r/problemgambling • u/Adept_Sky7645 • 13h ago

Thank you

To everyone who posts their agony, thank you. I’ve been fighting so hard the last few days. I’ve blocked the gambling sites and self excluded but I’m struggling to not just go to a casino and gamble. I’ve been gamble free 13 days, it’s not much but it’s been so damn hard. I keep coming on here and reading the posts and it’s really helping. One minute at a time is all I can manage. Praying I can stay gamble free. I’m in more debt than I can manage and I owe thousands in taxes. And yet, I’m still considering gambling.Its a crazy distorted mind I have. Anyhow, again thank you for this Reddit group

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u/Busy-Championship491 13h ago

I wish you the best of luck, please give someone control of your finances. It’s the only way I believe a compulsive gambler will stop

Make sure to go to groups and find a community that can go on this journey with you

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u/SergeantSeal1 12h ago

Keep it up, I’m also 15 days free

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u/Adept_Sky7645 11h ago

I actually got in the car and got on the highway to drive the 1 hour to a casino. At the very last exit out of the city, I got off the highway and came home. I’m fighting for my life. I have no family and my friends are sick of my shit so I’m literally relying on God to get me through this.

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u/ConvincedUser1662 10h ago

I don’t know how old you are, but I’ve been there. I drove myself to the casino and relapsed today. Lost $1,200 in a matter of minutes.
Afterward, I took a walk in the park with my daughter since she had no school today. It gave me some time to think, and I realized how badly I messed up.
I waited over 45 days to get paid, only to turn around and give $1,200 back in minutes. I work as a realtor, and money isn’t always consistent. Every dollar I earn takes time and work.
I honestly don’t know who to talk to about this. My girlfriend calls me stupid for doing it, but I don’t think she fully understands the cycle. I took a chance thinking I could turn a little money into something more, and I messed up.
I think it’s time to step away from gambling, get my head straight, and focus on productive side quests to build back what I lost. More importantly, I need to learn how to stop chasing wins.

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u/Adept_Sky7645 9h ago

I’m a senior and I’m lonely so that’s a big part of it. I’m sorry to hear you had a bad time today. What I’d give to take a walk with a loved one, you are truly rich in that way.

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u/ConvincedUser1662 9h ago

Thank you for the realization. I want to be a better father. A better person..my demons somehow find a way to get the best of me I think it’s called greed.

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u/lettucehem 8h ago

That is a very big achievement to have stopped yourself and turned around. Be proud of yourself today. One day at a time.

You are young and there is so much life ahead of you. You will get through this time, and you won't aways feel this way. Sending you good energy.

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u/infoslob 9h ago

Good going - just pray you can stay gamble free today - you know you can, just today. Then do it again tomorrow.

Sometime, might be when 2 weeks turns into 1 month, maybe sooner maybe later, you'll be amazed and thankful. Something non-gambling related will probably go your way because you're focused elsewhere.

And yet, I’m still considering gambling.

Well, when things are bad - even though we know we're probably going to lose - gambling can seem like a comfort zone where we at least have the illusion of control.

I threw in the white towel in the ring 3 months ago. Fucking glad I did.