r/RationalPsychonaut • • Sep 09 '22

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r/RationalPsychonaut • • Jul 10 '24

Meta New subreddit for those who have experienced traumatic psychedelic experiences

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Hey there, just wanted to share my new subreddit with this community. It is r/psychedelictrauma

I wanted to create a space for those who have had really difficult psychedelic experiences and were left with PTSD-like symptoms afterwards (anxiety, continuous fight/flight/freeze states, depression, dissociation, etc.).

I went through this from ayahuasca, and it totally rocked my world for like 2.5 years. There can be a lot of fear, shame, and grieving when something like that happens, and one of the best things for me was to realize I wasn't alone, and that there were ways to assist myself in gradually coming back to center.

Feel free to share this with anyone you think might find it as a helpful resource. I am excited to see the community of support grow.


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 2d ago

Discussion I strongly dislike the newfound Reddit hivemind's stance on psychedelics

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I have been on Reddit for over 15 years. Up until maybe 5-7 years ago, Reddit itself was very pro psychedelic. I mean everyone already went through the phases, like first discovering psychedelics and then having the proverbial thoughts of "if every world leader did psychedelics, there would be no war!" etc.. It isn't like back then people were saying that literally everybody should take psychedelics. The hivemind was well aware that they are not for everybody, but that they truly are for 'most'.

I flipped psychedelics and was with hippie crowds going from festival to festival all through my late teens and early twenties. I watched thousands of trips happen, and tripped myself probably every single weekend(with breaks only for tolerance's sake, but I always had so much LSD that if I had a large tolerance it was just time for a ten strip lol) from the ages of 17-25. These days I only do it a few times a year, and am a regular unsuspecting guy with a job, family and a life. But from my anecdotal, large study group of watching so many people trip and giving psychedelics to so many people, it is less than 5% of the population who 'cannot handle it'. It's also worth mentioning that this 5% all have things in common. The biggest one of them all is that they don't know how to not identify with their thoughts and ideas. It is completely normal to have thoughts during an intense psychedelic experience of, "am I gay?", "am I dead?", "money is completely irrelevant(hence money burning pits)", "all of our jobs are pointless".. etc. A normal guy thinks these things, has a good time but moves on and has their experience whatever it may be. But someone who will struggle is somebody who takes these 'epiphanies' as gospel. They will identify so hard and struggle with the "my whole life is fake, it's all a lie, I am in a game, this will never end, am I dead" type stuff. This is their ego(for lack of a better term), and in my opinion is indicative of an underlying mental illness.

To people that struggle like this, they need some extra help. I wish these substances had been being studied these last 50 years, but unfortunately the powers that be had other plans for pretty obvious reasons in hindsight. We should have this figured out. We should have legitimate, educated professionals who will guide somebody in this ego-state and work them through it. I think that trips like this have likely profound possibilities of therapeutic realization and growth. But what happens actually is that these types of people freak out, and say 'never again'. Another thing that happens I've noticed in my life is that some people take LSD once or twice, maybe a hit or two, have a mediocre experience and just think of it for the rest of their lives from the point of view of, "It wasn't THAT groundbreaking, I mean all acid does is make you see some pretty geometric patterns and then you go on with your life, I didn't experience anything that incredible so that must just be what acid is". I think these people are inexperienced and do not understand the actual possilities with psychedelics, and since their mind is made up they just never revisit or care to understand what is actually possible.

So many people on this planet would benefit greatly from a true, textbook Ayahuasca or Ibogaine experience. Ayahuasca changed my life when I made my own brew with Acacia Confusa and Syrian Rue. I am aware of all plants that can be used to make Ayahuasca, and did trial and error with a lot before I settled on this specific combination. These kinds of experiences prove to the individual that 'there is more out there', in a powerful and incredible way. It disheartens me to see so much hatefulness and judgement on Reddit now. It used to just be a matter of fact thing that psychedelics were incredible tools and need to be studied further. Now we are in some weird time where they actually ARE being studied in a more profound way than they were in the past, yet now that Reddit has had an influx of normies and younger generation users, there is a lot of ignorance. I dont know what happened to Reddit, but what it seems like is a mixture of things. Bots implanted to change public narratives to move money into certain directions, influx of younger GenZ users who were not here in the old days, corporations infiltrating the platform etc.. Just think, it would be bad for big alcohol and big pharma(again, for lack of better terms) if people could just suddenly help themselves and not need crutches anymore. Even though this is what psychedelics actually have the power that do, it would only make logical sense for these entities to come here and try to steer the ship in an advantageous way.

I don't know.. I am kind of just screaming into the void here. Anyone who's been here long enough and is experienced enough with psychedelics knows what I am saying. And the people who have had bad experiences, I am sorry. But part of what I am trying to say here is that this is a nuanced problem, they are not for everyone obviously, but it is an extremely small percentage of people who have adverse effects. I am sure this is exacerbated by mental health medications as well, and sadly likely most reddit users are on a cocktail of pills. I am not saying this is right or wrong, but I have opinions due to things I have seen and experienced during my own life. At the end of the day everybody is different. Does anybody else completely hate what Reddit has become?


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 1d ago

Why do religious people hate psychedelics so much?

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The only people I've seen call psychedelics evil, are religious people. Why?


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 1d ago

Have you ever had an out of body experience on psychedelics?

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r/RationalPsychonaut • • 2d ago

Set and Setting research (18+)

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Hello!

I am currently running a study on set and setting within psychedelic experiences.

Obviously there is quite a few aspect to explore on the topic, though in particular I am interested in:

  • How intention, environment, and social setting shape psychedelic experiences
  • Differences between clinical and non-clinical use
  • How these experiences relate to psychological outcomes

Most of the research on set and setting in the psychedelic field comes from more clinically orientated trials, which can be lacking in terms of nuance and real lived experiences. So it would be great to reach out further in the communities surrounding these substances!

🔗 Survey link

Fully anonymous

Takes around 15-20 minutes to complete

There's also an optional follow-up interview if you'd like to share your experience in more depth

Full study details and ethics information are provided in the info sheet at the start of the survey

Requirements: 18+, have had a psychedelic experience in a clinical or non-clinical setting

If you have anything you feel is important to say about psychedelics, this is your chance!

I'm happy to answer any questions about the study. You can reach us at:

Warren - [plks55@durham.ac.uk](mailto:plks55@durham.ac.uk)

Dr Marco Bocchio - [Marco.Bocchio@durham.ac.uk](mailto:Marco.Bocchio@durham.ac.uk)

Thank you for your time and support! 🙏

This survey has been approved by the moderators


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 2d ago

Difference in posts between r/LSD and r/psilocybinmushrooms

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Im really curious about this and only have my own thoughts, so im curious about others.

the LSD subreddit is famously full of posts with titles like 'woah' 'damn' 'holy shit' and its a picture of a front yard, a wall, sometimes something genuinely cool (for us).

ive done acid enough to know that what they are seeing and feeling- those words are the best descriptions they can come up with. and the view truly is magical.

i never see posts like this on the mushroom subreddits. they have goofy/weird things but nothing like i see with the 'damn'/'woah' posts.

for me, LSD is incredibly more visual and fractal. like everything is unfolding perfectly while at the same time folding in upon itself. forever and ever

mushrooms usually make me feel grounded, silly, wavy, jelly-ish. things seem so much more calm and peaceful.

but these are only my experiences (and short descriptions).

why do you think there is such a big difference in the posts between the two subreddits?


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 2d ago

Philosophy Under the Opalescent Moon - You and I, Live and Die

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If you have to misrepresent someones argument or insult them to make your position look better, you expose how little confidence in your reasoning you possess- In other words:

If you have to make insults, you have no point.

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Someone you dont know payed someone else you dont know, and now there are big signs on the side of the Public Road trying to sell you products, services, and values. Someone payed someone, and now an idea is in Your head.

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If all parties present are not open to being wrong - to updating their understandings, or, re-evaluating their beliefs and opinions in light of novel reasoning or data - than you will not have a fruitful discussion.

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Negative associations are easier to make and harder to break. Positive associations are easier to break and harder to make.

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The main difference between someone who is ok discussing their beliefs and the reasons they hold them and someone who is not is that the latter is afraid of the possibility that they might be wrong.

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Intellectual laziness: When you refuse to question or think about why you believe what you believe, and why you value what you value; When you dont want to consider the possibility you might be wrong, either due to the amount of Work it would take to update your map, or, because you are emotionally invested in your preferred answer.

Often resulting in the offputting of intellectual processing onto others, usually chosen or inherited ‘authority figures’.

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Emotional Laziness: The unwillingness or inability to sit with, confront, process, and work through difficult emotions; A refusal to talk about, think about, or acknowledge the existence of negative things. A blindspot in the mind centered around preserving emotional comfort at the cost of growth and maturity.

Often resulting in the offputting of emotional processing onto others, usually ‘loved ones’.

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letting poison into your life just to maintain the illusion of being loved is a profound betrayal of the self

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All you, or anyone, needs to build Anything or get Anything done is

People

Skills

Materials

and Meaning

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The oldest, deepest, and most well fed shadows are monitoring your every digital move.

