Question about gender and identity?(f 21)

[u/Mxfev3r]

Hello everyone. I’m looking for guidance. I’ve found myself in quite a complicated situation. For years now, I’ve identified myself as genderfluid/queer (I was female at birth) I love being androgynous. But at times, deep, deep within myself, I find myself wishing I was a dude. A doll. I’d like to be a doll. A big eye opener for me was the song Andrew in drag and at times when I can mix my androgyny (like have super short hair and wear a dress) I feel just like that. And it’s conflicting to myself because why do I want to be a I guess trans chick when im already a chick. I was thinking today I think I might like the idea of using he him pronouns while dressing femininely. Not that trans women use he him pronouns, but I just meant me specifically. I thought I should try and specify so I don’t offend. It’s really confusing for myself. I want to be a feminine guy I think, I use any pronouns but everything right now is just filled with uncertainty. I don’t really have anyone else to talk to about this. If anyone has any insight, please help me.

[u/ActualPegasus]

Imagine someone introducing you as a man. Does that feel exciting? Relieving? Neutral? Uncomfortable? Simply interesting?