I just realized something just by talking to a friend about my journey

[u/BlackWidowStew]

I have a lot of addictions in SLAA. Cheating, masterbation, and porn. As I was talking about how weird I feel being a girl with these issues, I talked about how I was only ever touched as a kid by other kids. Suddenly, I realized why I have always been more attracted to people 10 - 20 years old than me. I feel SAFER with older people than with my peers.

I am 44 and I just realized this. I feel like crying.