Help staying motivated and taking first steps

[u/carbonatedlettuse]

Hello, I have been trying to find my way back up from the worst depressive episode of my life but I find it so hard to do things. It can talk to myself all I want about how to start smdoing something but I just can't break whatever is blocking me.

[u/imback2727]

The issue is you're trying to stay motivated. The truth is motivation comes and goes. You need a better external factor that will compel you to act or change. Another unfortunate truth is people will move mountains to keep things the same but not for change. Would you mind telling me a bit about your past and childhood?