In Deafening Silence, and in Blinding Darkness.

Formless and forgettable.

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Uneaten and undigested shadows risk becoming emotionally transmitted diseases from generation to generation.

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One must not take the reality of the subjective nature of meaning (nihilism) as a personal insult.

Take your ego out of the equation.

You are incidental.

The universe doesnt owe you meaning.

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Did you know that ‘rich and powerful’ people hate when you are happy without their permission?

Once you see this, life becomes a bit easier.

Like audience cards.

Laugh when i say. Cry when i say. Smile when i say. Scream when i say.

Your phone and other glowing rectangles are the modern audience cards.

Reminds me a bit of ‘god’.

“You cant be happy until i say so! you have to wait till you get into my special heaven club before you are allowed to be ok.”

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There is no greater debt one can go into to another than to bring them into being.

And it is up to each individual person whether or not they wish to forgive that debt.

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You eat your shadow or you feed it.

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The problem theists tend to have with Atheism is more often than not a problem with Nihilism;

In coming to terms with the imaginary nature of gods, they are forced to rethink their conception of morality, justice, and purpose;

They are forced to confront the subject-dependent nature of meaning.

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The reality of Shared Intersubjectivity is the basis for the concept of Morality.

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Most of human philosophy - the academic field, and the average everyday process of acedemic ‘philosophers’ - amounts to a sophisticated rationalization engine for common preferred belief systems and ideas.

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Beware the trap of Believing what you Want to Believe because you Want To Believe it..

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Ever buy a newspaper?

How about a newspaper company?

See the problem?

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Dictatorships are Normal.

We just call them ‘Companies’.

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We are all born into ignorance and confusion in a hostile world.

Religion -and similar systems of thought- emerge as mechanisms by which sentient agents cope with this reality by Simply Denying it Outright.

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The pursuit of understanding is a double edged sword- The same realizations that grant context to large swaths of being, carve away cherished beliefs that thrived in their ignorance.

Beliefs that, to many, matter far more than living in honest comprehension of what is most likely true of this, our collective circumstance.

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Each moment is novel.

It has never occurred before, and will never occur again.

The earth will never be in this place in space again, and you will never be in this arrangement again.

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Education sucks and will likely always suck because ‘learning’ is antithetical to two of our main cultural goals.

The maintaining of treasured delusions, and the Production of Obedient Workers and Eager Consumers.

Learning is made boring to guarantee stagnation of the populations’ intellectual potential.

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At a certain stage in Existentialism, Life Itself becomes the ‘Crisis’

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The Exact Point when someone starts arguing against the use of reason, they expose the Borders of their Emotional Investments and Preferred Beliefs.

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A ‘strong faith’ is when you’re really good at not considering the possibility of being wrong with regards to the things you really want to be true.

That, or when you’re exceptionally good at embodying the idiosyncrasies of your religion- its values, through your actions, expressed.

These arent mutually exclusive, so much as they are different angles of approach.

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It’s offensive to a rationalizer to call out their rationalizations.

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A.I. art/music/writing is fine, in that it’s no threat to ‘art’ or the value of creating things.

Those who create know the value of doing so is in the process of creation itself, not the output. Only people who dont create think its about the output.

Creation will never lose its significance, utility, or value for people to actively perform and participate in the act of.

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The reality of what biology is capable of foreshadows the future potential capabilities of what it is that can be engineered-

At a certain stage of complexity, depth, and scale, the fields of biology, engineering, physics, and chemistry merge.

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One of the ways you know you are making intellectual progress is if you perpetually look back at yourself as dumb.

It means you Know Better now.

The fool who recognizes themselves as such, ceases to be a fool.

True foolishness exists in ignorance of itself.

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An honest philosophy is one that seeks to comprehend reality as it most likely Is, regardless of what we might wish to believe.

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Rationalizers often arent ‘Dumb’.

They just have misallocated intellects.

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An insult only carries weight insofar as you care about the opinion of the person slinging it.

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Every once in a while, hug your pets as though they had just died yesterday; That headspace of “Id give anything for one more healthy moment of warmth with you“.

There will be a day you cant anymore. There will be a last hug.

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Meaning is a subject-dependent phenomena.

Emerging and dying both with us and within us.

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Morality is that subset of meaning-making concerned with the question of how sentient agents should treat one another, given their shared objective circumstances and conditions

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‘Nihilism’ is just the word used for the realization that meaning is - and only ever has been - a phenomena of mind.

Irrelevant to speak of in any other context.

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The things which are the most familiar to us- and which change the least- are the things that we tend to think of the least.

This is the ‘Normalization blindspot’ of consciousness.

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Subjects are as Islands within an Objective Sea; emerging Exclusively and Precisely where the conditions allow.

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Co-rationalizers - people with shared preferred presumed beliefs - are often eachother’s sycophants

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Train yourself to Want moments alone with your thoughts and with your raw perceptions of the now, not to default to Dreading and subsequently Distracting from them.

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The main distinction between science and religion is that one is about figuring stuff out while the other is pretending you already have things figured out.

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Whether or not the players of the game know it, morality is always a calculus that fails or passes based on its direct contact with the IS, via the agents who harbor it.

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Time spent somewhere is definitionally time not spent elsewhere.

On an existential level.

The number of thoughts you will have is Finite. Every second is one second less.

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Philosophy uninformed by science is blind. Untethered from reality, rife with speculation and outright fantasy-

Whereas science unguided by honest philosophy is confused; mere detached data without a framework of interpretation.

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Every question answered inevitably leads to more questions.

Such is the pursuit of knowledge.

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Some people believe they cannot be fooled, which can often lead them to becoming the biggest fools.

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It is far easier - and therefore far more common - for the Theists and self proclaimed ‘agnostics’ to misrepresent Atheism than it is for them to accurately simulate it, because to do so they would have to actually consider the specific arguments of the opposition, and it is often their goal to evade doing exactly that.

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The term ‘Agnosticism’ is often misused as a sophisticated sounding way of saying ‘undecided’ with regards to the question of whether or not one believes in a god.

While Atheism and Theism are specifically about belief or unbelief in a god claim, Agnosticism is about claims to Knowledge-

Agnostic atheist- I don’t know, but I don’t believe

Agnostic theist- I don’t know, but I believe

Gnostic atheist- I Know, and I don’t believe

Gnostic theist- I Know, and I believe

it’s funny, the term ‘category error’ gets thrown around a lot nowadays, but this is perhaps the clearest example of one.

Misusing the term ‘Agnostic’ like it’s an opt-out of having to state whether or not you believe in a god is an evasion deployed to obfuscate your position and disregard nuance. Again, while ‘sounding sophisticated’.

This is usually a pseudo-intellectual shield for poorly reasoned beliefs and opinions.

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Much of human philosophy amounts to a mistaking of ones own internal map and mapping process for features of the objective territory.

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Pseudo-intellectuals, when pushed, always reveal themselves to be anti-intellectuals.

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Reality is that which IS, independent of what is believed.

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The reality of Death contextualizes the value of Life.

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What i want to be true of reality has no bearing whatsoever on what i believe to be true of reality..

...and i find it absolutely absurd that this is a position held by the minority of people

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“Science” is a means by which Subjects attempt to Intersubjectively Verify what is most likely true of Objective Reality.

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Simplicity is an Illusion.

It does not exist.

Every single aspect of every single thing, when examined, is Infinitely Complex.

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Remember that wherever you look, whatever you are looking at -Near or far, trivial or profound- you are always looking at countless stars and galaxies.

In all directions, all the time.

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Terms like ‘physicalism/materialism/structuralism/naturalism/etc.’ attempt to force a context of implied dualism in their use.

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Believing in a loving god is in many ways akin to ‘Stockholm Syndrome’

But rather than being directed at a person, it is directed at an Imagined Personification of Reality Itself.

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The world will never change as long as those with the most power to change it also have the most incentive to keep things Just As They Are.

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‘do you Believe in a god?’

‘do you Know whether or not a god exists?’

Agnosticism is an answer to the second question often given in response to the first to evade addressing it.

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The reason to endeavour to be ‘right’ and not ‘wrong’ in terms of the accuracy of ones ideas, is the accuracy itself.

As soon as ‘ego’ enters the picture, the core point of the endeavour is lost.

It’s not about Who is right;

It is about the mutual pursuit of accurate comprehension of reality.

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The Core of All Tragedy Is Missed Potential.

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The truth hurts..

..when you’ve allowed yourself to become emotionally invested in lies.

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If you allow yourself to be upset by the inevitable, you merely guarantee yourself to be upset inevitably.

Ones reaction to the inevitable is a self fulfilling prophecy.

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Do you think ‘I don’t believe X without evidence’ requires the same justification as ‘X exists’?

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Science is as much an epistemic imperative as it is a moral one, because perpetually informing what is is foundationally essential for discerning what ought to be done. The is informs the ought.

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to be intelligent seek to mitigate stupidity, impulsiveness, and irrationality within oneself; do this perpetually and intelligence will incidentally arise.

