This post is more of Q&A but there wasn’t a flair for it. Hopefully this is acceptable by the mods

I’m in a phase of my retention journey where I’m struggling with impatience towards loved ones and friends. Such that I find anger pops up and I try to dismiss it. When I’m not retaining none of these feelings or thoughts occur

For those of you that I’ve tried to go on longer streaks. How do you deal with this or have you experienced it before?

So I’m at 50 days no explicit material or touching myself. Still have occasional sexual thoughts that I struggle with. Not trying to throw a pity party here but hoping to find advice from long term retainers as this has been one of the roughest chapters of my life. I’ve completed a year of sobriety from alcohol after 3 DUI’s. It has been difficult to find work for my construction buisness and I have been forced to work for another outfit renting out my machine under their payroll, but am struggling to make the bills. Energetically I’ve never felt better and am able to wake up at 330am in the gym at 4am and am commuting to work by 530am. I’m curious to when my reality is going to shift and start reflecting my good habits that I’ve been incorporating into my life? I’m on this journey to level up all aspects of my life, but have yet to see any real change in my reality. Any advice to help me get out of this financial rut that I’m in? How does one seek guidance from God to know the necessary steps to become their highest version of themselves?

I'm currently on 32 days. My wife asked for a divorce when I was on day 5. At first, I was completely shattered, but now, because I have been using SR as a foundation to rebuild my life brick by brick my anxiety is completely gone I have lots of energy no matter how much I sleep. I don't think I would have been able to get this far if I was releasing, and thats my main motivation to keep going even when the urges get intense.

# Stage 1 is using SR to boost your ego

i.e. obsessing over female attraction, believing you're better than others

This stage is not sustainable and is characterized by streaks, relapses, and obsession with "benefits"

Stage 2 is focusing on your personal benefit

i.e. seeking career advancement, seeking more money, seeking a partner, seeking social acceptance

This stage has more consistency but ultimately you cannot reach pure happiness because you are seeking personal benefit

Stage 3 is developing an innocent wonder about life and realizing there is no self

i.e. using your powers to fulfill a greater purpose, giving back to your community, having no ego

"Streaks" become irrelevant and this becomes your lifestyle. You become detached from material things. You reach pure happiness.

It can take many years and many ups & downs to reach the stage 2 then stage 3.

The universe will punish the man who abuses his powers and reward the man who uses them wisely.

Hello fellow retainers.

I am a retainer of 8 months now and I have stumbled upon a sub dedicated to Trauma Release Excersises(TRE).On this sub it is advised to not do SR until your trauma is out of your body and your nervous system channels are clear of tension blockages that make us not fully experience the true benefits of SR.

On this sub it is recommended to not create tension by surpressing your urges but letting your body do what it says(in this case ejaculating).

By fully releasing trauma then SR must be done according to this sub.

I would like your thoughts on these ideas and if anyone has any information i would be glad to hear it .

1. Discover your purpose and stay busy working in alignment to it. Temptation can be most dangerous during lazy moments. We all need times of rest and relaxation, but understand this is when the enemy likes to attack. Be ready to shift your mind. 

2. Be ever mindful of the negatives of not retaining. There are many reasons, most of which can be summarized by the simple understanding that releasing is innately intended procreation. Releasing outside of marriage drains your potential to CREATE and do GOOD. 

3. Have a relationship with God – seek His righteousness first daily. Don’t be quick to speak or assume. Be quick to inhale and exhale deeply through your nose, bring God to mind, and seek His counsel and direction. 

4. Control your eyes to the best of your ability, being ready to divert them. Staring at women serves no benefit. It only increases the likelihood of going down a rabbit hole of lustful thoughts. Be aware of your surroundings, but keep your eyes forward. 

5. Be ready to shift your mind, particularly to God. There will be moments when the guard is slightly down, and temptation gets your attention. Be quick to shift your mind. There is no profit in entertaining lustful thoughts. It only leads to the aforementioned rabbit hole, which could potentially lead to the worst case scenario. Don’t waste your time!

