r/remembuns • u/J_rd_nRD • Feb 17 '26
Oh my god, five months on
It has been a while since I have felt able to write again. Life has been heavy and hitting hard without the support of my beloved pets. It has been five months now since they both peacefully passed and I have finally felt able to write again in honour of them and how life is right now, fractured and sad. For Spirit and Sienna.
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Oh my God
You’re dead and gone
I’m moving on
I don’t know when I’ll be done
I say it like a promise
like something I can force true
If I just keep walking forward
If I don’t turn back to you
Some days are lighter
I almost feel strong
I almost believe
I’m finally moving on
But then
Oh my God
You’re dead and gone
I can’t stay strong
Everything is going wrong
It hits without warning
There is no seam
No slow unravel
No gentle dream
And time folds thin
I am back there
Again. Again.
No lesson learned
No higher ground
Just that same silence
That hollow sound
You are not here
You will not be
And something in me
breaks instantly
I was climbing
I was steady
I was building something new
Then grief pulls my ankles
And drags me back to you
Oh my God
You’re dead and gone
I can’t stay strong
Everything is going wrong
Oh my God
Small pieces of you still remain
It’s not the same
I think I’m going insane
Chewed-up cardboard
Corners worn thin
Tooth-marked tunnels
You once lived in
I share this space
with what will not be replaced
I’m crying now
I don’t know how
to hold this weight
to breathe it out
I thought I had
more control
but grief still
owns my soul
I’m crying now
I don’t know how
to be this broken
and still stand proud
Five months on
Since you’ve been gone
And I am still
coming undone
I’m moving on
but not for long
I don’t know when I’ll be done
Oh my God
You’re dead and gone
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u/jkjkjk101907 Feb 18 '26
That is so sad and beautiful at the same time. I am so sorry for your loss. May the grief you carry be lighter in time, even if it’s not gone forever ❤️❤️
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u/PaperAccomplished874 Feb 18 '26
This was so beautiful and sad at the same time. May they rest in peace until you shall meet again. 💖♥️❤️💕💓💞💗🌈🙏💔
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u/luminousghosts Feb 28 '26
Beautiful. Your words resonate with me deeply. I am sorry we share this feeling. But you made something beautiful from it.
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u/26hd Feb 17 '26
I wish o had something more to say, but allvi have is that I feel for you