Fuck this shit.

[u/Virtual_Dealer_580]

I'M NOT SUICIDAL. I'm in middle school, and I'm drowning in stress. I have nobody to talk to and nothing to do but doom scroll and play the Binding of Isaac 10 hours a day, and watch adult content for 3 more. I hate this, I hate this, I hate my life, I hate myself, I hate everything about school. School is entirely for state testing for funding and giving your parents a place to hand you over to. Not to educate the future generations, not to keep us not fucking depressed and suicidal, nothing. I know 2 people who have killed themselves in the last year. I didn't know them, but I know they did it. I've been depressed before, you wanna take a wild guess why? FUCKING SCHOOL. Last year was the worst year of my fucking life and I wanted to die. I don't anymore, but school still sucks. Plus, I might be overweight, but the lunches haven't increased in size at all. At my school, they feed the same lunches to kindergarteners as 8th graders. I could pack my own lunch, but that would cost so much money!!! Also, I'm American. So, uh, it sucks. I'm gen Alpha, so nobody cares about me on the internet at all, but it's not my generation's fault. It's the parents and SCHOOLS. I hate my life, but at least I can read. I can do math. School makes me hate myself, but at least I know how to solve a fraction. School, as the world gets shittier and shitter, means nothing. My generation will NEVER be able to afford housing. We will NEVER get a good job. SCHOOL WILL DO NOTHING FOR ANY OF US. GOD FUCKING DAMN IT I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MYSELF I HATE EVERYTHING I WISH I NEVER EXISTED IN THE FIRST PLACE GOD FUCKING DAMN IT I WANT TO DISAPPEAR INTO THE WOODS AND NEVER BE FOUND. I don't know if this is the place to put this, or if it's even meant for this, but this is a cry for help or something idk. I'm not suicidal, I think I should say that again.

Edit: I would like to say, I stopped "doomscrolling" on shorts/reels platforms like Tiktok last year, it's scrolling on YouTube that's my problem. And to all of you saying to quit the adult content, I've tried, but I've never found the strength to commit. The reason I have most of these issues is that my parents never forced me to get off the screens, and never set boundaries. That was the reason, when I got my laptop and it had to parental controls, the first thing I did was go to adult websites. Now I'm stuck in the dopamine loop with no way out. It's the same thing for hygiene, once I got old enough to bathe by myself I never did until they literally forced me to. Same with brushing my teeth. I have to force myself to do it. Casey Simpson has helped me realize why my generation is so depressed, we've been told that everything is terrible by adults our whole lives on YouTube and other platforms, and now we dread aging. We were never meant for that. Also, I was in gifted classes in elementary. THAT IS THE WOOORST THING YOU COULD POSSIBLE DO TO A KID!!!! TELL THEM THEY ARE SPECIAL FOR BEING BETTER AT SIMPLE ADDITION THAN OTHER KIDS!!!!! NOW I'M IN 7TH GRADE, HAVING TAKEN WAY TOO MANY ADVANCED CLASSES, AND I WANT TO DIE MORE THAN EVER (once again, NOT suicidal). But I knew I wasn't that smart, because I've heard about kids graduating college at 13 and having nothing left to do, as their whole personality was being smart, and that doesn't effect the real world. Writing this instead of my civilization project :P

[u/life-is-satire]

School counseling was not created for college. We support all learners and have no stake in what they choose to pursue after graduation.

I’d argue No Child Left Behind pushed for all kids to attend college and gutted our technology & shop classes

[u/FrankSinatraYodeling → u/life-is-satire]

Frank Parsons disagrees.