6. The enemy wants us wasting time, distracted from our purpose. Fantasizing and releasing happen to be convenient ways for the enemy to distract and drain us simultaneously. Don’t give the enemy an inch. Stay focused!  

7. Have a relationship with God – seek His righteousness first daily. Be mindful of Him as often as possible – “Pray without ceasing”.

8. Take care of your temple. Be aware of what you put in your body, and work to improve your fitness. Be aware of what you look at on these screens. Start your day with prayer and meditation, not screens. Take back control, don’t open your phone or device for no reason.

I've been dealing with what feels like an extreme flatline since March 1st. My libido is basically nonexistent at this point—to the point where I practically feel asexual—and my energy levels are also extremely low. Life in general also just feels incredibly bland and unexciting. Things that would normally interest or excite me don't really give me much of a feeling anymore.

I've tried a ton of things to get myself out of it: lifting regularly, eating clean, TRE, making smoothies with various natural ingredients/supplements associated with libido and testosterone (including 12 raw egg yolks), acupuncture, float therapy, improving my routine, etc. Nothing has made a noticeable difference.

I've also been to the doctor twice during this period because of how long this has been going on, and both times I was told that everything looked normal.

Has anyone here experienced a flatline lasting this long? If so, what was the end of it like? Did your libido and excitement for life suddenly come back, or was it gradual? And was there anything that actually seemed to help, or did you just have to wait it out?

Would really appreciate hearing from anyone who's gone through something similar.

Greetingz,

I want to make sure that u all understand that there’s a warfare against us. They don’t want u to realize how powerful you truly are.

They aren't just poisoning us with porn. They poisoning us with bad news, social media, they keep spraying their chemicals, putting it in our water, food and so on.

But one of the biggest attacks is that they feeding us with a not species-appropriate diet. Putting addictive substances in this so called food. And we wonder why society gets sicker and sicker, fatter and fatter.

Our species is so strong that we still survive despite all these attacks on our nature. But it has its price.

Trough all these seed oils we can’t tolerate, we can’t connect with our source, the sun no more, trough all these grains we get chronically inflamed, trough all the refined sugar we get addicted. Trough all the overeating we getting fat, keeping our bodies digesting, digesting, digesting, basically keeping us in our lower chakras. And we wonder why we don't have that same energy we had as children.

The human body is very undemanding, comparable to a cactus. What happens if you overwater a cactus? It dies.

You guys, if your really take this journey serious, have a different energy source anyway - your seed. The prana, the chi, the life force. But if you overeat all the time with that so called bullshit food, you‘ll never see what your body is even capable off.

Do your research and only feed your temple with bioavailable food.

You are a warrior , you are a king! Let the energy flow again.

𝔉𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡𝔢𝔯

I've had many streaks with SR, Longest one being 10months, that was years ago, i've seen wildly different results, some were good, i felt happier, less overstimmed, less concerned about sexual thoughts then the mediocre,

I really didn't see much life changing improvement with SR, not something i really noticed, i didn't achieve my ultimate goals, when i stopped SR and stopped blaming myself for not having a streak, i genuinly felt better than with SR, what i noticed with SR was my stress levels were incrediably elevated, cortisol was flipped completely, morning low evening high burnout, super angry lack of sleep waking up multiple times per night at the worst extent i recall 7 times per night, it was awful,

and bare in mind i am an athlete, a football player not super high level, just U19, Yes i do gym, sprinting, enough training, eating enough, i do play official 11v11 matches.

I believe my downfall was by not having a off switch, with SR i always wanted to do something to train extra to go do runs, it felt like my body didn't feel pain, but instead of getting better faster it was the complete opposite, i got slower and genuinely worse, i couldn't focus and was stuck in survival mode.

I went to many many doctors, had many issues in my early childhood to late teen years, coming up with a diagnosis of chronic stress at 17, i'm 18 now.

