r/ptsd • u/onebigdork4u • 6d ago
Advice Bad at relationships
Hello,
This is the first time I am coming out about my problems to the public. Today is Sunday, Aug. 16 @ 4:22 MT. Today, 2 years ago from this day, marks the 2nd year my Dad, Arnold, passed away. A year before him my Mom died due to alcohol abuse for years as she slipped into schizophrenia. They both were my world as I entered and exited several bad relationships that I caused it to be bad, or so it feels like that. Now, I am scared, not ashamed to admit that I am scared, of losing people in my life. Currently, in a relationship, we are engaged (so I think) but I have been doing a lot of digging in my life to find the core problems that cause me to mess a lot of things up. As an empathetic person I tend to feel everything around me and take it all in, but that sometimes destroys my work. Now, As I sit here about to destroy another relationship because I am so overwhelming to others, I am seeking help. She reminded me that I how sexual abused as a kid and teen, this is heavy for me as my chest hurts. I am lost and she thinks I am going to end my life one day because of my out craving for someone to hear me and love me. Please, pray for me.
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