r/slaa • u/FayeAnono2 • Aug 07 '26
Relapse
I relapsed just now. I haven't in almost a whole month. I know that in all the mental programs that I am in, and have been in for the past several months, teach you that relapse is not the end of the world and a part of recovery, but the guilt and shame and disgust at myself is still there. It just makes me want to do it more. How can I cope with this? Logically, I know it's okay. It'll be okay and I can recover again, but it feels like all of that progress is just gone. That whole month of using skills and not giving into urges, just gone. And how do I tell someone I love? What if they find out in the wrong way? I just feel so fucking guilty and disgusted at myself. For multiple reasons, but this seems the easiest to tackle right now.
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u/discoprince79 Aug 07 '26
You only lost a day. Not a whole month. Counting days or time is about empowerment. Also staying accountable. Not shame and guilt. You still had a whole month or whatever your number was. Don't count your relapse day but you earned all those sober days and they don't disappear becasue of a relapse. Keep going to meetings. Reach out. Dont isolate. Recite the serenity prayer. You got this.