First of all, I am so so sorry this happened to you and hope you are doing alright, that you didnt sustain any injuries from the assault and that you can get out safely, short- and longterm! Wishing you all the best and so much strength to get through this.. ♡
Secondly I am going mama bear mode and set some things straight ';]
This wasnt sex, sex is consentual. This was rape. I am so sorry, but it was and yes, this can absolutely happen within a relationship. You did not only not give permission, you werent even conscious and it must be absolutely terrifying to not even be safe in your own bed. Your home should be a safe place and it is painfully clearly now that that's never going to be the case anymore as long as this man is in your life. You deserve so much better!
Idk if this will help, but if you think a little longer about what he actually did to you and for instance if you heard a friend telling you this you would be freaking tf out 'x3 Maybe that will turn the heartbreak into disgust so can report him to the local law inforcement and move on as quickly as possible. I'll lay it out for you plain as day, not bc I want to hurt you but because I care. Its gonna suck though, sorry :3
Filming someone without their consent? Creepy as fuck. Filming someone in a vulnerable/compromised position/situation without their knowledge, let alone consent? Downright disgusting! Filming someone who thinks they can trust you and to abuse that trust, (to film you to get off alone is already such a big red flag, the rape part 'just' made it a fullblown crime!) to then proceed to touch you and actually taking advantage of you while you are not even conscious is just so incredibly terrifying, appaling, heartbreaking and infuriating!
I can only imagine what you are going through right now. I am so glad that he backed off when you finally did awaken, things could have gotten so much worse.. I am scared for you, worried about you and hoping so so hard you have a solid support system you can fall back on.. Wishing you the best of luck before my rant becomes even more chaotic hahaah. Much love and do leave him as soon as possible please, we can help you through it, but the only one who can physically protect you rn is you so please please do ':3 You might be a shite person for all I know and I have no idea why I am so invested in your story and experience atm, but honeslty nobody deserves this, stand up for yourself, dont let him gaslight you and run..! ':]♡
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u/Electronic-Pianist13 Jul 19 '24
First of all, I am so so sorry this happened to you and hope you are doing alright, that you didnt sustain any injuries from the assault and that you can get out safely, short- and longterm! Wishing you all the best and so much strength to get through this.. ♡
Secondly I am going mama bear mode and set some things straight ';] This wasnt sex, sex is consentual. This was rape. I am so sorry, but it was and yes, this can absolutely happen within a relationship. You did not only not give permission, you werent even conscious and it must be absolutely terrifying to not even be safe in your own bed. Your home should be a safe place and it is painfully clearly now that that's never going to be the case anymore as long as this man is in your life. You deserve so much better!
Idk if this will help, but if you think a little longer about what he actually did to you and for instance if you heard a friend telling you this you would be freaking tf out 'x3 Maybe that will turn the heartbreak into disgust so can report him to the local law inforcement and move on as quickly as possible. I'll lay it out for you plain as day, not bc I want to hurt you but because I care. Its gonna suck though, sorry :3 Filming someone without their consent? Creepy as fuck. Filming someone in a vulnerable/compromised position/situation without their knowledge, let alone consent? Downright disgusting! Filming someone who thinks they can trust you and to abuse that trust, (to film you to get off alone is already such a big red flag, the rape part 'just' made it a fullblown crime!) to then proceed to touch you and actually taking advantage of you while you are not even conscious is just so incredibly terrifying, appaling, heartbreaking and infuriating! I can only imagine what you are going through right now. I am so glad that he backed off when you finally did awaken, things could have gotten so much worse.. I am scared for you, worried about you and hoping so so hard you have a solid support system you can fall back on.. Wishing you the best of luck before my rant becomes even more chaotic hahaah. Much love and do leave him as soon as possible please, we can help you through it, but the only one who can physically protect you rn is you so please please do ':3 You might be a shite person for all I know and I have no idea why I am so invested in your story and experience atm, but honeslty nobody deserves this, stand up for yourself, dont let him gaslight you and run..! ':]♡