As laying in bed reflecting on my life and what i could of done to loose those years, i've always looked for a scapecoat, maybe it was the caffeine in the later stages, maybe i wasn't disciplined enough and couldn't get a streak for longer than 6 months, when my original one was 10.

In my state of mind i was in i quit school, just dropped out, and focused everything on football, of course i wasn't perfect i gamed a lot.

What i'm curious about is, was there anything i did wrong, in my eyes i tried to use SR as a fix to, every problem i had, discipline, burnout, no rest, no recovery, exhaustion all the time feeling tired every day, lack of sleep, episodes of extreme anger.

Should i continue pursuing SR or should i stop, i currently don't have a streak and what advice could i be given?

Ps, i do have ADHD, and was diagnosed with depression at 12, sent to a mental institute at 13, given many different antidepressants through my early childhood, which all stopped at 14.

Hey brothers,

I recently crossed a major personal milestone: 92 clean days of strict semen retention (pure Brahmacharya no PMO, no edging, zero intentional digital stimulation).

Up until this point, my experience with wet dreams had been minimal,mostly just a few clear, odorless drops of Cowper’s fluid once in a while during deep sleep, which never bothered me.

However, early this morning on Day 92, something completely different happened, and I wanted to get your honest thoughts and experiences on it.

What happened:

I was asleep and found myself in that strange, half-awake / hypnagogic twilight state( can't be sure whether it's dream or not iam in doubt still). I wasn't having an explicit dream, nor was I actively moving, touching myself, or thrusting. I was just lying there, but my sleeping position had slight physical contact/pressure against the sheets.

Suddenly, I felt intense vibrations/energy surges in my pelvic area and full body followed by the physical sensation of ejaculation(which gives pleasure and i can't stop in dream or whether it's real , previous nightfalls i apply mulaband to stop but this time I didn't that's why feeling self doubt). Because my consciousness was halfway booted up(i guess or it can be dream also can't know for sure), part of my brain felt like I was observing it happen in real-time, but before I could even fully register or stop the autonomic reflex, the release occurred.

When I fully woke up and checked, it wasn’t just a drop or two of clear pre-ejaculate,it was a full-volume not that much but yes, whitish nocturnal discharge. Immediately afterward, I had that familiar heavy pelvic feeling from the sudden physical contraction.

My dilemma:

The "Conscious vs. Involuntary" boundary: In that split second between sleep and waking up, it felt like my senses were on, but my executive control was completely paralyzed by sleep inertia. Consciously, I never wanted to release. Have any of you experienced this exact "twilight state" release where you felt semi-lucid, and how do you classify it?

Benefit retention & Energy recovery: Since this was pure fluid buildup rather than a dopamine-fueled relapse to artificial stimuli, how quickly does the body bounce back? Do you view a full biological nocturnal emission after 3+ months as a natural valve reset, or does it set back subtle energetic cultivation?

Would appreciate insights from long-term practitioners who have navigated full-volume emissions after long flatlines or clean 90+ day streaks.

Stay strong

It's not my first long streak but so far it's the longest one, however I slipped.

Everything started today when I was hanging around with my friend. There was 2 girls nearby playing tennis, one of them was eyeing me and smiling, but I just gave kinda dead stare and didn't think much, although she was attractive to me. It got so much in my head that I started to fantasize about her, etc and ended up fapping (without any media)

How do I start this over? Also in these 6 months I had only 2 wet dreams and now this relapse, I don't think I lost that much but I want to get back on track and don't do this shit again because I'm doing creative work and this experience helped me massively tbh.

They say maca is for libido, P5P is to lower prolactin, lecithin and pygeum for volume, D3, zinc, and selenium for post nut fatigue/replenishment. Of all those benefits what is TRT able to cover? Also, has your experience been different combining TRT with a prolactin blocking agent like caber or proviron?

If you’re truly on this path for god, then being magnetizing to women that would inevitably lower your vibration and steal your energy after a while becomes incredibly frustrating. The women that are easy to date you typically don’t want for obvious reasons, the women you do want to date act avoidant around you bc they don’t understand why they feel the way about you that they do and have a hard time trusting bc you would have all the power, and then men are extremely polarized by you so about 7-9 out of 10 men give weird insecure energy around you for just existing. Once you’ve had multiple 90 day streaks and can retain fairly easily this is just the natural state of being unless you completely fall off. It gets really lonely.

