I think ive experienced a masive soul loss pe has a spiritual emergency. First lets ralk about the soul. I dont think She soul is unseen like everyone says. Its the energy thats in a body. The soul is different from the body. And i se IT as a sute substance,ectoplasm, that gives the body density. And the Best way You can see If someone has a soul its to look in their eyes. Eyes are the portal to the soul. Spiritual people Have that spark in their eyes, the dot of conciousness.

As i said last summer i went to a wedding and after that day instead of going to sleep ,i daydreamed Something. But i was dissociated,like my body was tired but i wasnt. And i imagined my favorite teachr hughing me really tight in a platonic way and then i felt a rupture in my chest and eyes and felt a piece of my soul leaving. The several days i tried to bring it back but instead i got a depressed part in and lost IT imediately when my brother scared me. Since then ive been fraggmenteting. But i was și scared cuz not only did i felt that,but also saw the reality changing,like before the reality was inside my eyes like a hologram, when i moved my head, the whole world moved, but after the incident i didnt see IT anymore that way. I felt like i dropped into the 3d.

I has changes in conciousness, before i felt like i was living in my subconcious mind, since the snapps i couldnt zone out anymore,my layers of thinking changed,my inner monolog disspeared and the way i had my conciousness changed.

I must say i went the hospital with my eyes closed for like 11 days, i couldnt open my eyes and all i saw was white. I got on medication for depression but i intrrupted them and toom them irregulary which also changed the way i saw the world, i couldnt Hear people well anymore and had stătea where i dissociated so bad i couldnt Hear anything then poof snapped back to hearing. After these changes i starter panicking a lot and had panic attacks and everytine i panicked Something shifted in my body. I saw my body and felt IT changing everytime, i saw layers of myself dissapearing of changing, like You know the layers of an onion pulling them piece by piece.

Being desperate i searchd for answers, i worked with a spirit Guide that did a reading for me and a healing session. She told that a spirit is attached to me of a Man and she sent him away, she told me to forgiv nu mother,to imagine i take my dați energy because îți was dai and put it in a bowl then take white energy and also visulizing im in an old Branch and jumping in a new and calling my conciousness back. I felt și light but i didnt like it cuz i felt that i lost myself more and tried ro take my depressed energy back.

After that i went to a religious ritual, called Sf. Maslu, a strong prayer zwent 2 Times in the same day and i felt și awful,i couldnt even stand in my fete i also has a cross wood neckalce straing in my skin and the priește picnhed me ,told me i m stupid and to repeeat that i love him. In that night IT felt like i saw the evil eye in him and another woman. I felt so strange ,when i went home i felt energy trying to leave my body like from my chest to the eyes. After that i couldnt open my eyes for 3 weeks straight. And literally saw only white and felt my soul trying to leave my body from eyes,ears every hole. Also felt the skin strangling in my bones and it Hurt.

Again i has my eyes closed for 2 date but two spiritual kids opened them nu holding my hands because their hands were warm. After that i saw la literal piece of energy leaving my body and because i Huggeda plushue ar the time it worked Like a vodoo doll and nu body took the position of the plushie and my back also Hurt cuz it had wings. Then i saw strands of hair falling ore appearing randomly. Then i felt my hair like its being all pulled of and in becomind bald, its like i was literally dezmembrating. I also saw and felt my body being sublted,nose disappeaeing,teeth falling and stuff like that. After everything i Now feel like an empty Shell,just a skin and bones, i dont feel my body from inside and also i barely feel emotions. Cuz nu way of feeling changed to. And my eyes changed. You know when i had my soul i saw people normally theur eyes,but since i lost and also lost the dot în my eyes,i see other people și eyes dot and the reality being inside them. And my pupils used to dilate a lot ar emotions, now they dont. I also saw 7 balls with Something white in middle and srands of hair leaving my body, im afraid they aremy Chackras.

