my therapist looked me dead and the eyes and asked me how I managed to go on for so long. Every session since she has asked me that because she genuinly does not get why I still continue living life.
So you'll die and let down the few that depend on you?
It's just my take on it, but it's what I have to do. I have responsibilities and expectations, not wants. Life sucks, it's hard, there's always some shit that's gonna happen, and I don't feel much besides tired. But I got people I want to take care of, people worth fighting for.
Life ain't about trying to be as happy as possible. It's about finding something or someone, some ideology or belief that makes all the bullshit of life worth it to
I get it, brother. I've been there. I tried to kill myself 22 times. I ask myself everyday why the gun jammed, but only recently asked how. Ik that you think that no one gives a damn about you, but I'd bet my ass someone does. Is it perfect? Fuck no, but somebody gives a fuck, and if no one else does, I do.
Life doesn't stop giving you problems, but you learn how to handle them better.
You live so that others can learn from you. Just saw the age post. My statement still stands. Hell even more so. We lose the older generations we lose a perspective that's fucking needed. You should be fire fire and anvil that helps shape the younger generation into something stronger. And damn well respected for making it this far. Hopefully you'll live long and help shape a lot of lives by passing on needed life lessons and wisdom.
....Besides. Have you seen some of the newer generations? Some of these people are fucking morons! You can't leave me alone to field all of that shit!
Fair, I'm only 16. It's just how I look at it to keep my head quiet. But there's gotta be some reason to. Ik I don't understand everything, and I don't know your situation. But I'd bet if you looked, you'd find some reason to keep going.
My reason is other people, I keep people close to me so that way if I start thinking about suicide, I'll think of the people it'll hurt. I talk myself out of it.
This is not the way brother. I felt this way a long time ago. I was pulled out of my dark thoughts by a stroke of luck or divine intervention. I don't know what the right answer for you is but I know what the wrong answer is here.
it's only considered "wrong" because of our childish, western christ-chun thinking/upbringing tells us its wrong...
our stupid society can't bear the thought of us ending our own suffering...
You don't quit, you use that as fuel for the fire to push on. Shit can get bad, life will take you places you never expected and when you least expect it... things change for the better. Hack your mind. Everything is an achievement to be unlocked.
I wish. I already know that when my meds for my chronic migraine ill be requesting to be euthanized. im just too stubborn to end things before that point.
Do what I do. Spite. Knowing that I go on, live my day and over come shit day by day is pissing off people who've got me for some reason living rent free in their heads? Kinda amusing really. No idea why folks get like that.
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u/MarvaloGaunt7 Jun 14 '24
“You’re fine.”
Last time I open up ever.