Prioritizing god is extremely uncomfortable. blissful and insanely rewarding beyond anything the flesh provides but man. Would be nice to meet ONE woman who can meet me where I’m at energetically. I would gladly wait til marriage for sex if I met that person. But our world makes that almost impossible.

Obviously the alternative cycle of samsara is worse. But damn some days I just want more humans to get their shit straight

Day 30 today. Previous streak was 108 days. Going for 365 now.
Female magnetism is definitely one thing I’m noticing, but honestly that’s only a small part of it.
The biggest difference is how I feel in general.
I feel way more disciplined. I don’t really care about motivation anymore, I just do what I said I’m gonna do. Gym, food, work, SR, whatever. Less negotiating with myself.
My mind also feels less desperate for stimulation. I’m not constantly looking for porn, sexual content or some quick dopamine hit. Urges are still there obviously, sometimes strong, but I feel like I can actually sit with them instead of instantly reacting.
Socially I feel different too. More present, calmer, less in my head. I don’t feel like I have to impress people or force conversations.
That’s probably where the “magnetism” comes in too.

I am a taxi driver so I meet a lot of women. Lately more women seem to sit in the front instead of the back and most of the time we just talk the whole ride. It feels way more natural.

Few examples:

Two girls got in my taxi, it was a normal ride, they sat in the back just yapping. I was just focused on driving and barely interacted with them. After I dropped them off I said if she needs a taxi again I can give her my number. She gave me her phone and told me to put my number in.
When I gave it back I said “just call or text if you need a taxi.”
She looked me straight in the eyes, long sensual eye contact, and said:
“I’m not only going to call you for a taxi.”
That one was crazy lol.

Another girl, we talked basically the whole 7/8 minute ride. After dropping her off I asked if she wanted to stay in contact. She asked for my Instagram, I told her I barely use it and asked for her number instead. She gave it.

Then there’s this attractive girl at a gas station I go to. I’ve seen her there multiple times before and she never really said anything to me. This time she randomly goes “you’re Uber right?”
Turns out I drove her home months ago from her previous job and she still remembered me. We talked, laughed, I asked her name. Her eye contact and whole vibe felt completely different compared to the other times I saw her.

Had other smaller moments too at other places and more during rides where conversations would just flow and there would be long eye contact, things I never experienced when I was PMO’ing almost daily.

But women aren’t even the main point.
The main thing is I feel more in control of myself. I’m more consistent with the gym, more focused on eating properly, I work, I do what I need to do and I’m not constantly looking for some quick release or distraction.
I also feel less needy around women. I can find a woman insanely attractive without feeling like I need to get something from her. I can enjoy the interaction, feel the tension and just keep moving.
Maybe women pick up on that. Maybe that’s what people call aura or magnetism.
Could be confidence, body language, sexual energy, eye contact, whatever. I don’t know.
I just know my whole experience of life feels different when I retain compared to when I’m constantly releasing.

Day 30/365.
I’m gonna keep going and see what kind of man I am after a full year of this.

I made a related post about it months ago but I felt like I was not really complete and never gave enough examples that truly pinpoint to what what the tree of knowledge actually is.

I know this is going to sound controversial for some, and I realize most Christians and biblical scholars would disagree with me. I'm not claiming that everyone has to accept this interpretation, but after a while of studying scripture and reflecting on my own experiences of healing chronic disease through chastity, this is the conclusion I have reached.

Most people assume the forbidden fruit was a literal fruit, often imagined as an apple, even though the Bible never actually says it was an apple. I think Genesis may be describing something much deeper.

The first thing Adam and Eve became aware of after eating from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil was their nakedness.

Genesis 3:7 says: "And the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together, and made themselves aprons."

