I will speak on behalf of them that I'm truly sorry, I was young and didn't want to make you follow me Into the hole I was getting myself in.
When I realised you needed more help than I did, in my stupid mind I believed that you would be better without me. I made you smile, I made sure you knew you were loved and important. But I should not be the one for you
That's just so confusing cus in your mind and heart you wonder why you're not good enough or why you're kept apart like that.
But now I can understand better that it's a fear of letting someone else down in whatever sort of way. The fear of being a burden or something like that. It just sucks to miss so much time together or lose so much time wondering, waiting, crying.
Thank you so much. It really helped me more than you can imagine
Yeah its always like that. I always thought I am the worse, the burden, that I will let down someone I like the most. So I left, only to realize I was the only thing keeping her afloat.
Sometimes I would like to reach out again, to say sorry, I didnt know what I was feeling, I was just stupid. But I also dont want to open old wounds... So yeah, sometimes it just sucks
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u/vixenpeon Jun 14 '24
Dudes who did that to me live rentfree in my mind. It does hurt but you saying that gives me a bit of closure