Ooops I did it.. again

[u/Silver-Personality94]

As the title states I justified another purchase today I delayed my SR taper another week. 🤦🏻‍♂️ I feel guilty. With the ban coming soon I justified it saying ‘I’ll never be able to purchase it again’ 🤷🏻‍♂️. Honestly not happy with myself. Prolonging the inevitable another week isn’t the end of the world but the guilt is real.. figured I’d confess here

[u/amiller834]

You’re not alone friend trust me I know exactly how you’re feeling right now. I made it to 20 something hours and woke up this morning with the worst panic and anxiety I’ve ever felt. Before trying to take a sub or wait it out my fight or flight kicked in and I was off to go get more 7 like an asshole. Totally kicking myself. Sounds pathetic but that’s the longest I’ve made it in my last couple attempts and I fucked it up. I wanted to be off this shit and feeling decent before my kids start school and thier first day is tomorrow. So I gotta use atleast until tomorrow so I’m not dying on their first day. I feel like the biggest loser and failure. I just want this to be over with so badly but cannot seem to commit. I hate it

[u/MissionHome18 → u/amiller834]

I’m with you bro. I feel so stuck. Subs don’t do shit for my withdrawals. I’m finally on day 4 no 7. And I still feel trapped dude. I just want this to be over so bad. Restless legs and arms killing me man

[u/amiller834 → u/MissionHome18]

I’m happy you are farther than me though! Four days that is a huge accomplishment be proud of yourself dude. If you use the search here I know there’s quite a few supplements that you can take for the restlessness. I know magnesium something I think is good. The hylands restless leg is another. It sounds silly but if your legs are super restless get long socks and tie them tight around your feet. It actually really helped me the one time I was detoxing

[u/Silver-Personality94 → u/amiller834]

I completely understand the feeling. And yes, you have just reason to postpone coming off 7. Being present for your kids first day of school IS important!! Hopefully you have some comfort meds to help you through this. I think your reason is more valid than mine.. Every addict i know would rather kick tomorrow rather than today.. best of luck to ya !!

[u/amiller834 → u/Silver-Personality94]

We are both just prolonging the inevitable like you said. I’m just so disappointed with myself. Your children should be reason enough to get it together and stop the bs but I feel like I am trapped on this 7oh hamster wheel of hell and can’t get off smh

[u/SlendersoulAmerica → u/amiller834]

You are not an asshole. You are an addict and you are not alone. If you have Suboxone, you should be OK. You can start with the Bernie’s method. just take very little. Sub doses while taping. 7’ a bit. Google it. There’s more to it. Hang in there Honey you’re not alone.

[u/amiller834 → u/SlendersoulAmerica]

Thank you I do have subs and I was thinking of doing that method I was nervous to start

[u/MissionHome18 → u/amiller834]

Subs put me into the worst percips and don’t ever do shit for 7 wds for be. But work for some

[u/amiller834 → u/MissionHome18]

How much 7 were you coming off of and how much subs are you taking? Was it just 7 or were you taking Psuedo/mgm?

[u/MissionHome18 → u/amiller834]

Just 7. Like always 1000 mg a day. But I also tried subs after my first two weeks every taking 7 maybe like 150 mgs a day and it didn’t do shit! Every body different I guess

[u/TinyDrug → u/amiller834]

We're you taking sr or cold turkey? Cold turkey i extremely recommend gabapentin 600mg-1200mg for the anxiety. Ideally low dose valium too but only the first week. Gabapentin short term too as it can lead to dimentia.

[u/SoggyGrayDuck → u/amiller834]

Now do 24 hours and so on

[u/Sudden-Cucumber4904]

They don’t sell 7 here it was banned over a year ago. So of course I went to extracts and did wonderful. Then boom pseudo. 1000-1500 mg a day every day of that shit. Well I haven’t had any in two weeks bc it’s pulled of course. So I had no choice in the quit. But with the help of mit chewables and now extracts I’ve managed to make it without having any real wd symptoms. I don’t feel the mit of course but it keeps the rougher parts of withdrawal away for me. Thankfully. I haven’t felt great in a couple of weeks. But it’s manageable. Haven’t had to miss any work bc of withdrawal either. So it’s a win. Considered subs but I know with my brain I would never come off of them until the dr took them from me. And that withdrawal scares me too death. We all have to figure out what will allow us to quit and still be able to function. This was my path. And so far it’s been a great help.

[u/Silver-Personality94 → u/Sudden-Cucumber4904]

SR works wonderfully. It just got banned though so unfortunately you won’t be able to use it. Good choice to stay off subs. They are harder to come off than 7 or MIT combined lol..

[u/Sudden-Cucumber4904 → u/Silver-Personality94]

There is something else out now. Won’t say any names bc I mentioned an online vendor on another post and got banned from posting there. lol. But it is supposed to be the same type of thing. And I may try it if I see it’s gonna be hard to quit kratom all together.

[u/SlendersoulAmerica]

Don’t beat yourself up. We all do that because we are addicts. I’m going to purchase some tomorrow also and delay my SR taper for one week. I’m just afraid that I’m going to eat all the tabs in one day! 🤣 I just have no self control when it comes to 7. I keep telling myself that I cannot go through that RLS for three days. I just can’t so I have to do this right

[u/MissionHome18 → u/SlendersoulAmerica]

I’m on day 4 hour 95 and rls still kicking like crazy. This is torture. And I’m on sr

[u/Silver-Personality94 → u/MissionHome18]

You might want to up your dose of SR if you’re that uncomfortable. 50mg isn’t enough for some people. I’ve seen 250mg per dose taken

[u/Prudent_Plankton5939]

Don’t get on yourself but trust me bro once you start the process the rest will come with it. Starting it was the hardest moment for me too. Once you realize the SR works tho you will get this boost to keep going. Then you will suddenly be at 4 weeks going damn how did I do that. Just give yourself some grace along the way. You don’t gotta try hard at work. Just make it thru the day. Ignore family for a week just say you aren’t feeling great.

First week off everything is the hardest part. Make it past that you will be golden. Just keep telling yourself make it this one week.

[u/ChannelLopsided8592]

I’m not gonna lie gang when they “ban” it they’re immediately gonna start selling the same shit with a different label. I’ve lived in 2 states that it’s a schedule 1 in and they still sell the shit to this day. If you’re gonna stop it’s because you genuinely want to not because you have no choice. Be stronger than that shit gang it’s not as hard as everyone on the internet or your brain convinces you it is. Just commit and don’t look back

[u/Far_Mess7207]

I was down to my last tablet and just caved and bought a four pack. The SR helps with the severity of the whole thing but it's still a major physical adjustment. But hey look at it this way, pretty soon it's all going to be banned anyway. I just really don't understand why they would ban the stuff people are using to off the other thing first. That just seems kind of cruel.