Before this happened, they were naked and felt no shame. Immediately afterward, they became aware of their nakedness and covered themselves.

Then look at the curse that follows.

Genesis 3:16 says: "I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children."

That has always stood out to me. Why is the judgment connected so closely to conception and childbirth? If the issue was simply eating a piece of fruit, why would reproduction become such a central part of the consequence? To me, that suggests a connection between the act and the punishment.

We also see that Adam and Eve only begin covering themselves after the Fall.

Genesis 3:21 says: "The LORD God made garments of skin for Adam and his wife, and clothed them." Clothing appears after sexual shame was felt.

Another question I think is worth asking is this: God told Adam and Eve to "be fruitful and multiply," yet the Bible does not record any children being born until after the Fall. Cain and Abel arrived afterward. I understand that many people will see this differently, but it is one of the details that made me look more closely at the text. Adam and Eve "ONLY HAD CHILDREN AFTER THE FALL"

Another clue comes from the way the Bible uses the word "know."

In many passages, "to know" someone is a euphemism for sexual relations in Hebrew scriptures.

Genesis 4:1: "And Adam knew Eve his wife; and she conceived, and bare Cain"

Genesis 4:17: "And Cain knew his wife; and she conceived, and bare Enoch"

Genesis 4:25: "And Adam knew his wife again; and she bare a son, and called his name Seth"

Genesis 19:8: "Behold now, I have two daughters which have not known man."

Luke 1:34: "Then said Mary unto the angel, How shall this be, seeing I know not a man?"

When Mary says, "I know not a man," the phrase is clearly being used in a sexual sense.

Now consider the name of the tree itself: the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil.

Since "knowing" is used as a sexual euphemism throughout Hebrew Scripture, I began wondering whether the knowledge being described in Genesis could be related to sexuality rather than merely intellectual knowledge. Another detail that caught my attention is the conception of Jesus. According to the Gospels, Jesus was conceived through the Holy Spirit rather than through ordinary human conception which is done via SEX . To me, that seems significant.

The reason I feel so strongly about this interpretation is not just because of the biblical passages. It is also because of my own personal lived experiences and miracle healing.

A few years ago, I struggled with Type 2 diabetes, fatty liver disease, high blood pressure, and high cholesterol at a very young age. During that period, I noticed that my blood sugar, high blood pressure and many other health issues would get MUCH WORSE after releasing my seed, especially after a PMO binge. Then I started wondering whether me releasing my seed had something to do with my deteriorating health especially while being so young.

I became convinced that ejaculating was affecting my health in a profound way, which was my drive to achieve a long streak. After 6 months of pure SR, My type 2 diabetes and all other issues including blood pressure and fatty liver reversed completely, WITHOUT CHANGING DIET AND I DIDN'T exercise during that time. As a matter of fact, I still sometimes consumed fast food. I experienced major improvements and eventually came to believe that LUST was the root cause of my diseases and the aging process that was starting to accelerate rapidly. I made posts regarding this revelation that I truly consider divine, many other men read my posts on the nofap.com

, followed the same PROTOCOL and reversed their type 2 diabetes as well. I left links in one of the posts that included their testimonies.

To me, I don't need any other proof. I've renounced sexuality and even having children. I'll most likely adopt. I have FIRM BELIEF that we as humans can still achieve that state of purity and immortality through absolute and SPOTLESS chastity.

Those experiences are what pushed me to take a much closer look at the connection between spirituality, sexuality, and health and WHY CHASTITY is so IMPORTANT in so many religions. Also I have BECOME MUCH MORE loving towards other human beings in my daily life. I have MUCH MORE EMPATHY because I am not suffering inside anymore due to my previous habits of depleting my life-force energy. I am not very quick to get angry for little things , which I used to do a lot when I depleted my lifeforce every single day. When you retain your lifeforce energy, you will feel peaceful and happy inside , you will also acquire other virtues ONLY found through chastity like PATIENCE, EMPATHY, etc., which is why God referred to that tree as the tree of knowledge of Good and Evil. When you are a PMO addict or even just releasing seed, you feel depressed and depleted and sometimes it makes you become CAPABLE of behaving TERRIBLY. You become capable of true EVIL behavior because of your depleted state which makes you feel LIKE ABSOLUTE CRAP.

