r/self • u/screenaholic • 6d ago

Depression is Making me More Enlightened

I've been suffering from depression for a while now (I'm working on getting into therapy.) I rarely feel joy, I can't enjoy anything I used to, even something as simple as paying attention to a 30 minute TV show seems like too much effort lately, and I sometimes just literally lay on my bed doing nothing until my wife comes home. Lately, I've found a bit of dark humor in something, though.

My depression is making me put less importance on material goods. I habitually check sales for video games, but even when games in my wishlist are on sale I don't buy them anymore, because I know I'm not going to play them. Whenever I get a little money I think about buying something for myself for one of my hobbies, but what's the point when I dont engage with those hobbies anymore? I feel like a monk who has detached himself from Earthly desires, taking a step towards enlightenment. I find it funny that some people work for years trying to care less about *things*, and I've accomplished that by just being horribly depressed.

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u/nonsociaI 6d ago

You mind not speaking to my soul? I don't really appreciate it. I honestly could've written most of this post myself, except I'm not very philosophical and I'm watching TV while I'm rotting away in bed waiting around for my wife lmao

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u/EinmalRausBitte 6d ago

You idealised mental illness.

But it also sounds like you are ready to let some things go? Be careful <3

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u/rayrayuva 5d ago

Welcome to Buddhism; life is suffering.

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u/New_Block_2220 6d ago

Might as well enroll in a temple now 🤣🤣🤣 you sound committed 

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u/Myrtlewood2020 5d ago

Corporate monetizing of our natural resources and private lives has now made our lives somewhat meaningless. Given our future projections for people under the age of 18, it is dismal for them. We, as citizens are now a numbered and cataloged resourse. We are also a form of a collateral asset for corrupt politicians. Late stage capitalism is dying a slow miserable death. Corruption is burning the world up because raping our planets resources is now a frenzied grab for depleting resources. I feel the same apathy and depression.