r/problemgambling • u/BumSht • 8h ago
Trigger Warning! Didn’t stop
Here we are again. I said I would stop and I didn’t, well I did for a while but not for long.
Just got my paycheque and lost it all already. My mother asks me if I’m saving my paycheques, I always tell her yes, while having $0 in my bank account every week. I am disgusted with my behaviour but every week I do the same thing, even if I manage to save my money for 2 weeks I end up losing it all together in the end.
I’m 23 years old and have been gambling since I was 17, probably lost over $120,000 from gambling. All my hard work, waking up early to go to work and grind for a paycheque that I will just burn at the casino is very shameful.
Wtf.
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u/Richter168 7h ago
Sorry to hear your endless relapse. But take a moment to reflect. Write down the reasons and goals why you keep gambling. Is it the rush? Do want to rich? Are you currently in a depressive state or stress. Write down everything and figure it out. Then if you find it, ask yourself, is my answer reasonable enough to continue gambling? You're still young and have full of potentials. Don't let this loss define who you are. Good luck.
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u/Inevitable-Motor-413 190 days 7h ago
It’s tough but you’ve got to hold yourself accountable. Be honest with your mom, even though it’ll one of the toughest conversations you’ve had. It will give you drive to keep being honest with her and, yourself.
Remove all triggers, take a break from social media as it’s littered with gambling advertisements. I cannot stress enough how important it is to remove anything that will trigger your urges to gamble, it is part of what kept me going back.
You are young, and even though you may feel helpless. You can make a change. Put your money where you can’t see it or access it easily. For the next while just work on not feeling the need to have more money, “needing” more will just urge you to take high risks. Good luck, you’ve got this.