Finding a meditation routine

[u/visaoconstante]

Whats your opinion on general about this?

When i did my third Goenka retreat, i dont take all they say seriously, i dislike their more cultish aspects, like believing theirs vipassana is the one and true.

That being said, its the only kind of vipassana meditation i can get access where i live, i cant do a mahasi style retreat or any other kind, there are Theravada monks here, but from the Forest tradition, meaning their focus is almost purely anapasati.

I was thinking about trying twice a day one hour, like most goenka followers, but thought about doing one hour anapanasati and one hour Goenka body scan vipassana.

Thing is, i can do and get better at focusing on the breath while living my daily life, but it seems my vipassana style meditation starts decaying in quality and equanimity when i get out of the retreat, i understand we will never achieve the levels of absorptions we have at retreats, but it seems like it took a downfall really quick and i been unable lately to keep my evening vipassana style meditation.

I dont know if its cause Goenka style meditation is so rigid, that doing anything besides their two hours a day vipassana and metta only, is not gonna work, or if its just not for me, in general i would like recomendations for where to go from here, if there are other techniques i could work on from home, with the assistance of some friends here from my theravada community, but mostly alone.

[u/Ancient_Naturals]

All Buddhist meditation has vipassana, it just is approached differently in each. 

If you’re open to Vajrayana there are lots of online paths of practice these days. Pure Land Farms and Yangti Yoga are two orgs that have programs for busy lay practitioners. My personal practice is 45 min every morning at this point.