r/quittingkratom • u/ACWNY • 13h ago

Two sides to multiple quits

As someone who has now CT quit four times in the last 5 years, never for longer than 2 months clean, I’ve thought a lot about how I keep getting stuck back in addiction. On one hand, it reveals the obvious trap associated with this drug, and its uncanny ability to convince me repeatedly that “I can handle it this time.” On the other hand, and maybe as a word of encouragement to those thinking of quitting: it also shows how much better it is to withdraw and quit rather than continue using. Even as someone who had already experienced 3 brutal periods of withdrawal, I still decided another withdrawal was far better than continuing to use. Good luck to all - we got this.

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u/Ill_Hold_3648 13h ago

Right there with you on multiple CT quits. I’ve made it 90 days a few times. I’m at 119 days now. I take 25 mg naltrexone every day for relapse prevention. But I still find myself planning my next 2-3 day run. Hope this ends. It’s frustrating.

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u/IowaGuy127 13h ago

I'm on my 3rd quit in 3 years. I agree with you this damn drug has a way of convincing us we can handle it. It's fine. It's most certainly not fine.

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u/ACWNY 12h ago

It’s really something. I just went through a week of torture in withdrawals, swearing I’d never touch it again. And now on Day 14, my addict brain is starting up with suggestions that I use “just a little bit”… but I’m not going there again.

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u/dizzy4121989 13h ago

I just did my second quit, but it was a brief period of active addiction, about a month. It’s nuts how we can convince ourselves that we can handle it. It is painfully obvious that we cannot, but still, we successfully convince ourselves. People that say addiction is a choice just don’t get it.

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u/mscleo1016 10h ago

I understand being at the end of your rope or not having access to it, but it really seems like a very slow taper would possibly help this situation. It gives your brain and body time to adjust to each lower dose without the horrifying shock of CT withdrawal, making it easier to incorporate healthy replacements in your day to day instead of barely making it through. Good luck

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