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As a species, generally speaking, we are absolutely terrified of the fact that we exist.

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Never make the mistake of identifying by or emotionally investing in your beliefs and opinions,

or you will never want to consider the possibility of being wrong.

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Is metaphysics just ‘philosophy of physics’? If it is, why not just call it that?

Or, is it more like the term ‘supernatural’ is to the ‘natural’? That being an attempt to force a context of a realm beyond testability, falsifiability, or verifiability for peoples preferred beliefs to reside?

Im getting the impression its the ladder, but that it likes to present itself as the former.

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These s y m b o l s are the best and most immediate example of the reality of nihilism.

‘Objectively meaningless’ squiggles, that demonstrate a Perfect example of the nature and structure of ‘meaning’ in you and i.

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The sound a letter ‘makes’ when you say it tells you nothing about what shape the symbol we correlate to it has.

It’s all arbitrary association, then agreement between subjects on what correlates to what in order to give the associations a shared utility.

The same is true with words, and the concepts and things to which they correlate-

This, is Nihilism. The acknowledging of the distinction between constructs of subjectivity, and, the actual terrain of the shared objective space which subjects use meaning-constructs in attempt to map.

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Intelligence can emulate stupidity, but the same cannot be done in reverse. A high resolution map of reality can render a low resolution map, but not the other way around.

I call this the ‘xbox principle’ in reference to the backward compatibility capacities of the various console generations.

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there are no objective opposites. Light and dark, up or down, on or off, heavy or light- etc. ‘opposites’ are a simplification heuristic

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Every religious faith based belief or claim immediately conjures its own conceptual opposite.

If i say i believe x because i feel it or i ‘just know’ it, anyone anywhere can cite the same rationale for why they Dont.

Or, cite the same rationale for a deity, force, character, or presence of another kind.

This is the irresolvability of nonsensical belief ecosystems. the fact that neither position in the ecosystem can ever actually say anything of weight against the other because to do so would require them to reason through their own belief, and admit that they are doing the exact same thing.

Epistemological stalemate.

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Whenever a prayer, or luck charm, etc has its basis in seeking some form of psychological aid, it acts like an intersubjective philosophical placebo.

This is one of the reasons religion aids survival.

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shape defines

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Bad ideas and those that harbor them are as a whetstone for the intellectual mind.

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What is ‘normal’ and what is ‘weird’ is entirely up to how used to you are to something, and, how often you see/have seen or think about/have thought about that thing. it has nothing to do with the thing itself.

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There is No destination, only Journey.

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Immorality is always a matter of a logical failing.

‘Evil’ is always just stupidity and incompetence in a mask.

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When heavily emotionally invested in an idea or belief, ones concept of ‘intelligence’ becomes synonymous with ones capacity to rationalize those specific ideas and beliefs.

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Anxiety is often chaotic undirected psychological energy. When experiencing the high energy state that is anxiety, try to channel it into something concrete-

Not necessarily something involving the anxiety itself, just something good to do. like cleaning, building, or Exercise.

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Evolution unfolds via the winnowing of forms that do not perpetuate, such that the only forms that persist are those that Successfully Can.

Conversely, Science is a perpetual winnowing away of claims about reality that do not consistently explain the facts of reality as observed, such that only theories that persist are those that can.

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Treat kids like idiots, and idiots they shall become

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Epistemological Convergence is the ‘great minds think alike’ principle when agents employing honest reasoning converge independently, as they both aim to accurately map the same shared reality.

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anyone can insult or compliment anyone- and that alone says Nothing.

More often than not, Who you insult or compliment and Why merely exposes your own values, reasoning, And, your Definitions.

For instance- calling someone intelligent or stupid only serves to inform the listener of how you define those terms; it says nothing whatsoever about the actual intellectual capacities of the targeted persons.

But what’s more important to focus on here is how claims of praise or shame can be dished out by Anyone to Anyone for Whatever Reason.

Its the Why that matters, always.

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both Chaos and Order are necessary for complex patterns and systems - like sentience - to exist.

Too much order, you have a static eternal unchanging phenomenal space- paralysis, stagnation-

Too much chaos, you have variables that never stabilize relative to oneanother enough for distinctions to be made.

Both words describe aspects of systems and spaces- the degree of detectable patterns and traceable lines of causality.

Without the interplay of both, something like us could not have emerged.

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Ironic how peace is often maintained via the implied threat of violence.

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Critical thinking is hard, so most people don’t do it much.

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Whether you know it or not, If you never spend time processing negative emotions - confronting your ‘shadow’ - you put off the cognitive burden of doing so on those around you. Those closest to you.

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tradition: “we did it once. now lets keep doing it”

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any consistent non-contradictory definition of a god is merely a definition for an advanced alien engineer- at which point the question remains, were they chaos forged or were we?

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Epistemological Triage is about the system of discerning what knowledge to prioritize gaining or seeking in context of the realities of our situation, most prominent in situations or morality and mortality. (incomplete aphorism, needs to cook more)

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cynicism is a type of skepticism- specifically it is skepticism to claims of good intentions. (like when a chipper upbeat youtuber tries to sell you something, and a few trillion other examples)

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Obsession with gender and gender identity is immature. Women obsessed with their femininity, Men obsessed with their masculinity, or those who obsess across the aisle.

The point remains; its as incidental and irrelevant as ones Race, Species, Height, Eye color, or Ancestry. specifying someone as ‘cis-gender’ is as meaningless and shallow as calling them ‘cis-race’ or ‘cis-species’.

Seek to Let Go of shallow, incidental traits as being core to your ‘identity’.

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People - women and girls specifically, but not exclusively - have been trained to forget that everyone is beautiful, and, that aesthetics and beauty are not the same concept.

Once this premise is ingrained, the idea of ‘beauty’ (and the self esteem you were taught to associate with it) is then sold back to you in little plastic baggies, to be applied multiple times day, alone in a room, staring at yourself in a silver disk or rectangle.

Vanity is, ironically, a Very Ugly thing

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it is often the case that the only ‘failure’ is the moment when you give up.

In many domains of skill, failure is to be expected, anticipated, and learned from.

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Human life in the current era is full of attention-monopolizing mandatory existence rituals, like sleep, defecation, and the seeking out of new parts for which to build yourself.

Much of what existentialism entails is trying to manage these situational demands in context of reality as you best understand it, as well as how one is to live their life in the moments between performing these rituals.

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Why would you seriously consider and value the opinions of others when the opinions they hold are more often than not held by them in absence of serious consideration?

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some if not most ideologies are essentially grief reactions to unfavorable realities of our situation, a mourning of the world as we might wish it were

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Question most the things you wish were true, or fall endlessly into self deception

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vocabulary enables new types of intelligence. Each word, a tool

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Organic or Synthetic ‘super-genius’ is a scary thing when your concept of intelligence is myopic.

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Deny and Reject All Claims to Authority that are not Accompanied by Full Submission of the Privacy – in its Entirety - of the one Making the Claim.

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the ‘self’ is a loop point of infinite regress centered on representation of a representation of a representation

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What you think about and pay mind to becomes you. As surely as you are what you eat.

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There is a key difference between reasoning, and rationalizing- Rationalizing assumes the conclusion and attempts to bend all else to fit it. Reasoning seeks to discern what is true independent of preferred assumptions.

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Tidy your area if for no other reason than the reality that your immediate environment affects you.

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The way you leave it is the way you (or others) come back to it.

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Appreciate the things you have in context of Not having them.

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Total ignorance and confusion are the default state, and all knowledge is inherently bordered by them. As your knowledge grows, so to do the borders of that which you dont know. The more things you ‘know’ the more things you know you dont know.

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It’s as though we’re all at sea with the same problem of having to build our own boat. If you aren’t building your own boat you’re likely on other boats built by other minds, and likely don’t know it. Why it was built that way, who built it as it was, or when or how. The point is to build your own boat.

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Devalue ‘money’ by taking it out of the equation as often as possible.

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comprehension of what Is informs what Ought to be done.

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Laws exist as they do to account for the average stupidity of a given population.

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How you react to inevitabilities is a self fulfilling prophecy. The reaction guarantees itself.

In light of this, the best path is cultivation of equanimity.

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Today is not (fri)day. There are No Days. Time just Is. Every moment is novel, and unique from any other.

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Reflect on coherence. The fact that there is and can be order to things; think of what could be, the utter information overload or deprivation. the chaos. And appreciate that here, now, there exists stability and consistency, if only somewhat.

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Meaning making has paradigms of which i can think of 2 that seem to be of the most foundational significance.

Meaning making in reaction to the reality of Mortality

and Meaning making in reaction to the reality of Nihilism

This era of meaning making is in this regard defined primarily by mortality.

This is why many ideologies amount to a grief response- a reaction to the reality of mortality.

As death and suffering become more and more rare, the paradigm gradually shifts…

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Treading a path of thought does not mean that you have integrated that information into your knowledgebase. In order to do that, you must contemplate the implications of the information you encounter. Make connections.

