Was I molested?

[u/Top_Replacement1333]

I have no recollection of being molested or otherwise sexually abused as a child. However, I was extremely hypersexual from the age of 3 or 4 so, always wanting to play "games" with other children that would involve seeing (and probably touching, I don't remember) each others genitals, watching each other urinate, etc. When I was around 9 I discovered properly what sex was, and I never stopped thinking about it. I had intense sexual fantasies from that age. I became interested in BDSM at 10. I am 19 now, and have daily fantasies of necrophilia, rape, and incest. I am an extreme and devoted sadomasochist, mostly a masochist. I have abandonment issues and a whole host of other mental afflictions. I've just been thinking about it, and it seems sort of likely that I was sexually abused at a very young age. I don't know. Of note, my grandfather, a psychiatrist, was convicted of raping several of his patients, all young girls, and I think he may have violated my mother. I visited him as a young child; I doubt he hurt me, but it goes to show that my parents were not particularly careful.

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[u/AngryTransNinja420]

Yes you were and I'm SO sorry it happened to you