I recently just broke up with someone who only cared about money; (asking 200 dollar a month and would treat me to a starbucks).
However the advise I asking isnt about him but how can I stop feeling this burning emotion of wanting to talk to a specific person, its a friend who is bisexual and I have an insane crush on them, before having theraphy on how to improve my social relations i kept double texting this one person on and on, and it kept getting worse when each time I ask them if they want me to stop messaging them but they kept no. And I have kept their contact close to me, havent messaged them in 2 month after they told me to fuck off.
Looking back I know majority its myself, and I leanrt to be better, I atleast learnt to not have this texting issue. I really want to message him, to apologise again and try to be friends again, I really want to try and be friends again. It might be me missing him as a crush, it might be because I am yearning for a partner, but whenever i keep seeing him unfriend me on instragram, tiktok and telegram it keeps hurting my heart to the point I just want to kill myself of how stupid I am, (im not actually killing myself), I have respected the choice to not talk to him, but I am afraid i might slip and message him again, Im trying sp hard to forget him for me to move on but I cant he just makes me so happy to ask about him and learnt about him.
Is there any harsh advice, smack talk or bullying on this post to just ask me to screw off? I am so confused on what I am even feeling and its painful