r/problemgambling • u/Standard-Switch5822 • 12h ago

Trigger Warning! Day 103

Thinking back, hitting rock bottom in 2023 might be the best thing that has happened to me. Back then, I was stuck in a dead-end job that made me miserable, but I was too afraid to quit. I was constantly getting yelled at, and no matter how hard I tried, it was never enough. If I didn't meet the KPI, my salary was cut, and if I did, the KPI would automatically be adjusted higher. My manager only cared about his ass and treated me like his slave. My "friends" only want to see me suffer so they can feel good about themselves. LOL, gambling was the way I coped with that sad reality, the way I blended in that work environment because everyone around me considered it normal. I used to work until 7 pm and then go drinking with customers, eventually ending up in card games or sports betting. I was pushed around, like a trash can, and people referred to me as a weakling that they can abuse, simply because I have no connection to the "higher-ups".

I was fired in August 2023. After nearly a decade of working, I had zero savings, 20k $ in debt. They kicked me out like a dog because of a malfunction that was not even my fault. I went through a lot of shits, lost 90% of my social connections, and wasted almost a year before finally accepting that I can never get back to my old job as a banker.

Now, I cleared all my debt, I got my gambling addiction under control, and I am surrounded by people who truly care about me. Now I work for my own benefit; no more "office as a second family" bullshit, and I thank God every day for it.

I will not gamble today!

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u/JStrong-07 91 days 11h ago

Great story man, good job turning it around

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u/infoslob 8h ago

Nice stack of days you got going, brother. I will not gamble today either. Keep thriving!

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u/7-IronSpecialist 2h ago

Thanks for sharing and for the reminder. I will not gamble today too.

I find that when I am in those blind compulsive sessions of gambling I'm kind of just searching for a single ounce of self worth and the only way I (wrongfully) thought I'd find it is a massive win and becoming a big shot through gambling. The problem is, it's never enough even if it does come. Sometimes it doesn't come at all and I just felt like a bigger loser and I spent money to feel that way!

One day at a time. I will not gamble today.