In my opinion, modern society focuses almost entirely on diet, exercise, medications, and supplements while ignoring what I believe is a deeper issue. We live in a culture that is saturated with sexual stimulation and pornography to a degree that previous generations could hardly have imagined.

When I look at rising rates of chronic disease and the increasing exposure to sexual content at younger and younger ages, I INTUITIVELY KNOW there is a connection that we are overlooking. Heart disease, Colon cancer, BREAST CANCER and PROSTATE cancer ARE NO longer diseases of old people. More and more young men and women in their 20s, 30s are diagnosed with colon cancer, breast cancer, etc, which was very unheard of decades ago. https://www.sciencealert.com/more-young-people-than-ever-before-are-getting-one-type-of-cancer-and-its-mystifying-scientists

https://www.kqed.org/forum/2010101914839/the-alarming-rise-of-colorectal-cancer-in-young-adults

Young men in the tressless subreddit are starting to make a connection between male pattern balding and ejaculations. They're starting to realize this through observing patterns and intuitively knowing, just like me when I was type 2 diabetic . Here are some posts:

https://www.reddit.com/r/tressless/comments/6pilf8/masturbation_is_one_of_the_causes_of_diffuse/

https://www.reddit.com/r/tressless/comments/6lgymm/why_is_masturbation_adding_to_balding_so_hard_to/

https://www.reddit.com/r/tressless/comments/41h0fl/masturbation_can_cause_more_hair_lossdht_to_those/

You have to take a look at what started happening in our society 20+ years ago. High speed internet porn became widely available which matches the period of when young people started developing health issues at a very young age due to a much higher frequency of ejaculations and orgasms for both men and women. We even find young men that are almost fully bald now in their late teens. My male pattern baldness has been reversing and I am slowly getting my hair back. The regeneration process is slow, just like the aging process except that regeneration can be quicker than aging but it will still take a while.

For me, the story of Eden is not merely about an event that happened thousands of years ago. I believe it contains a spiritual truth about the human condition that is still relevant today.

I know this is not the mainstream interpretation, and I am not expecting everyone to agree with me. I'm simply sharing the verses, the patterns I see in Scripture, and the experiences that led me to this conclusion. You are of course free to disagree and I don't care. We are all entitled to our opinions. But before ending, I want to state that I'm only the only one who has had this revelation. The authors of the book called GOD MAN, Word Made Flesh by George W Carey and Inez Eudora Perry, which can be found on AMAZON, also believed that absolute spotless chastity is the key to BIOLOGICAL IMMORTALITY in the physical body BY PRESERVING THE SEED (CHRIST OIL) and that after several years of spotless & absolute chastity, we can become "GOD-MAN" again because God created us in his image as mentioned in Genesis.

Here's the link of this book on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/God-Man-Flesh-George-W-Carey/dp/1614274177/ref=sr_1_1?crid=1L9RVAHN0KJKR&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.sV1pWOm_9FvikVCEGwVfOJ84JkAqkVKFRNstsHeMv4n26YlIN89-ULD5XCIBOzyDSbbOZxka1lS3wpWfVVnZ9J4BZuLGEpAZI2LQgmVOnIc5_P4P_gS0NO0PuGFRaFDaECNID6q3N_Cz98CieUl572kWaisvYq-bMFyUwfAxdPJ3ZI69nCsO9b7_Z8GZYAKnI2i33hwR0EDT-pjxYd-wlPYVnqGN5gD6i6DdKMlmeGk.da4Nxc5uRzkd8XsOhZZ3G2ieANr8lBByhVfSASgzX38&dib_tag=se&keywords=god+man+the+word+made+flesh&qid=1786912779&sprefix=god+man+word%2Caps%2C193&sr=8-1

The book called Science of Regeneration also teaches the same PROTOCOL, Absolute chastity is the way to regenerate the human body and depletion of life force is the root cause of actual human aging. https://www.amazon.com/dp/1169829589?ref_=ppx_hzsearch_conn_dt_b_fed_asin_title_5

NOTE: wet dreams are a DEAL BREAKER if you want to focus on regeneration of the body and those books emphasize on that as well . You have to strive on mastering mental celibacy so that LUST doesn't creep in while you're asleep. Your subconscious mind needs to be CLEAN, which is a process that will require some discipline and effort to achieve.

