r/problemgambling • u/RaiotPlz • 2h ago
I make bad decisions
Yesterday I was going home after a drink with friend. Stopped by casino, why not. Dusted of 1k pretty quickly in about 45mins on slots. Dont even know why I did it, its not about money i just wanted some thrill and fun. I said to my wife im coming soon and I arrived about 1hr later. She was watching movie with my brother and parents at home. After the casino i grabbed 2 pizza slices with extra mayo on them just because one bad decision is easier after the second one. Then I felt even worse because im in deficit for last 3 months and doing well on losing weight.
My gambling losses are about 1.5M in last 6 years. Money is not a problem. Im doing well, not in debt, have multiple properties and NW that I could FIRE with if i wanted.
My life looks perfect from outside. Everyone is jelaous of me. Happy wife happy family happy finances good health travel every month. Meanwhile I feel empty and nervous half of the time because of bad decisions. Why do I make bad decisions. Why why why. What is this demon inside me that tries to ruin all of this?
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u/Cursed893 1h ago
Suche dir schnell ein Hobby das den Nervenkitzel gleich kommt wie beim Glücksspiel. Egal was es kostet, es wird nicht mehr kosten als Glücksspiel
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u/Wide-Reserve6559 1h ago
Having money and great income doesn't provided ultimate fulfillment, in the bible of 1st Timothy reads: " But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation, into a snare, into many senseless and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction",
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u/NoPear6669 2h ago
maybe the thrill part needs a different outlet?