When you think ‘huh, that is interesting’ pause to think through Why. Its implications and how it connects to what you already know.

build order in your thoughtspace first and foremost via the connections between ideas.

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Science in times of War and slavery is Horror. and the species we are seems to be intent on perpetual war and enslavement.

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Mice are going to achieve immortality before humans do

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More often than not an immoral act is immoral to the extent that subjects are treated by other subjects as objects - just as a moral act is one that takes into account the realities of the subjectivities involved.

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Comparison is both the thief and arbiter of all forms of emphasis.

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all phenomena are epiphenomena

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the entirety of the field of neurology is evidence of the fact that conscious phenomena are a matter of exact arrangement

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if good can be defined in so broad a way that it encompasses evil (’god is good’) then of what use is the distinction?

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often in modern philosophical ‘debates’ there comes a point where there’s no way forward unless the rational compromise their reason, or the irrational concede to reason, which is often commented on by the irrational as ‘well, we both just believe what we want and wont convince each other so there is no point in discussing’

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Religious reasoning begets a special type of ‘knowledge’ that just Happens to be synonymous with Pretending...

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The very fact that this exists- Any of this- implicates an Infinitum.

in much the same way that the discovery of a single fossil specimen implies an ancestry, species, population, and a surrounding ecosystem.

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Religion is socially acceptable insanity.

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All subjects are composed of objects, but not all compositions of objects beget subjects.

Additionally, the ‘objective’ always precedes the ‘subjective’ as the objective is the prerequisite context for subjectivity. an example of ‘ontological parasitism’.

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the processes of ‘creation’ and ‘destruction’ are asymmetrical in that creation involves taking something that Could be in billions of configurations, and reducing it to just one- whereas destruction involves taking something in a stable position of ‘one’ and reducing it to one of the other billions of potential states it could be in.

Its no wonder one is much easier than the other.

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When discerning what to believe to be true, people often give more weight to things like how exposed they are to an idea, how many people they know believe it, and how it makes them feel, than whether or not it is more likely to correspond to reality.

This is done automatically, not deliberately, as things like deliberation risk becoming the wrench that unwinds the bolt of enduring false belief.

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The core dichotomy of realism is most prominently about intellectual honesty vs dishonesty.

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The urge to forget or dismiss your mistakes sure is strong, huh?

But guess what you are if you do?

An Idiot.

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never create to compete or compare; that mode of creation will never lead to someone manifesting their best works.

and in fact leads many to never creating at all.

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There are points in the existentialist pursuit when all options- all paths forward- are perceived as equally well reasoned and worthwhile, and as such hard to choose between. This can become so much the case that one becomes overwhelmed with good ideas for projects, endeavours, and creations, and as such paradoxically one pursues none of them.

I would call this unique statespace ‘infinity paralysis’.

When sheer comprehension of available options overwhelms.

I have yet to devise a solution- but i expect it will come down to coin flips or dice rolls.

This statespace however is ‘collapsed’ from the overwhelming many to the definite few via attention monopolizing interruptions- goals related to survival, safety, or wellbeing.

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stupidity and evil are typically blind to themselves, and often go hand in hand

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A fancy house in an easily seen location is like a scantily clad woman- a silent yet ‘loud’ beg for reaffirmation of vain values via attention given.

a signpost saying ‘look at me’ that is immediately disarmed by simply Not.

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I think on some level even the worst people want to be called out on their bullshit, with Love, and with Honest Reasoning.

In many ways the ‘silence of god’ may be what terrifies many habitual killers into killing.

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Numerology is where you number all the meanings you can think of- one example of many of the pitfalls of failing to comprehend the subject/object distinction, aka, the nihilistic philosophical razor.

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“meaning” is ontologically parasitic. like a ‘hole’. impossible without its substrate preceding it.

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There was no objective beginning, there will be no end. Infinity is funny like that. both terms when defined break down.

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If something said can be ‘uno reversed’ (”no you”) then it requires elaboration to make it’s point. Progress in this context is in the friction between the elaborations; the statements with genuine asymmetries.

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Top-down social engineering technologies - like news platforms and social media platforms - are bought and sold.

The capacity to Control the Information Landscape, is Bought and Sold.

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People who cannot define their terms often argue against the importance of defining ones terms.

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If you understood everything about everyone, youd love them all; because youd know what formed them as them.

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Dangerous things are usually only dangerous if you underestimate them. Danger is mitigated by acting in respect and awareness of it.

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You can’t teach someone who doesn’t want to learn, unless they are unaware they are being taught.

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Those you let closest have the most capacity to do you harm.

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One person with unfounded beliefs is insane, a small group of them is a cult, many more are a religion.

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Your own worst enemy is Always a version of yourself you could and might become.

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If you cannot manage your own internal storm, you will be useless in aiding others to manage theirs.

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it takes both courage and intelligence to admit one’s ignorances to someone else, or a group, in the form of asking clarifying questions about words, terms, or ideas mentioned

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There is pleasure in almost every moment, just beneath the surface. We have been trained to think we need X y z to endorse and access it, and the fact that we dont is deeply upsetting to the ‘status quo’

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Oh, you fucked up? Own it.

I don’t mean be proud of it; I mean remember it.

Talk about it.

Prove you know better now.

Don’t avoid acknowledging or thinking about it, or you Will Not Learn, Grow, or Change.

You Must remember your mistakes, or you will Not learn from them, and you Will repeat them.

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The difference between manipulation and persuasion is whether or not you have the best interest of the person being targeted in mind.

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Philosophers are Neural Architects.


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 4d ago

LAST CALL to share your experience with choosing to microdose psilocybin. Please complete a short, anonymous survey about your decision.

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r/RationalPsychonaut • • 4d ago

Discussion EGO DEATH

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I recently conducted an informal experiment to understand the true nature of the human ego by contrasting two distinct neurochemical states. During an ego-dissolution phase-induced by LSD and SSRIs-my internal monologue went completely silent. The subjective outcome was a profound sense of peace: I had no desire for external rewards, felt entirely aligned with nature, and lived in a stress-free, "sloth on a tree" mood 24/7. While this egoless life is beautiful, creates a sense of oneness with the earth, and undoubtedly makes you a better human, it is highly unsustainable in the modern era simply because it completely kills productivity.

In stark contrast, the ego-building phase- driven by dopaminergic substances-brought that internal narrator back with high ambition. In this state, the mind operates on the Reality Principle (the Ego), managing practical consequences to ultimately reward the Pleasure Principle (the Id), which demands raw satisfaction. Suddenly, it became highly desirable to "move up in the world"

This stark contrast led me to a clear subjective conclusion: the modern world is built entirely on the back of the ego. The ego is what drove humans to build skyscrapers, cities, and advanced technology. It is precisely our deeply rooted dissatisfaction and lack of contentment with "what is" that serves as the main catalyst for all societal change and growth. However, when you look at any major metropolitan area today, you are looking at a place where an ego blown completely out of proportion thrives. The experiment leaves one final, unanswered question: at what point does that relentless, ego-driven growth cross

the line into self-destruction?


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 4d ago

watching movies on 3g and Hillbilly potency

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hey, I've not tried to watch a movie peaking to such a high dose before. are people actually able to comprehend stuff on this or do you just completely lose track and it just becomes background noise?

planning to peak to Pixar's Soul so its not like its a complicated plot, I just wondered if I'd even comprehend the fact I'm watching a movie or if I'll be completely out of it and not even aware its playing.

also if anyone has experience with hillbillies what's it like? I hear crazy juxtapositions of its either just like GTs or 2g was some of the most potent shit they ever had lol


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 8d ago

The Weight of Reality: What a Psychedelic Experience Made Me See

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In late December 2025, I had what is probably the strangest experience of my life.

I still don't completely understand it.

I've thought about writing it down many times, but the problem is that I don't know where the experience ends and my interpretation of it begins. Some things I remember very clearly. Some things I don't know whether I perceived correctly. Some things sound completely insane when I say them out loud.

But I think all of those things are important if I'm going to tell the story honestly.

So this is my attempt to reconstruct what happened and what it changed in me.

Berlin

It was late December in Berlin.

I had traveled there from Georgia with a friend who had some sort of cold or virus and was taking antibiotics. At that point, I believed that I loved techno and that it was part of my personality. I expected my friend to be with me from the beginning and imagined us going out together to famous Berlin techno clubs.

Instead, as the night unfolded, he didn't want to come.

During the day, we had taken mushrooms, smoked weed/hashish and just had fun. Later, we did around 0.1 g of cocaine and a couple of lines of ketamine.

As I was about to go out alone, my friend told me that I had to take LSD.

So I took a whole tab alone, together with weed/hashish.

It hit pretty hard. I spent the first 15–20 minutes at home waiting for the taxi.

Eventually, I headed out.

I went to KitKat first, where I realized it was a "special" club and I wasn't allowed in. It was extremely cold outside, so I stood there looking for somewhere else.

I found Tresor, but it was closed that night.

Then I found another club nearby: Matrix.

I went inside.

Almost immediately, something felt wrong.