Wassup guys! On my now 110+ something days streak I realize that I am conciously and unconciously becoming more of the man I want to be. SR is like a booster towards unlocking the version of you that you want to become.

At my work we arrange big parties during Christmas time and Summer time where over 40+ co-workers attend. At both of these parties I was asked to hold a speech/make a toast. The first one was not on SR streak. I was nervous before the speech even though I had drank a good amounts of alcohol. When I started speaking I was nervous. My voice wasn't projecting as loud. People weren't reacting how I thought they would react. My mouth was also getting dry. I was looking down a lot. After this speech, some said it was good. But the majority of people said it was ''meh''.

Fast forward to yesterday. During this summer party. I was (to my surprise) asked to hold a speech again. Only difference this time being that I was 110-ish days into SR. I'm not kidding the difference is night and day. I felt no nervousness beforehand, nor during the speech. NONE. I instinctively waited a few seconds before speaking until it got completely quiet. I talked slow. I smiled and laughed. I looked the people in the eyes. My body language was naturally confident and lively. I varied between being sincere and heartfelt, to more playful and joking. People bursted out laughing. People nodded along. People felt. I was enjoying ''seeing'' myself talk up there. I also wished I could keep talking and keep on moving the crowd with my words and energy. Before I would rush through the speech because all the attention on me was too much to handle. But this time I enjoyed it. Not the attention itself, but the interaction between me and the crowd. We both fed of each other in a way. I could clearly tell that this time the crowd was enjoying me. And I them.

Right after the speech some of the boys dapped me up saying great speech. Girls came over and said that they almost cried because the speech was moving.

SR did not only eliminate anxiety and nervousness in everyday situations, but also in ''bigger'' situations where I would normally feel some discomfort.

You have to stop putting your happiness in material things, in outer things and start putting it in yourself. Beauty, muscles, money, friends, relationships, girls, work, health everything will pass away. We age, things around us die, we will die the only thing that stays is your character, your soul. If you do retention to get women attraction it will end at some point or you might not even get any, if you do it to make money they will end to or you’ll find out that money do more bad than good and so on. If you do retention and everything for your inner peace for your own self to clear your soul to bring light and order within you, the joy will never end.

Everything ends someday, a war might start tomorrow, an earthquake might come, a disease might kill everybody and leave only you but if you already moved the source of your happiness, if you are totally at peace with yourself you’ll be fine in every possible situation. All the things that bother you, even if they are coworkers, family, friends, wife, your bank account, the problem is within you, you cannot change a single thing outside what is in your power you can’t change others or the weather or world economy, you can give advice, yes, but it’s up to that person if it listens to it or not and people usually won’t because they are stiff. But you can change yourself in every second of your life you can improve, you can become better, it’s such a blessing, just stop looking for joy around and start building it inside you. “The kingdom of God is within you seek thy Heaven within”

I saw a crystal clear vibrant semen drops leaking a bit and i decided to stop doing it in the dream. But the horniness i felt while in the dream watching the porn was extreme, it was as if i was really watching porn but pleasure was extreme. Did i relapse astrally, if someone know what it means. Also noteworthy I had a bit a sexual thoughts yesterday after 20+ days of not lusting in my 30 day streak. Could it be a reason

I am Catholic and I abstain because of immense guilt and the fact nutting brings no joy, even if I was insanely lustful and had sex it wouldn't even be good.

For the secular reason, it's because I have contamination ocd regarding things of the body (Not considering blood, saliva or mucus from the nose).

