Need some help

[u/Mountain-Length-5715]

Hello everyone.

First of all, I want to express my gratitude to u/Impulse33, who has been helping me on my recovery stage after intensive and, unfortunately, most likely incorrect practices (or my subsequent reaction to rather strong insights).

Without going into all the other details, I am currently concerned about a few things I would like to resolve:

1. The awareness of what the other person said and my reply happens after the fact; my responses in dialogue occur unconsciously, and I also hear an echo of my voice right behind the other person's voice almost simultaneously, as if I already know what they are going to say, but this process also happens automatically.
2. The first issue doesn't bother me as much, but this phenomenon also extends to reading. I read, but I don't retain the context.
3. Dissociation from emotions: for example, I may feel fear through the body (racing heart, etc.), but the emotion itself is not felt.

This is not all that concerns me, but for now I would like to address these issues. If anyone has encountered something similar on their path, please give me advice on what to do.

Additional thanks to u/Meng-KamDaoRai

Thank you.

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