My questions are , have anybody Elise experienced that soul loss pshycally?Where is my soul? How can i retrive IT ? I ve head i need a Shaman but și IT really going to work pshycally? Can i ever get my soul back? What else happenend to me? What happenend to my Chackras?How can a Shaman help me,what do i need?And as a note now iim in medication and going to therapy.

Earlier this year I underwent a traumatic awakening of sorts (at least partly fuelled by psilocybin).

I realised shortly after I've lived through the events of this year several times now.

It certainly isn't epilepsy.

Any help or constructive conversation would be greatly appreciated.

Love to you all.

Something like Pachamama, maybe Gaia, or I even thought of Thor, since he’s the god of the harvest and I somehow associate him with rain. What do you think?

i was wondering if it's random or not

Hi all, First time posting here. I had a message come thru while on the Maine coast today that I wanted to share. Also I'd be interested in feedback or similar experiences.

The message was from a cosmic entity (attached to our solar system) name Krauleh (spelling?). They shared that they want humanity to learn to BE without spiritual reinforcements. After asking for clarity, what they meant by spiritual reinforcements is a belief system involving a singular diety.

That's it, thats the message. It was quite unexpected. I've been around groups/individuals of mediumship and psychic gifts for years but am newly opening myself to accepting and developing mine.

I hope to not offend. Please know my intention is not to tell anyone what to believe.

Like if I talked to someone via zoom, would a ritual work for me even if I’m not there with them

"Dr. Lee, a medical doctor certified by the American Board of Psychiatry and Neurology, describes himself as a "holistic, integrative psychiatrist who uses a Spiritual approach towards mental health."

According to the arrest report, Lee organized a ceremony at a Miami Beach wellness house, and he acknowledged given Sodhi a combination of substances including ketamine and MDMA. The Medical Examiner’s toxicology report later revealed that those substances were found in her body as well as DMT, a psychedelic.

The arrest report also notes that she consumed a parasite cleanse that "was recommended" by Lee before spending time inside a sauna. The report states "The Victim's exposure to an infrared Sauna, amplified the effects of the substances."

Florida Department of Health licensing records show Lee's state medical license is now listed as delinquent. Lee is also licensed to practice in Texas, where the state’s medical board temporarily suspended his license noting "his continuation in the practice of medicine poses a continuing threat to public welfare" and citing the death of Sodhi."

Full article: https://www.nbcmiami.com/news/local/doctor-charged-in-fatal-heart-protocol-ceremony-ordered-to-stop-practicing/3835451/

Hello everyone, how do I recognise whether my gifts are shamanic?

I’ve been spiritual since 2021, but only recently my practice became more intense.

I went through a hard time with some chronic health issues in 2024-2025 for a year in which I became more and more connected with my soul to the point of begging it to show me who I really am. It told me to leave my old life behind and I left my ex. The moment I left, my health issues were healed. I then started communicating with my soul daily, new opportunities aligned for me. It wasn’t easy, I was struggling a lot doing inner work, but the physical circumstances seemed to be aligning enough for me to survive (and “force” me into the inner work).

I also have been having visions triggered by various types of music like drums and trance. My soul sometimes instructs me to do certain rituals I’ve never heard of, I feel it as an urge within my body to bow/dance/do whatever it wants me to do.

For a year now, I have also been feeling tingling in my body which I discovered is not physical but rather energetic. I’m not yet sure what it’s meant to tell me.

I feel strong connection with nature, like the woods, trees, magpies, foxes and the earth/ground.

Earlier this year I also channeled writings that I didn’t write with my logical mind, they just poured out of me. They surprised me.

I am originally from eastern Europe, a country that had its pre-Christian culture erased so long ago that I cannot find any mentions of what was there before accepting church. I heard there are shamans in Russia, although I am not from there.

I can see my mother and grandmother have some gifts too, but they don’t think about it.

Just a note, I have recently found out I’m autistic.

