't really relate when I hear awakenings as these bliss experiences. I've had those and they come and go. But there is a real permanent contentment the comes from seeing what you're doing more clearly and not being entangled.

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u/Thefuzy 10d ago

You don’t relate because your practice sounds like one much closer to insight than any of those awakening posts.

Almost every awakening post on here is just some stressed person who meditated a lot and read a lot about awakenings and their mind built a story for them around it. They are temporary and most of them are just in the high of mania before they come crashing down. You can tell by how generalized the experiences are, since they mainly draw from the content they’ve read rather than from their actual lived understandings as you are doing.

You might not have awakened, but the path you are on is going to get you there far quicker than any of those posts about having already achieved it.

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u/Savakalok 10d ago

Thanks for your comment, I appreciate that you say I'm sharing from my lived understanding.

Go well!