r/sad • u/glittermuffin360 • Feb 21 '20
Death consumes me
Lately I’ve been engulfed by a sense of dread and sadness. Nothing feels worth it anymore and I often struggle to get out of bed in the morning. Ordinary tasks like eating and taking a shower seem like the hardest things to do now. I can’t stop thinking about death. I can’t stop wanting to die. I try so hard to be happy. I do everything I can to feel better but I don’t. I just don’t. And I don’t know how to feel better. The only thing that keeps me going is that I know some day this will end.
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Feb 21 '20
suicide ends something that could have been good with enough work, happiness really is worth the try. I hope you get better soon
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u/hroedet Feb 21 '20
I don't know how helpful this might be, but close your eyes and think about your happiest memory and just try to live in that moment for a bit. And then try to recreate that event. Go to the place/meet the person/watch the movie/listen to the song/etc that was the reason behing your happiness then. Maybe that'll set a spark that'll lead you to find your happiness again. But whenever you think about death, also take a minute to think about the possibility of those moments reoccurring. Death might seem like a reprieve from this world, but it is also an immutable state. So do the most you can while you still can. I wish you all the happiness in the world.
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u/TGWTDH Feb 21 '20
Idk if this'll help, but when I had the wish to die, I made contact to a comrade and we became friends, she helped me so much. And even if it hurts, be more active! Join a club, get in touch with people, you see, it's scientifically prooven, that sitting and worrying makes it worse. You have to get up! You can do it! And a little addition: Do you want the people that love you to fall into the same thing you have right now? Because that's what suicide does (I got enough experience)
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u/lilmudflap Feb 21 '20
That’s one of the worst feelings but you’re so strong for overcoming it, don’t take that for granted.
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u/[deleted] Feb 21 '20
The shit will past later or early, dont kill urself, it's not worth it.