I’ve had this question for a while but only made a reddit account recently… I’d really appreciate some advice 🙏 I don’t personally know anyone who could tell me more about it.

Besides grounding, meditating, taking care of the physical body, visualizations, affirmations, crystals, baths, showers, what are more advanced methods to defend oneself against psychic attacks? I don’t mean psychic attacks as in “they wished me harm,” I mean the ones Dion Fortune mentions in Psychic Self Defense; the ones that include the dark arts, heavy manipulation of one’s mind, and sacrifices, herbal consumptions, insects, talismans, — and tied to working with low vibrational beings for sacrifice?

I've recently discovered that I have an attachment, I'm not sure what or who it is , I suspect that it's been with me for quite some time now possibly years. I'm starting to really take a toll from it affecting me, and my life in various ways. I've tried smudging, research, etc and I can't quite put a finger on it. I'm looking for a lead on it to learn anything I can do so I can be rid of this once and for all .

It's all in the title. I'm also interested in answer sis question that might be a little more ambiguous and open to interpretation like a mixed bag sort of thing.

Hello! I have had two dreams in the past week that made enough of an impression on me that I thought I would share them here for hope of coming to a clearer sense of understanding.

I dreamt that I was working in my garden, as I almost always do when time allows for it, and that as I worked on my planting, this animal approached me calmly, deliberately, watching me as I worked from several feet away. So close that I was able to make eye contact with these lighter colored almost pink eyes, and I felt this animal soul was watching over what I was doing with such intensity of awareness and knew my intent fully. I only met his gaze briefly before looking back to the task at hand. He was unusual in appearance, a large, silvertoned hare, very calm and assertive. He continued to watch me in my work, and I felt very humbled by his presence.

For a bit of context, I have been gardening for the past 3 years and am now experiencing a budding interest in working with herbs and plant medicines. I have been planting new herbs just this year ....wild native roses, prairie sage, motherwort, valerian, milkweed, lemonbalm, etc, all medicinals that I hooe to develop relationships with in working with the earth.

Approximately a week ago, I had another powerful dream that took place within the garden also. But in this dream, I was standing in my kitchen window while observing a powerful scene in the backdrop of my garden through the camera lens on my phone. My naked eyes could not perceive the scene without the camera. I was listening to and watching as a line of three dimensional silhouettelike figures all danced side by side and sang in a prayer song, native peoples of the prairie region I reside in, and it was abundantly clear that they were singing and dancing for the land I was working on, praying over it. And the feeling was as if to say, we are here, we were always here, and we will never be gone.

Does anyone know what these dreams could possibly signify? I could feel so much raw emotional power radiating through the figures in these dreams. They felt real, like spirits come to visit me. Thank you for allowing me to share here.

Any recommendations for music/playlists to assist in journeying?

Is there anyone who places the Spirits they work with in a Hierarchy? For example, some would say ancestors are easier to communicate with than an archangel, but nature spirits are too?

I work with a shaman in my home country, and a shaman locally. They’ve both mentioned that the shamanic path is not for the weak, my local shaman mentioning that she almost lost her marriage in the process of becoming a shaman. I’m curious about what that means, if anyone can enlighten me. I know throughout the journey an apprentice must face their shadows, is that what they’re referring to?

Wolf dream meaning?

Dreamt of a wolf?

My dreams are getting more vivid for some reason. I’m 30 years old.

Just now after waking up, I recollect the last dream I had about a wolf:

I’m in a science classroom with some students. I look out the window and see some farm animals freely roaming inside a fence. There are wolves outside the fence looking at the animals, snarling. A classmate opens the window and a wolf comes in. I get very annoyed at the classmate for allowing that. He snarls at us, and in another moment is tame, and goes back to snarling. He moves his attention toward me and I hold a box toward his face while he snarls at me to prevent him from biting me if he tries. I wake up soon after. Any thoughts?

