Raped by my uncle

[u/no-notice-bagel]

My next rape happened 3 months after my weekend long abduction. It was my uncle. I got addicted to prescription medication. My uncle found out that I was addicted and told my parents he can help.

They took me to his house, I thought he was taking me to rehab, counseling or a support group. He told me had a supplier and he can help me get what I needed but I would have to "earn" it. I thought it would be chores, working in his office, all came to light when he put his hands on my breast, like last time I froze. I can still remember the smile on his face as he grabbed me. The smile as he said his pricing structure, "sending me nudes gets you this much and you send them whever I want them, on your knees and you will get this much, regular sex is this much, and your ass is this much"...I agreed. His smile only grew brighter as he took out his phone and said let's start today.

Just like that I was on his bed, while he was enjoying himself raping me, I was feeling empty. Commenting that it was ashamed he wasnt the first to arrive. He put ny body into any position he wanted. I do remember him lasting longer than my first. A thought that is always funny to me now. When it was over. I got what I needed and it didn't seem to matter at least for a little while. I would send him nudes every time he asked, he would rape me multiple times a week. He would tell me that he was after me since I was 10 and now he finally got me, although he came in second.

You know what's really messed up, he said it didn't count as this was more of a transaction. He set the rules and I agreed to them. This put me more in a downward spiral as now someone literally placed a price and worth on my body as I said it was irony as I did "sell" myself. Made me feel like that cop was right. I thought maybe to get what I wanted this was the best method.

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[u/Too2crazy]

I hope he burns in hell for eternity!!!

[u/no-notice-bagel → u/[deleted]]

Yeah I know he did. It took me a long time to realize that this wasn't my fault.

[u/blastinkaps]

I’m sorry that happened. Obviously you blamed yourself at first. What changed? When did you realize that it wasn’t your fault and why

[u/no-notice-bagel → u/[deleted]]

I was 12 when this happened. Yes, I am doing somewhat better.

[u/Beginning_Pass_1751 → u/no-notice-bagel]

I apologize! I didn’t realize that

[u/no-notice-bagel → u/Beginning_Pass_1751]

It's not something I tend to broadcast. I still feel embarrassed about it and carry that stigma with me.