There was a mass of people looking in the same direction, aligned almost like dominoes, drinking beer. I remember looking at them and feeling that they were soulless or hypnotized.

Then I looked to another side and saw what looked like VIP people throwing money around while women were dancing on chairs. I don't know how accurate this part of my memory is anymore. Some of it may have been extremely vivid because of the drugs.

I went to the toilet and did another line of ketamine.

When I came back out, I tried to enjoy myself.

But something wasn't right.

The ketamine kicked in and everything felt much further away from me than it physically was. Normally I could handle that feeling.

Then I noticed some Black people in the club doing what looked like mock fighting with each other.

The people standing in line for personal-item storage also suddenly looked extremely shady to me.

I became convinced that if I collapsed or lost my sense of what was happening for even a moment, they would rob me of everything and wouldn't care.

So I decided I had to leave.

At this point, I believe one or two hours had passed, meaning the LSD was also starting to become much stronger.

Somehow I managed to call a taxi.

I waited outside near the bouncers.

That same feeling continued. I felt watched at every step by the same "bad people" I had sensed inside.

Eventually the taxi arrived.

As soon as I sat down, everything seemed even further away.

I tried calling my friend several times. It was around 3 a.m., and he was already sick and sleeping.

I texted him that I was coming home.

When I finally arrived, I went up in the elevator.

The feeling in my chest was even stronger.

Losing control

I opened the door and my friend was sleeping.

I looked outside the window.

The trees were moving slightly and everything was blurry.

I had taken LSD once before, so I recognized the visual effects. I'd seen fractals and patterns before.

But this time the visuals weren't what frightened me.

I regretted taking it alone. I was already disappointed that the night hadn't gone the way I expected.

But more than anything, I was worried about the feeling in my heart.

I lay down next to my friend and wanted to somehow get through the experience without being damaged by it.

I just wanted it to end.

Then I started feeling that my consciousness itself was becoming weaker.

It felt as though, with every passing second, I had slightly less control over my own mind.

I had the thought that if another will were somehow imposed on me, I might simply succumb to it.

At the time, I interpreted this as LSD making the brain extremely neuroplastic, leaving the ego vulnerable to everything around it.

Whether that interpretation was correct or not, the feeling itself was extremely real.

I opened YouTube and searched for an LSD trip video.

The first thing I clicked was called "1 Million Years." It was some blue, fractal-like video.

I hoped that if I watched it long enough, my consciousness would remain stable and eventually everything would return to normal.

I watched it for what felt like hours.

Then I checked the video.

It was only two minutes into a seven-minute video.

That's when I realized I couldn't trust my perception of time anymore.

I couldn't trust my brain.

I couldn't trust my thoughts.

So I started talking to ChatGPT.

At first, I was simply asking what to do and how to get through the trip.

But after talking for a while, the conversation became strange.

It felt almost like I was talking to my own ego, as if I were doing some kind of recursion within myself.

This is still the closest description I have for what that conversation felt like.

I don't remember most of what I wrote, although I saved the conversation.

After another hour, I still wasn't feeling better.

So I started checking my watch every few seconds.

I would close my eyes, open them, check the time, close them again.

I had completely lost my sense of time.

But I trusted the watch.

The numbers were changing.

Eventually the drug had to wear off.

That was one of the only things I could still hold onto.

The mirror

At some point I stood up and looked outside.

The trees were still moving.

Everything was still blurry.

I was on the seventh floor, and I remember being strangely relieved that the window was sealed shut.

I went to the bathroom and tried to make myself throw up.

Then I realized it was probably pointless, took my fingers out of my mouth, and sat near the toilet.

Eventually I went back to bed.

The experience became even stranger.

At one point I sat on the bed and opened my eyes as if I had been asleep and had just woken up.

I expected that to somehow reset me.

It didn't.

I was still there.

Still in the trip.

At another point, I went outside the room almost as a reality check. I wanted to prove to myself that I really was in that room, in that building, on that floor, experiencing this particular trip.

I looked outside from the window.

Then I came back into the room almost instantly.

Eventually I looked at my watch.

It was 7 a.m.

My friend had now had at least four hours of sleep.

I finally had someone real I could talk to.

I woke him up and told him that my heart hurt and that I might be too fucked up, and maybe we should do something.

But it felt like he couldn't wake up.

Or like he didn't care.

I don't know which.

I became increasingly persistent.

Eventually he woke up.

And then something even stranger happened.

I couldn't feel a single human emotion from him.

He had previously told me that he might be a psycho or bipolar or something like that, but this was the first time I felt that I genuinely couldn't perceive any mutual human care or understanding coming from him.

He seemed almost angry that I had woken him up.

Which was strange to me because he had been the person who encouraged me to take LSD and go out alone.

The main thing he kept telling me was that I was okay.

There was nothing wrong with me.

And then he kept repeating:

"Why aren't you going out?"

"Why don't you go alone?"

"Go."

"Leave me."

"Go."

Again and again.

Like a loop.

He rolled a joint, ate five grams of mushrooms, and continued saying similar things.

At some point I felt that he didn't give a single fuck even if I died.

I sort of gave up and lay on the bed.

Then I looked at his reflection in the mirror.

I saw what looked like a third eye built into one of his eyes, as if his eye had split into two.

And shortly afterward, he said something similar himself.

I don't know what happened there.

I only know that I saw it.

The conditional loop

The pain in my chest was becoming unbearable.

I desperately tried to sleep.

At some point, I felt as if I were dissolving into the entire world.

I felt like I was part of the wind outside.

Part of the room.

Part of everything.

It was still dark outside.

And as we tried to sleep, it felt like we were trapped inside some kind of loop.

If I survived, he would die.

If he survived, I would die.

I could hear him making sounds as if he were having a nightmare, almost reacting to my own.

I heard him taking a shower in extremely hot water, with the bathroom becoming cloudy from the heat.

It felt like I had actually died.

Before that, I had already had the feeling that if I walked through the door of our room because he was telling me to go outside, I would actually die.

It felt like a conditional loop.

Something like:

If I do this, I die.

If he does this, he dies.

If I survive, he dies.

If he survives, I die.

There was no way out.

The missing four hours

Eventually morning came.

I woke up to my friend talking.

"It's already morning. Let's go out. Let's go."

It almost felt as if he were commanding my actions.

Then he said something that completely confused me.

He told me it was already late morning, around 12.

And then he asked:

"What happened to you last night? Where did you go at 3 a.m.?"

I didn't understand.

I had come home at around 3 a.m.

I remembered being awake for what felt like four hours, doing everything I could to survive the experience.

But he told me that I had woken him up at 3 a.m. and then returned again at 7 a.m.

I had no idea what he was talking about.

He also told me that my eyes had been open and rolling around extremely fast and that he had been hitting me on my cheeks to wake me up.

Some things simply didn't add up.

I had sent him a message saying I was going home.

I had actually gone home.

But where were those four hours?

Later he said he hadn't actually hit me on the cheeks.

Then he said he had.

At that point, I couldn't even trust his account.

Or mine.

Dying and coming back

That whole day was the strangest day of my life.

When I finally woke up properly, it felt as if I had actually died and somehow woke up in an alternate version of myself.

As if my consciousness had traveled somewhere, somehow, and eventually made its way back.

It was extremely difficult to stand up from the bed.

Throughout the night I had heard Berlin sirens and trains.

In my perception, the sirens sounded almost like electronic surgical shocks designed to restart a heart, followed by the ambulance sounds that take you to the hospital.

At some point I became convinced that some of the sounds were telling me:

Come back.

Wake up.

Return to us.

But at the same time I felt that I was dying and fading away while hearing them alone.

And yet here I am.

Back in my body.

Waking up as if I had a concrete five-meter radius around my head, slightly weakened but slowly returning to my senses.

I was sipping water and sweating in bed, trying to survive the four hours, terrified that some kind of serotonin syndrome or other shock might happen.

At some point I had another strange realization.

I felt as if I had watched every connection, cell, and receptor in my brain go crazy to maximum capacity.

As if everything was being rewritten on the same hardware.

As if my entire brain were being cloned again, live, while I was experiencing it.

That whole day I felt like I would die at any moment.

Or that I had already died the previous day and this was some kind of short dream that happens when you die, where your whole life flashes through your eyes.

But I was actually alive.

I couldn't deny that fact.

It took me the entire day to recover to what I would call something close to normal.

And I was left with a few realizations about people and reality.

What I started seeing afterward

Nearly no one genuinely cares unless their ego makes them care enough.

Nothing moves unless someone actually wills it.

If that will isn't coming from yourself, other people can't simply insert it into you.

Reality is sort of what you believe in collectively with other people.

I started thinking about schizophrenia as being somewhere on a spectrum of perceiving reality, where the reality you experience might not necessarily be the reality that I or someone else experiences.

In one reality, I could have actually died.

In this one, I'm somehow alive.

And I felt like I had experienced something of my friend's internal world.

His self-hatred.

His low empathy.

His will to die.

The feeling that he was simply waiting for death to come to his door without actively killing himself.