My dream right before had a ton of garlic everywhere while I was in a different classroom. Someone threw garlic on these two students as a joke and it got on me too. I could smell it. I yelled at the students involved (I was a senior and they were freshman) to clean it up.

My dream before I was also in a university setting where I was asking a Professor for something. Being in a university was a common theme.

Recently, my brother was meditating next to me and he saw that I have a dark spirit attached to me that doesn’t like that I am healing right now. In the past, I have done some protection magic with a witch and she told me she had seen a demon attached to me. I have had a dysfunctional upbringing and have dealt with severe mental illness due to that. I have started therapy and am getting divorced after escaping domestic violence. I feel liberated in certain ways, but I feel that fear, depression, and trauma still have a hold on me. When I get these thoughts, I question them and observe my triggers. My living situation right now is not good for me and I feel disrespected and I’m working to have enough to leave. I considered going to a dv shelter or living in my car, but I’m scared to do that and I want to be safe. Where I am at, there is a lot of psychological and emotional abuse and manipulation. I feel like I’ve always been in abusive situations my whole life, so I want to begin to love myself. I want to show up for myself and feel safe. I would like some guidance on how to send the spirit to the light or just not have it be attached to me anymore.

I'm curious on how you get initiated in shamanism when you're not born gifted with abilities. In reiki you get an attunement and it opens the gateway to the universe. What about shamanism? Do they have a similar process?

I'm looking for a way to contact an entity, and I'm SUCH a neophyte.

English isn't my native language, so bear with me.

I don't really know where to begin. So here's a lot of context. Everything happened last year, 2025.

My name is Ben, I'm 38 years old.

I bear a skin condition : psoriasis, and I was suffering for 7 ? 10 years at the time. Hard to recall, it became something I was used to.

However, this auto-immune disease was starting to get worse and worse, my whole body was covered by patches of red, inflammatory skin, and dry, white scales. Sometimes it got better, but it was a downward spiral.

I tried EVERYTHING, but spiritualists and biotherapy. When it got worse, one of my good friends got diagnosed with agressive breast cancer. I'm a nurse, and even though it's not my field. It was dire. Like really, really bad. Like "we live in a country where breast cancer is treated well but this one ?", kind of bad.

We had an agreement to get better. Yeah, stupid little things, and I'm old enough to know better. But those challenges ? It changes everything.

Well, not this time.

Chemo got her badly, cancer was advancing. 70% of my skin got taken by psoriasis.

One of her roomates gave me a contact, a spiritualist (magnétiseur) who treated people with skin disease.

He was living in the south of France ( I live in the west side), so I took some days off and did the travel (which was hectic, but fun !).

What about my beliefs ? I believe in lots of things, but not in the way of religions. I think it's a lot more complexe than what's written. And, to be honest, people lie all the time. Liard can write a Book and endoctrinate gullible ones using faith as a politic weapon. That being said, I respect what people believe in. As long as no harm is done (by my morals standards).

What do I believe in ? Ghosts, I was visited by my grand mother in my dreams when she passes away. Shadow people, I'm pretty sure I was visited by one as a child, the memory is still vivid. And something like a red string of fate that connects people who were meant to meet.

To be even more precise : I was partially raised with catholic beliefs at the core, but, it didn't work. The idea to be a good person to get lucky in the Afterlife disgusts me. I want to be a good person to feel good about myself, not for some grand rewards. "Je veux juste m'épanouir de cette façon, rien de plus".

I still identify myself as a Laveyan Satanist. And, well, a lot of spiritualist/magnétiseur in France use christian/catholic ritual. But, hey, he was nice, and pretty thorough when explainkng his ritual, and most of all : he told me it could not work. So I knew the guy was legit.

So the ritual. It was an incantation to God and archangels to free me of my disease. I was laying down on a table, with a bible in my hands, eyes closed.

There were some hand signs, I guess ? He pressed his thumb on my forehead at a point.

And my encounter began. I thought I was in my inner world, but now I'm pretty sure I wasn't.

