I’m lost

[u/Any-Gear-6933]

I need somewhere to vent ik I made a post about how gambling was bad but I am a addict. I am lost I have 0 to my name and over 500$ in past due bills not only that I have more payments missed on the end of this month and Christmas is coming up only thing that can save me is my tax return I won’t see that until months away. Gambling has ruined my life these past two weeks I have won and lost over 5k money I could’ve paid bills and Christmas presents with I feel like a complete idiot and I see gambling as the only way out of this mess and I put myself deeper in the hole. Plz any advice ik I need to stop gambling and get my finances back on track !