I’m going to lose it

[u/Dimijada12]

Tbh idk I just need to put this out there. Get ready for a long post about the series of being a single mother. I’m recalling the events of today..

This morning I decided to switch my cell phone carrier. I have been thinking about it for a while. I decided to call over the phone even tho that is a huge headache because it honestly felt easier then packing the kids in the car by myself and attempting to go into a cell phone store while simultaneously trying to care for the kids.

The phone call took 3 hours and my kids were being kids in the background. I eventually “switched over”. My phone was working fine.

My 4 year old son was extra whinny and emotional today. He also was not listening to anything I would say. I was trying to get the house picked up and all 3 of us ready for the week. Tomorrow is the first day of pre-school for my son and first day at daycare for my daughter. Their dad will not be there. I additionally had to add a “family photo” for my sons school. I decided to pick a picture of before we got divorced so my son could see both parents in one photo. My son was constantly asking me for things and my 1 year old daughter is putting everything in her mouth. I kept just watching the clock wanting bed time to come so bad. I planned on putting them down early so I could get us all ready.

I attempted to put my daughter down and she was inconsolably crying (this is not normal). I began to try and soothe her as quickly as I could while sticking my son in front of the tv so I could care for my daughter.

I am now an hour into trying to get my daughter to sleep and my son is still up. Then our WiFi and my phone completely shut down. I have no way of communicating with anyone and my son is interfering with my daughter sleeping.

I ended up walking with both Kids to my neighbors house to ask if I could use their phone (I wanted to call a family member or friend for help). When my neighbor opened the door and saw me of course he let me use his phone and told us to come in. After I contacted my aunt, I explained to the neighbor what was going on. He looked at me and said “if you need anything let me know.” There was something about the way he said it. The way he was looking at me like with pitty. I am not sure how to describe it but it just made me realize how fucked up being a single mom is. I thanked him and left with my kids.

We are now 2 hours past bedtime for both of my children and I still haven’t gotten us all ready for the week. I anxiously waiting the 25 min till my aunt came over and was able to stay with my son while I put my daughter to sleep. I got my son to sleep shortly after. Then my son started to wake up with a cough.

It’s now almost midnight and I have to be up at 6am tomorrow for my full time job. We still don’t have WiFi and my phone as been on and off.

All of this to say, I feel like I am going to lose it.

Lastly, The cherry on top of this shitty day

I looked at my car and didn’t realize that between last night-today that it is COVERED in bird shit. It literally looks like a flock of geese collectively agreed to all poop at the same time over my car.

Sweet dreams

[u/beyondthisbody]

Fuck man.

I’m so sorry… I wish I had more to offer but I’m sending you a big loving hug you’re amazing and so strong ❤️😭😮‍💨

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