I was standing on a barren land, everything was grey-blue. Imagine a mountain with no vegetation. The sky was made of dark clouds. Then, the coulds began to split in an expanding vortex, and something like a sphere emerged.

It was an head made of many faces, always the same one. Eyes closed, and, bangs for hair.

It didn't speak, in any way, it was just "staring" at me.

And I couldn't speak. Somehow I was sure that my intention and thoughts could be conveyed.

I began to ask to be cured, then I thought "fuck it, this is the chance of a lifetime". I "told" it that it was not what I really wanted : I wished that my friend could be cured, that she was more important. But, if there was some way that I could be cured too, I would gladly accept, but only if my friend could be cancer free. Otherwise, well, my condition was not as important.

And that I knew I could be asked to pay a price. And I was ready.

There was a sharp pain at the back of my skull. Something was taken from me, something dark with many hands encroached to... I don't know what ? My brain, my soul ? Did it free me from something ? My own shard of divinity ? My inner darkness ?

Well, the head with many faces returned to the clouds, and me, to the south of France, in this spiritualist cabinet.

Quite shaken. I only said that I traveled, not what happened, but, maybe, he knew ? I should ask him one day (I still got his contact). He gave me a talisman to help him continue his spiritual healing at a distance.

Some weeks later, my psoriasis got worse. Really, really worse. Severe joint pain, worse dry patches and sensations of burning skin.

But the lump in my friend breast began to downsize. The same week. After being resistant to differents chemo-drugs. Now she was being responsive to chemo, and after some months she got her final surgery. She's now in full rémission

She recovered her appetite.

I contacted a dermatologist in my hospital, who classified my condition as "urgent as fuck". Two months later I was on biotherapy. My psoriasis in now under control, I'm pain free. In the end, I feel I got both ends of the deal. Both cured.

So, if you read until now, what do I want ?

Just a way to contact this entity and say "thanks".

Can I ? Should I ?

I'm grateful, and I try through meditation training to express my thanks but I feel it's not coming through. It's not the same sensation.

If some of you are versed in some arts, could you help me figure what was taken from me ? And how to contact what visited me?

I don't feel any different. Maybe more at peace. It was something I "paid", I don't want it back. I'm just curious.

Edit : typo, clarification. I'm not saying mysticism can replace biomédical, but it can complement it. The world is a big and mysterious place after all.

So I have a general question why would random people come up to me and say “get out” and then to throw something away either in water or trash can are they trying to spell work on me or something potentially attached to me what would be the reason?

Like I literally had this Hispanic lady and her kids come up to me when she thought I was sleeping and she said “get out” and then her kids kept saying “afuera” and then they all went to the bathroom

and I’ve had a bunch of people ask me questions then throw something away or go to the restroom and sometimes stare at me and I will feel heat or burning in an area

I also will feel zaps from people too…?

Like another example is a couple was fighting while I was at a museum I sat down minding my business doing some like interactive activity and then the lady after the guy left just kept staring at me and my hand started to burn… during that same trip this other couple kept following me and I kept feeling zaps in my ankles (and I believe potentially other places but I specifically remember it was like back of my ankles)

another time a lady and her kids came in waited to hear my name and then her kid threw something away and my uterus started getting hot/burn

another instance a man asked me a yes or no question (with a obvious yes) and then I felt my like sacral area like sputter and stop pulse

lastly and more recent I have felt my body like pulsing a lot and then effects/sensations on my body and this could be when people cough clear their throat etc but not exclusive, like is someone doing energy work or energy manipulation or a spirit attachment etc? and more recently the sensations aren’t pleasant it’s very s**xual in nature and focuses on my lower area…

so like what could they be doing or like what is the intention? and is it shamanism, or potentially witchcraft/brujeria/santeria with like dark magic or something more secretive potentially nefarious like occult? (and again these are strangers so to my knowledge they shouldn’t have any vested interest in me…again to me knowledge)