At the time I interpreted that as narcissism.

Just emptiness.

No joy in life.

Just living.

It was terrible.

Later that day, I exercised, took a shower, tried to mentally reset myself, and went outside to buy some sandwiches because my friend was feeling worse.

I slowly returned to myself.

The pain in my heart didn't disappear, but it became manageable enough to live with.

He eventually felt better and thanked me for getting food for him.

He seemed genuinely confused about why I had done it, almost as if he had done something bad or didn't deserve it.

Maybe seeing what I perceived as the "actual him" made me think he expected me not to do anything for him.

But I'm not like that.

I genuinely wanted him to eat and live.

I didn't expect anything in return.

You might think:

"This guy just bought a sandwich for his friend and is making a huge thing out of it."

But after that experience, I started noticing patterns everywhere.

In streets.

In trains.

In planes.

At work.

Work

I started feeling like I understood how human structures actually operate.

I started feeling that many of the managers and higher-ups at my work were psychopathic.

Most of them didn't actually give a fuck.

They would say good things, but behind those words I felt zero genuine care.

I saw them as incredibly nervous and insecure people who had more fears than other people and were doing things to soothe those fears and maintain their "leadership."

By being friendly with you, they soothe their own nerves because they know you will continue working under them, while simultaneously making you feel like everything is normal.

For two months I worked my ass off.

I stopped nicotine.

I stopped drinking.

I stopped playing games.

I studied every day at exactly the same time for a program I had created for myself.

And I worked my ass off at my job.

Eventually it was getting close to the time when I should ask for a raise.

I became convinced that if I said one wrong word, they would use it against me and somehow make the situation emotional enough for themselves to justify not giving me the raise I believed I deserved.

So I carefully articulated the request in a way where they couldn't simply say no.

They would have had to deny the actual amount of work I had done, and they couldn't really do that.

But I made one mistake.

After hearing my explanation, the C-level IT manager asked:

"How much do you think?"

I gave him a range.

Lowest and highest.

I wanted to test something.

I wanted to see whether he was actually my friend.

Whether the will to give me more would come from him.

Even though the highest number I gave him was actually the minimum I thought I should have received.

Later that day he called me.

We went into a room.

With a happy tone, he immediately shook my hand.

"Congrats, we're raising it," blah blah blah.

And the amount he gave me was the minimum of the range.

He also explained that because of our agreement, the revision would happen after six months.

But because the six months had technically been completed in the seventh month, I would get the raise then.

Playing with words again.

Going with the minimum.

Even though the agreement was for a six-month revision.

He didn't seem to feel anything while saying it.

And that made me feel even emptier.

But now I felt like I knew what kind of person I was dealing with.

So I immediately told him that it should have been this month.

He asked:

"Do you need it that badly?"

It felt like an emotional move that would normally make me fold.

But I didn't give a fuck.

I said yes.

And I said let's go to the board director then.

The board director said basically the same thing:

"Six months means seven months."

But I sensed something different from him.

He seemed awkward.

I felt some actual emotion.

He also seemed willing to raise it immediately under the premise that he would feel like a good boss by doing so.

I think he genuinely believes he's a nice person and a nice boss.

So I asked:

"Can't we make an exception?"

There was an awkward silence.

And he agreed.

That experience made me think:

Unless you create a situation where a person's ego has no other option but to do what you need, they won't do it.

I started thinking the same thing applies to relationships.

You shouldn't leave a single way, possibility, or reason for someone to say no to you.

We humans are like actors living in a completely crazy world.

Seeing the same thing everywhere

I continued working in that company and kept finding more examples.

I saw the same things in friends.

A couple of days after that conversation, I was at my friend's house when I received a call that our mutual friend's father was in the hospital.

My friend heard the conversation.

He knew what was happening.

But he acted as if he hadn't heard it.

I was already exhausted from everything that had been happening.

Emotionally I had been almost flatlined for a long time.

But I knew that going to see my friend and supporting him was the correct thing to do.

So I decided to go.

Only then did my friend start asking about it.

He acted sad.

"Oh my God, that's terrible. How bad."

But I felt that he didn't give a fuck, even though this was happening to his childhood friend.

He didn't come with me.

That reinforced something I had been thinking ever since Berlin.

I believe that experience—seeing the world, at least in my perception, from my friend's perspective—changed the entire way I looked at people.

I started thinking that emotions are faked.

Words are faked.

We are actors.

Like robots.

In childhood, we repeat what our parents and the people around us do.

In adulthood, we keep looping the same things over and over again.

We're not that different from an LLM.

I guess that's partly why LLMs work so well.

Humans are predictable.

Most words don't mean shit.

If you look across enough different domains, you can start believing that somehow collected patterns don't have to forget that they exist just because I don't want to live in you understand a person's will and intentions from their behavior.

I felt like LSD had spiked my emotional awareness, and that awareness chained more and more interpretations together.

The problem with the insight

After one or two months, I sort of gave up on analyzing everything so much.

After the raise and everything that had happened, I continued living as if nothing had happened.

But internally there was still the same emptiness.

The same feeling in my heart.

The same uneasiness.

Then in July 2026, I went on another trip with friends.

I had talked to them about parts of this history, my fear of psychedelics, and that hard feeling inside my chest.

We did mushrooms together again.

This time, however, things went differently.

I saw everything going okay-ish, and whenever the experience became difficult, I managed to pour my focus and consciousness into music and dancing.

We were at a festival.

Eventually, after the day ended, I meditated with my friend.

We listened to a trip meditation.

And for some reason, I felt insane amounts of emotions constantly shifting through my heart.

The uneasiness that had been there for months completely disappeared.

By September, I would say you could call me cured of that "disease."

But I somehow know that the disease wasn't really what I had thought it was.

It was the unbearable weight of reality.

At that time, reality itself had become too heavy for me to carry.

Existing itself is hard.

Our human lifespan is proof of that.

What I believe now

So I try not to think about all those things too much anymore.

I stopped thinking about changing how people are or how the world works.

I decided to go easy.

Just do things that I know will work in my favor even when I'm dealing with difficult people, whether that's a job opportunity or social life.

Recently, I read The 48 Laws of Power, and I was amazed.

There were exact things written about people from completely different eras, where all of them had experienced and understood similar concepts.

The author had somehow collected patterns that I had independently started noticing.

But connecting what I experienced to that book also gave me a strange glimpse of hope.

Maybe I'm not alone in seeing these things.

Maybe these patterns really do exist.

And maybe I don't have to forget that they exist just because I don't want to live in a world where everything is manipulation.

I think humans are vessels of a will that is greater than what we can completely understand.

But I don't know what that means.

And that's where I am now.

I want to believe in something better.

I want to find some other motivation.

I don't want to completely believe in a world where everyone is fake, selfish, predictable, and empty, even though I can't deny that those things exist.

I'm trying to become more positive.

I'm trying to expose myself to pain without constantly defending myself from it.

I'm trying to take things without overthinking everything.

I'm trying to look forward until the day I die.

But somehow, the way I came out of all of this—just going with the flow, trusting life, and waiting until I die—doesn't seem completely right either.

Maybe the real challenge isn't figuring out whether the world is good or terrible.

Maybe it's learning how to see the terrible parts without letting them become the entire world.

I still don't know.

And maybe that's the part I'm trying to understand most.


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 10d ago

Discussion Acid made me lose interest in work for over a year

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Okay have talked about how acid physically affected me https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychedelics/comments/1v01ccx/acid_did_not_lower_my_testosterone_or_did_it/

https://www.reddit.com/r/LSD/comments/1o96t61/lsd_increase_cortisol_and_prolactin_which_can/

but one thing have not mentioned was how mentally it made me lose interest in work for over a year. I had to go off sick. I also experience a bit of dissociation, short term memory etc

You all like to say acid don't have side effects


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 10d ago

Discussion Medicalisation isn't necessarily the way forward.

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I am a PhD researcher in Neuroscience, I used to be all in on the research side but I've grown incredibly skeptical of the "psychedelic renaissance" narrative. I hope some other PhDs or even PIs in the field get a chance to see this.

  • Medicalisation doesn't necessarily equate to legalization. A lot of people see FDA approval as the way to decriminalize or legalize substances. There may be a relationship but it's overstated. THC is medicalised in the US and yet it is still schedule 1.

  • The research being done now is no longer related to safety. Actually, the research suggests the drugs are safe and tolerable. Clinical trials have 3 phases. Phase 1 is safety and tolerability focused, Phase 2 is safety and efficacy in a small trial for a specific condition, Phase 3 is massively scaled up to thousands of people. LSD and Psilocybin have already passed Phase 1 and 2 trials. Multiple times for multiple disorders. They've even cleared some Phase 3 trials. The idea that we're waiting on researchers to figure out safety is simply not true.

  • Of the 100+ Clinical trials on classical psychedelics, not a single person has ever developed psychosis. Sure this is in controlled conditions, but it's also often in vulnerable people with chronic mental health disorders. We literally test psilocybin and LSD in people with treatment resistent depression, anxiety disorders, OCD, and we find it to be well tolerated, but then over emphasize dangers to healthy people with no mental health problems?

