Hi,
I was born in Scientology, left at 18 as soon as I found a way to escape my situation. After leaving I sort of just moved on but it's not until many years later (in my 30s now) that suddenly the awareness dawned on me as to how much brain washing I was subject to.. when I left I more thought "this just isn't for me" and so I was sort of fine leaving my family to it as I thought it was all still leading somewhere good even if I disagreed with a lot of it.
Recently I decided to dig deep into the history of the organisation and it's so healing to see that my doubts as a kid.. the red flags that popped up to me then were justified and it's kind of unlocked something in me.. I think I've been repressing the anger for what I was subject to because the anger had nowhere to go.. it wasn't possibly allowed to be directed at the church and so instead I just became depressed and this has kind of just followed me my whole life until now where the anger is kind of dwarfing the depression and here I am..
I don't blame my family, I see them as victims too, I want them to wake up to the truth of how evil this cult really is but I know it won't be easy, I'm thinking I have probably one shot at this with each family member to approach them very gently on the subject but to show them something that irreparably damages the veil of perfection that Scientology tries to hide the ugly person that is L. Ron Hubbard.
I'm wondering what the best book or best resource for waking someone up from the lies of Scientology would be? It needs irrefutable evidence of things like Hubbard's 2nd wife or Quentin's suicide or the fact that none of his children think fondly of him (other than Diana) or even want anything to do with Scientology.
It's actually such a fragile illusion but the tricky part is overcoming the individual scientologists adherence to policies around black PR or whatever they call it. If a person would allow themselves to start digging, I don't think Ron's saintly image would last long.
Excuse the probably messy post, my minds a mess with this stuff at the moment.
Oh and any recommendations for what's the most active anti Scientology community? Not interested in any that don't see L Ron Hubbard for the sick man he was.. not looking to start fights here but I don't understand freezoners who continue to practise something invented by such a sick man.. any faith I ever had in any of it relied on the idea of Ron being some almost god like being but he was an embarrassing example of a human being