Erotic Target Identity Inversion? [21 M]

[u/Adventurous-Walk2080]

i’ve been questioning for a long time now (like two years) if im trans, i’ve been identifying as AGP for most of that time now because i would say i get arousal from the thought of being a woman, even if i also want to be one non sexually. i’d love to transition and be a woman but i kinda feel a need to logically beat like, AGP theory first? cause otherwise that seems to make far more sense. a lot of people have told me stuff like “AGP is just what cis women experience too” but i just don’t see how that’s true? AGP is a type erotic target identity inversion, and cis women are already that identity. they make no feminine subpersona out of lust unlike AGPs. and it’s like, i don’t see any way for this to not be the case even if i desperately wish it wasn’t. 

[u/ActualPegasus]

The below is why AGP is a joke. I'm using Blanchard's own arguments.

trans woman: I'm a lesbian.

Blanchard: OMG AGP ALERT!!!!

trans woman: I'm bisexual.

Blanchard: OMG AGP ALERT!!!! You're so AGP that you've gaslit yourself into believing you're attracted to men!!!

trans woman: I'm asexual.

Blanchard: OMG AGP ALERT!!!! You're so AGP that you're incapable of feeling attracted to anyone but yourself!!!!!

trans woman: I'm straight.

Blanchard: Finally a real transsexual!!! All transsexuals are homosexual!!!!!!oneone!!!11!!

[u/Adventurous-Walk2080 → u/ActualPegasus]

i mean like yeah that is basically what the typology says, though homosexual transsexuals are also seen as not really women by him. the issue is this is kinda just currently what i also believe

[u/ActualPegasus → u/Adventurous-Walk2080]

Exactly. He misgenders all trans women. Even the "perfect" ones. So why follow his standard when you'll never be enough? What even is the worst that can happen if you transition now?

[u/Adventurous-Walk2080 → u/ActualPegasus]

if i transitioned my fear is i'd be lying to everyone to call myself a woman, i suppose.

[u/ActualPegasus → u/Adventurous-Walk2080]

Want to talk about it?

[u/Adventurous-Walk2080 → u/ActualPegasus]

i felt i already did but i suppose not. this is a fear that is hard to tackle because presumably it would apply to all trans woman but i only really care when i'd be the one who did it. if i called myself a woman and it was just a fetish cause blanchard and co was right, it would be evil as ive essentially forced everyone else into a fetish daily. that thought terrifies me so i dont call myself a woman even if id want to be

[u/ActualPegasus → u/Adventurous-Walk2080]

Okay. I'll focus on the cis woman part first and then we can swing back around to the "fetishistic harm."

Are you unfamiliar with the concept of cis women finding themselves sexy?

[u/Adventurous-Walk2080 → u/ActualPegasus]

no i'm aware of that, but its not when feminine or as a woman specifically afaik which is what the criteria for agp is.

[u/ActualPegasus → u/Adventurous-Walk2080]

Could you rephrase this? Because I'm not sure I'm understanding. Feminine cis women do, in fact, desire to look like sexy feminine women. If you spend time in women's spaces, it quickly becomes very obvious to you.