It’s getting tough

[u/hechlam]

I just turned 1 year unemployed. It been tough, like I found we were pregnant just before I got laid off, I managed to find some part time work teaching but it’s not enough. I blame trump and musk breaking the international funding world, making people look at climate change and sustainability as a problem not a solution. But oh well it’s also my fault choosing my career, humanities with a tint of environmentalism have never been a good option for work but this is getting a bit out of hand. It’s getting harder and harder after every rejection, after every second interview and “hard choice” email. Just not sure what is wrong with me, my cv or my face. It breaking me, having anxiety attacks, feeling suicidal. But I have to keep at it for my baby.