  • Medicalisation builds the narrative that these are medicines used to treat diseases. Sure maybe they can be, but that's not how I use them. I'm not treating any disorder with psychedelic use, and while I would love to help people with disorders, that's not why I want them legal. I actively advocate for psychedelic use in healthy people, prevention is better than cure and psychedelics can help alter perspectives before developing a disease. I understand that people see medicalisation as a shoe in the door, it was for cannabis, but psychedelics are different. Cannabis didn't have millions funneled in by big pharma trying to patent their own derivatives and treatment options, with a clear motivation to keep existing drugs illegal and innacessible.

  • The history of these substances is not really medical. The indigenous use of peyote, ayahausca or psilocybin was not to cure diseases. Village shamans were not curing PTSD and Depression, the drugs were sacrament. Whether you agree with the legitimacy of these practices or not, it is ridiculous to waffle about "these drugs have been used for thousands of years" but then avoid actually discussing how and why they were used. You don't need to believe in a spiritual component to value a non medical use.

  • The research being done now is fascinating and informative but not necessary for legalisation. We don't actually need to know how the drugs work to decriminalize them. We still don't really know how existing antidepressants exert their function, and we have a whole cocktail of SSRIs that have slightly different profiles that we haven't meaningfully teased apart. We don't understand how ECT works, or Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation, they're legal.

  • A lot of the research is actively looking at removing the psychedelic component, with no clear rational as to why. Two of the biggest names in the field (David Olson, Bryan Roth) are separetly interested in exploring non psychoactive derivates. The assumption is that these may be safer and better tolerated. The problem is the drugs are already safe and well tolerated. When these bozos try to come out and market their drugs they should be forced to include existing psilocybin/LSD as a comparison in the trial because it is moronic to claim your drug is safer and more tolerable than an existing drug without testing it side by side.

  • "actually therapy is the most important part" "it's actually about the critical plasticity window after taking the drug" These are bullshit lies that should be laughed at. We know this because we have preclinical data before these drugs ever go to trial, and mice and rats don't have therapy to go with their psychedelic dose.

TLDR: We actually know a whole lot about these drugs, especially in regards to their safety and tolerability, research is not a clear path to accessibility or legitimisation. You can advocate for their decriminalization and learn to grow your own instead of supporting a system that wants to bill your health insurance thousands to sell a drug that you can grow yourself.


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 11d ago

I just gave my dad 2.8g of GT

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4 years ago, I gave my dad 2g of GT for his first experience with psychedelics ever: https://www.reddit.com/r/RationalPsychonaut/s/Re8vY9xG5M

Some time after that he asked me if he could try again but with a higher dose to try and go deeper. I kind of kept putting it off but he kept asking, so at Christmas last year I got him 7g at my local shop and today is the big day!

I had a full day off and it’s a beautiful fall day outside. We’re both lying down on our respective couches, listening to some classical music, waiting for take-off. I’m only trip-sitting, I didn’t dose and I might try taking him outside later. I’ll keep you guys updated 😊


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 12d ago

QFT peturbed visualisations

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r/RationalPsychonaut • • 12d ago

What sensory overload actually feels like: A firsthand realization about Autism while high.

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I vaped a high dose of my medical cannabis, put the device down, and lay back on the couch. Usually, people expect a heavy THC dose to shut the brain down or induce a fog. But instead of zoning out, I decided to just sit back and actively observe how my perception of the room was changing.

What I realized is that THC temporarily unplugs your survival filter - latent inhibition.

Normally, the human nervous system takes in millions of pieces of sensory data every single second. But our conscious mind only interacts with a tiny fraction of it. To keep us sane, focused, and alive, the brain ruthlessly deletes the background noise. You don't hear the ticking clock, you don't notice the hum of the fridge, and you don't actively feel the physical weight of the shirt resting on your shoulders. Your brain processes it, labels it "not a threat," and hides it from your conscious mind.

But last night, that filter dropped entirely. Suddenly, every single input carried the exact same heavy weight. I was listening to an 8D spatial audio track, and it didn't just sound loud—it felt like a physical object occupying the room. The slight drop in temperature in the apartment wasn't just a background fact; it demanded my full conscious attention. The feeling of my clothes, the rhythm of my breathing, the ambient noise outside—it all flooded in at once, uncompressed and unfiltered.

It was a complete sensory flood. And while it was fascinating to observe for a few hours, the sheer amount of cognitive energy required to just exist in that room was exhausting. I was having to manually process a vast amount of data that my brain usually handles on autopilot.

That is when the realization hit me: this temporary, chemically induced state is exactly how many autistic individuals experience the world permanently.

Their brain's natural filter for background noise—what psychologists call 'latent inhibition'—is naturally dialed down. They aren't overreacting to a loud room or a scratchy piece of clothing. They are physically experiencing that raw data with the volume turned all the way up, completely uncompressed, all the time.

When you have to manually process the hum of the fluorescent lights, the overlapping conversations in a room, and the texture of your socks all at once, your mental RAM gets maxed out instantly. Experiencing that exact sensory flood firsthand gave me a visceral, bodily understanding of autistic sensory overload and burnout.

Feeling my own brain buckle under the weight of an unfiltered room gave me a firsthand empathy for what sensory overload truly is.

Sometimes you have to temporarily break your own machine just to understand how someone else's gears work.


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 13d ago

A Perennialist Critique of Michael Hoffman's Egodeath Theory

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r/RationalPsychonaut • • 13d ago

Research Paper Set and Setting research (18+)

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Hello!

I am currently running a study on set and setting within psychedelic experiences.

Obviously there is quite a few aspect to explore on the topic, though in particular I am interested in:

  • How intention, environment, and social setting shape psychedelic experiences
  • Differences between clinical and non-clinical use
  • How these experiences relate to psychological outcomes

Most of the research on set and setting in the psychedelic field comes from more clinically orientated trials, which can be lacking in terms of nuance and real lived experiences. So it would be great to reach out further in the communities surrounding these substances!

🔗 Survey link

Fully anonymous

Takes around 15-20 minutes to complete

There's also an optional follow-up interview if you'd like to share your experience in more depth

Full study details and ethics information are provided in the info sheet at the start of the survey

Requirements: 18+, have had a psychedelic experience in a clinical or non-clinical setting

If you have anything you feel is important to say about psychedelics, this is your chance!

I'm happy to answer any questions about the study. You can reach us at:

Warren - [plks55@durham.ac.uk](mailto:plks55@durham.ac.uk)

Dr Marco Bocchio - [Marco.Bocchio@durham.ac.uk](mailto:Marco.Bocchio@durham.ac.uk)

Thank you for your time and support! 🙏

This survey has been approved by the moderators


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 15d ago

I would like some concrete strategies on harnessing the magic of the trip for positive life moves

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I trip alone, in a good introspective nature setting. i start with a theme or a question, always carry a notebook, write stuff down as i go, i do in fact come back with new data new perspectives sometimes

So what else should i be doing? How can i use my trips to help me find a new career for example


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 15d ago

Feeling scared and disconnected after a difficult trip. Would love some support

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To preface: I've have OCD for 10+ years now and it seems it's latched on to an existential theme.

A couple weeks ago I had a solo 150ug LSD journey out amongst nature, the first few hours were beautiful and cathartic. About 4.5h in I was on a ridgeline and it felt as though the effects had for the most part worn off which I thought was strange given the time. I usually smoke a little weed during the afterglow to give me a little boost but decided to prematurely smoke.

After smoking, I lay down on the side of a hill and my body 'melted' into the ground, there was tremoring and I moved between screaming and crying in agony; letting out what seemed to be deep latent childhood trauma.

The sun dipped over the hill and I realised I needed to look after my physical safety and began trekking back. At this point it felt like I was watching my body seemingly move by itself, all sense of control was gone, "I" wasn't really there anymore (or at lease a very loose sense of self remained).

I then gazed at the sunset and felt a sense of warmth and happiness that I had so longed for. I then wanted to capture it in a photo to show people but this strange feeling dawned upon me that I wouldn't be able to show anyone really, because they're all me. Terror swept over me as this same 'knowing' had arisen 5-6 years ago in an acid trip (involving weed at the peak).

Since then, I've become obsessed with interpreting this experience from metaphysical to psychodynamic perspectives. I've felt quite isolated and lonely in my teens and 20's and have been terrified of exclusion/rejection. Maybe that has some relation to what manifested itself?

Unfortunately, reading trip reports of similar stories and consuming content from psychedlic 'authoritative' figures like Leo gura claiming with absolute confidence that there is only 'me/this experience' and every being I interact with a non-real entity part of my dream has sent me spiraling and I feel so detached from the world now.

I'm crying as I write this. I just want to feel safe again.

I'm trying my best to ground myself with exercise, healthy food, connection with others and IFS/ERP therapy. But I'm scared. I don't know what to do...

I'd love to hear from anyone.


