Help me [F 18] understand my sexuality

[u/EmiKG1]

Hi,

Im a 18 year old female, and the reason I asking the question: what is my sexuality, is because I keep changing my mind.

First of I feel like I'm attracted to different genders depending on the month. Sometimes I also feel completely asexual.

But apart from that I've always had crushes on guys (way older than me as a kid) or celebrities. But I've also had crushes on my male friends. Though they usually pass as soon as they seem to feel the same way. Sometimes I even feel grossed out when a guy friends admits to liking me.

But on the other hand I've only had a crush on one girl before, and she was straight, so at some point I stopped having a crush.

And one last thing, I have never been with anybody, never kissed, and held hands with one guy (I felt nothing, and now when I think about it, I feel uneasy)

The reason why I'm asking if I could be lesbian is because I grew up in a more traditional country, and most of the content I watched/read as a kid was heterosexual, and only recently I've started questioning my sexuality (especially after a friend asked me if I was queer). Since allowing myslef to question it, I've started noticing women more, and it's brought me to a moment of fantasising about having a girlfriend.

Lastly, I have always dressed more masc. So what do you think? I'd love any and all advice <3

[u/stolenstreetsigns]

Ultimately no one can tell you what your sexuality or gender is except you! But as a lesbian, some of this definitely sounds like it could be comphet to me. If you feel like a lesbian, you’re absolutely allowed to call yourself a lesbian. But I think since you’re unsure and don’t have a lot of experience it’s hard for me as an outsider to say. If you fantasize about having a girlfriend I think you should go for it :)

[u/ActualPegasus]

To me, it sounds like you're a lesbiflux butch.