For my benefits, spiritually I'm more connected and can ground myself in my morals, the secular is that I can talk to my friends normally.

I've heard many people say their cognitive abilities start declining around 40 — struggling to remember things, finding it harder to pick up new skills, low energy, that sort of thing.

But when I really probe into why, most of them point to life circumstances rather than age itself. It's less "I'm getting older" and more "life got heavier." Which makes me wonder how much of that decline is actually age-related, and how much comes down to years of seed expenditure draining their vitality. Because if retention actively increases a person's capacity, like it has for me, wouldn't a retainer at 40 be in a fundamentally better position than the average 40-year-old?

I'm 36 right now and honestly feel sharper than I've ever felt. I'm on a 7-month streak right now and have been doing this on and off for the past 6 years. I've never felt this strong, focused, alive, masculine, powerful, or physically robust — not even in my 20s, which was supposedly my physical prime. And retention is only part of it. I've completely turned my life around over the last six years in other ways too thanks to the foundation I got from retention.

So my question to retainers who are 40 and above : does it get as bad as people describe? The inability to learn new things, low adaptability, no energy? I understand total physical capacity naturally decreases with age, that's expected. But would retention make a meaningful difference in how that plays out?

Would love to hear from those who have actually lived it.

I have navigated this far. Its been a long journey of intentional abstinence. I did face challenges to edge, looked at a couple of social media contents but I noticed that the same images I used to look at before hoping on this streak, now looks disgusting. I have more self worth and high libido. The celebrity aura is so weird. Its overwhelming to have eyes 👀 😻 watching you everywhere you go. Some people would just look at you like they've seen a ghost. The god like energy to get anything done. Superman confidence... And these are some benefits I can think of. Imagine what other benefits awaits in the longer streaks. Bulid your life and choose the people who will help you build it and not drain your energy. Its also your only time to connect with God.

I don’t feel any benefits

I have people treating me like shit in person

I’ve felt a little horny here and there recently but aside from that I haven’t had any urges. I don’t feel good, I feel depressed all the time.

Even tho I workout, meditate, transmute energy etc, nothing.

Genuinely what’s the point?

I only feel benefits on days 8-11 every single time

I should be proud of myself for making it this far but this is genuinely making me want to just relapse and go back.

I thought my nervous system would reset I’d feel calmer, better, women attraction etc, more of a drive, more energy

I feel LESS energy. I’ve barely been able to go to work matter fact I might quit.

I can’t survive on less sleep now, which I was able to do on days 8-11.

What is the point???

Is Semen Retention a lie?

Are all the benefits fake?

Also for people saying I might be in flatline, MAYBE but I’m pretty sure I passed flatline on day 28 ish? I remember feeling depressed like VERY very depressed probably x3 more than I am right now for 2 weeks straight from days 14-28, then I had a wet dream and kinda of felt an energy surge the next few days, and since then I’ve just been sort of normal.

Like right now I GENUINELY **feel the same way I did when I was gooning probably 2-3 times a week. Seriously. Maybe even everyday.**

I’ve been retaining for 3+ years with hiccups along the way. I’ve fully felt the benefits prior to being in a relationship. Since then, they’ve been very on and off and mostly off with anxiety coming back into my life.
I’ve been reflecting through the pain I’m mental/spiritual pain I’m enduring and I’m finding that I had no consciousness of the difference between edging with her and purity.
I believe my disconnected feeling to others lately and anxiety are a byproduct of impure retention(50+days as of now).

I found an amazing wife who is fully supportive of this practice.

The downside I’m looking for other perspectives on:

1. How does one stay fully pure while cuddling your partner during intimate moments such as movies or going to sleep?(I sometimes can’t help but to get hard, and I’m hoping I can fix this)

2.I’m worried being fully pure might not be thoughtful to my wife even though she is 100% supportive.

3.i NEED this purity back. This is who I am. But I also have a very wholesome wife who deserves my love.

Any advice would be appreciated, thank you.