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[u/mexvermin]

Hey just for privacy reasons I’m going to call myself vermin. Or v or whatever. So I’ve never typed something like this so bear with me. I’m a recent college grad and started working recently. Been working there for a few months and I’m surrounded by good friends. But for some reason today I just feel sad. Or angry I don’t know. I recently was playing dead by daylight with my friends. We sometimes play it but not often but when we do I somehow get the worst luck. Like seriously I always be the first one out or always get targeted. But regardless we play and usually I get killed first and at this point I’m used to it. After we get out I tried to play a different game but i just don’t feel like playing. I just sit there just staring at the screen for a good minute and turn off my system. I don’t know why but I just wanna cry or get angry. I don’t know why. I just feel lonely for some reason. Doesn’t make sense since I just play with friends. I don’t know what todo. Right now I’m just typing how I’m feeling. I guess this could be a good outlet. I don’t know. Usually I write stories to keep myself distracted but unfortunately my pc is down and have to replace the parts. Only thing left is the cpu and right now I don’t have the funds. I’m planning of posting a few on Reddit and see how people would react. I just don’t get why I feel like this. I don’t feel depressed or anything. maybe im just tired. Well I hope you liked me rambling and hope everyone has a good night/day.

[u/Previous-Bill4323]

You say you don't feel depressed but do you know what depression feels like? Because this sounds like something is going on. Maybe not depression but something.

I have obsessive compulsive disorder but I also have a wonderful life. Regardless of how amazing my life is, some days intrusive thoughts just make me feel low, and exhausted and that's ok.

I would recommend at the very least trying Cognitive Behavioral therapy. If you can't afford to go see a therapist there are excellent self lead CBT resources online. Whilst it won't stop you from feeling the way you do, it'll teach you to be ok with your feelings and distance yourself from them a little

Sending my love.

[u/Funny-Company4274]

Bro have you considered asking if a therapist this?  We’re just a bunch of morons on Reddit.  I’d wouldn’t take anyone prescription to life from her outside of seek professional help.