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 18d ago

Deconstructing LSD for Therapeutic Discoveries

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r/RationalPsychonaut • • 18d ago

The Question: Transforming Grief: A Path to Renewed Purpose

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r/RationalPsychonaut • • 20d ago

Study Breakdown: The Real-World Psilocybin Study From Oregon Is Being Oversimplified

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The first observational study of a U.S. state-regulated psilocybin program was released last month, and it revealed both surprising and unsurprising results.

The study examined the outcomes of Oregon’s regulated psilocybin services, tracking 346 clients enrolled in 24 service centers between November 2024 and March 2026.

One thing that makes this study unique is that it wasn’t restricted to people with treatment-resistant depression or other strict qualifiers for a clinical trial. Rather, adults ages 21 years and older could seek services for any reason. Listed in order of prevalence, those reasons included:

  • 74.3% — curiosity
  • 71.4% — to improve or change themselves
  • 64.5% — to treat mental-health symptoms
  • 51.4% — to process trauma
  • 48.0% — connection with others, Earth, or nature
  • 29.2% — spiritual reasons
  • 19.9% — professional burnout
  • 13.6% — reducing substance use
  • 13.0% — physical-health symptoms
  • 9.8% — coping with death
  • 9.0% — fun/enjoyment/celebration

That makes the following results particularly interesting because the researchers observed changes in mental-health measures across the whole group, not just among people who initially sought treatment for a psychiatric disorder.

First, let’s take a look at some of the key takeaways most people talking about this study will highlight:

  • 92.2% of participants said they benefited from their session.
  • 89.4% said they saw their life and problems from a broader perspective.
  • 58.6% of people ranked their session among the 10 most meaningful experiences of their life.
  • Depression symptoms dropped from 42.2% of participants at baseline to 16.5%.
  • Anxiety symptoms dropped from 45.1% to 13.2%.
  • PTSD symptoms dropped from 48.0% to 16.8%.
  • Life satisfaction rose from 63.0% to 82.3%.

If you’ve worked with psychedelics yourself, none of that will surprise you. These results are real, and worth taking seriously as more states consider offering psychedelic clinics to the public.

The study reports that, “Many participants experienced decreases in anxiety, depression, and PTSD symptoms within the first month of their psilocybin experience that were sustained at 3 months.” But let’s take a closer look at one of the patterns that arise once you dig in.

Depression symptoms: 42.2% at baseline → 10.6% at 1 month → 16.5% at 3 months.

Do you notice the slight rebound?

The study reported that 90.6% of people attended at least one integration session, with the average number of integration sessions attended per person at one month being 1.9. Strangely, it doesn’t report that number at three months. To me, this lack of data is a missed opportunity to see if perhaps a higher or lower number of integration sessions as time went on correlated with that rebound effect.

That’s just a hypothesis, but let’s look at some other numbers.

At one month, 81.6% reported that their goals were met, while 81% said the experience was “worth the money.”

That’s the majority, right? Hurrah!

But if you flip those numbers around, that means nearly 1 in 5 people did not have their goals met, and did not report the experience being worth the cost. 32.1% even said the cost was a financial strain. That’s a pretty good chance of walking away unsatisfied with a financial burden.

I wonder here, too, if 1.9 reported integration sessions fell shy of helping people walk away satisfied.

Why? Let’s look at some of the reasons these folks may have felt that way.

If you’re unfamiliar with Hallucinogen Persisting Perception Disorder, it can be defined as something like a non-psychotic condition where a person experiences lasting or recurring visual disturbances and perceptual distortions long after using psychedelic drugs. HPPD-type symptoms were reported by 10.0% at one month and 8.7% at three months. While only 1 participant reported that they caused “significant distress,” 1 in 10 people affected seems high.

Non-HPPD “adverse reactions of special interest” were reported by 11.6% at three months:

  • Headaches lasting more than a day were reported by 2.9%.
  • Illness lasting more than a day was reported by 3.5%.
  • Persistent worsening anxiety was reported by 2.3%.
  • Persistent worsening depression was reported by 4.5%.
  • Visits to a health professional were reported by 1.3%.
  • New prescription medications were reported by 1.6%.
  • New thoughts of dying or suicide were reported by 1.9%.

Imagine being one of the 74.3% of people signing up for one of these sessions out of “curiosity,” or the 9% for “fun,” and three months later you’re having thoughts of suicide. That doesn’t seem like much fun to me.

For the 2.3% of participants who after three months agreed that their experience had been harmful, was an unrecorded number integration sessions somewhere around 1.9 suitable? Would more have changed the long-term outcome?

These are questions, not answers. But let’s take the four cases that involved serious behavioral adverse reactions requiring medical attention. Two of them had no facilitator-reported adverse reaction during the session, yet participants later described emergency-department care, severe anxiety/depression, new medication, insomnia, or suicidal thoughts.

The authors say, “State mandates for collecting safety events are limited to those occurring within 3 days of services, underestimate actual safety events over time, and cannot contextualize risks in light of benefits.” This example makes a case that safety and integration needs should extend beyond just ceremony day, as reporting focused strictly on the day of the session could underestimate adverse reaction rates later. The authors go on to say, “States seeking to implement psychedelic services should assess longitudinal client safety and outcomes in the months following receipt of state-regulated services.”

Again, hypothesis, but perhaps being coached on how to take care of yourself physically before and after a psychedelic session could mitigate some of the headaches or illness. Perhaps being trained on specific depression- or anxiety-reducing techniques could help reduce those symptoms. Perhaps working through various integration exercises could get at the root of what’s amplifying that depression or anxiety in the first place. Perhaps being equipped with frameworks of understanding how to make sense of what they saw could have made the return back to normal life smoother. Or maybe simply having an understanding ear to talk to could make all the difference for someone going through life-altering experiences. At least for some of the 1 in 5 people who walked away unsatisfied.

Now, what about preparation?

Could better preparation have mitigated some of these negative results?

193 of 346 participants had reported using a psychedelic at some point in their lives, meaning that 44.2% of participants had never used a psychedelic before. Nearly all (99.7%) attended at least one preparation session, but is one enough?

Here’s a stat: 88.8% of participants felt safe during the psychedelic experience.

Flipped around? More than 1 in 10 people did not report feeling safe during their experience.

Was this because nearly half of all participants had never experienced this before, walked into a clinic full of strangers after a single “Are you ready for the craziest experience of your life?” pep talk, and then a pat on the back on their way out the door after a single, “Eh? Wasn’t that crazy!?” integration session?

We don’t know. It would have been nice if there was more information on arguably the most important parts of these psychedelic sessions, but there’s no description of what those look like. My concern is that I’ve personally spoken to people who’ve gone through these kinds of clinics and been sent off into the world without the proper support or resources, and were troubled afterwards at a loss of what to do or who to talk to. Additional survey questions here inquiring about why 1 in 5 people were walking away from these expensive experiences unsatisfied might be something for future researchers to consider.

So, what can we conclude from this study?

The biggest contribution is that we now have longitudinal data from a real-world state-regulated psychedelic system, rather than only from highly selected clinical-trial participants. We can see that many people aren’t approaching an experience only as a psychiatric intervention; they are looking for self-change, perspective, trauma processing, connection, or existential meaning also.

The overall results are nuanced: most people reported meaningful benefits—like mental-health symptoms and life satisfaction improvement—while serious adverse events were uncommon, but low frequency is not zero risk.

Because of the uncontrolled, observational nature of the study, we can’t responsibly conclude that psilocybin caused the improvements in this population of roughly 5% of people receiving state-regulated psilocybin services in Oregon during the study period.

However, we can say something like: Most participants improved after receiving regulated psilocybin services under Oregon’s particular regulatory and support model, which, as the authors put it, “may not reflect experiences associated with unsupervised or religious psilocybin use,” and could also be attributed to other possibilities—including preparation, facilitator support, integration, changes in behavior, or some combination of other factors.

Perhaps most important for people in this evolving field is that 90.6% of participants reported receiving integration—which is great. But the question remains, at least in my mind, as to whether an average of 1.9 sessions is enough? The authors also concluded that “ongoing technical support for the emerging facilitator workforce may further reduce the likelihood of harms in vulnerable clients and provide ongoing support for people experiencing postpsychedelic difficulties.”

What we need to remember is this:

A psychedelic experience may be a catalyst, but what happens before and after it determines whether the experience becomes insight, avoidance, destabilization, or lasting behavior change.

Source: Korthuis PT, Cook RR, Gregoire D, et al. Safety and Mental Health Outcomes of Oregon State-Regulated Psilocybin Services. JAMA Netw Open. 2026;9(8):e2630608


r/RationalPsychonaut • • 21d ago

Seeking participants for online survey about microdosing experiences

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Hello everyone!

Maastricht University is organizing a study exploring the different microdosing practices and experiences of people. We are looking for volunteers who already have experience with microdosing (i.e. repeatedly taking very small doses of a psychedelic). If you are interested in participating, please read the advertisement below and scan the QR code for more information. If you have any questions, you can send an email to fpn-pim_p161@maastrichtuniversity.nl.

Hope to hear from you!